All Bout My Insanity Life.

RE: had this argument with my mum yesterday

2008-06-27T19:50:00.000-07:00

hey there..

today's the 28th and here it goes.

it's 10.51am and i've just woke up from my sleep bout 50mins ago. that's 10.00 btw. =].. anyway, yesterday i had this FREAKING F*UKING argument with my mum. it all happen when she started clearing the snacks in the bowl and on the table.. i was watching '' life with derek'' after the show at 11.30, i went washing up, brushin my teeth bla bla bla.... there's this tin of cookies which i've forgotten to put it in a air tight container and so i was ask to do that later on.. my mum left the tin of cookies in the toilet and on the table which i was practically brushing my teeth.... then she walk away.. i was like'' put it on the table outside''. she didn't hear what i've said. so, i brought stopped brushing my teeth for awhile and brought the tin of cookies out of the toilet and PUT IT ON THE TABLE WHICH THE SOUND OF PUTTIN ON THE TABLE WAS QUITE LOUD. AND MY MUM THOUGHT I SLAMMED IT ON THE TABLE... she then came into the toilet saying'' *pulls my hair* don't make me shout.....'' then went out of the toilet took the tin of cookies came in and SLAM THE TIN OF COOKIES ON MY HP N ON THE TABLE.. i was like kinda feeling FREAKING ANGRY... what's the fcukin wrong with my mum?!?!?!... i got really angry and i scolded softly at my mum.. all those VULGARITY just happen to pop out of my mouth like '' FCUK YOU!... *RSE*OLE'' kinda stuff.. WHAT SO EVA!.. after washing and brushin up, bla bla .... brought the cookies out left it on the table near the computer and applied lotion and stuff.. went to bed.. i slept far away from my mum.. i was feeling fustrated and angry and i was like breathing in and out controllin my anger... till finally i ain't control much longer till tears flowin out from my eyes.. i went to the toilet looking for any sharp equipment thinkin of slashin.. but i looked away slam my fist on the cupboard to LOOSE MY ANGER.. my mum came in talking BADLY, PULLING MY EARS, HAIR, TRYIN TO TURN MY HEAD N LOOK AT MYSELF IN THE MIRROR!!!.. at that time i was really angry and i can't take it animore. i kinda like told my mum in a loud manner that i didn't slam the cookies on the table and slam the door. and she went all..... bla bla bla... ARGGGGGGGGGGG....WHATEVER!!!!! GO TO HELL!!!....after letting out my anger and everything... last thing i did was taking the maths set one of the instrument as in i took the one where we need to draw a circle.. there's this sharp point, all i did was i took that, went into the toilet, went scratchin my left arm.. 3 short lines bout 1cm.. from there, i felt kinda relief.. =)... after that, i went back to sleep... since i can't sleep as i'm still quite angry.. last thing i did was i throw my pillow on the floor to let go my last anger!.. and my mum was like

mum: just look at how you behave..
me: i just wanna let out my anger can i?!?!
mum: what???
me: i said i just wanna let out my anger CAN I?!?!?!
mum: why not you bang your head on the wall if you angry
me: * freaking angry and disappointed the way she said that*
mum: go knock your head against the wall next time
me: *silents and started shedding tears...* * seconds later, took my cellphone, typing a journal in my hp .. all in CAPITAL LETTERS saying all sorts of bad stuff to my mum.. even lots of VULGARITIES!!.. after bout 5 or 6 pages, i felt peaceful and went to sleep.*

like WTH is wrong with her.. she said if i wanna let out my anger, is fine.. there i went letting out my anger and she started scolding me, pulling my hair and pinchin my ears.. WTF!!!!.. ARGGGGGG.... seriously speaking, one day i can goooo NUTS AND INSANE i can dosage myself with panadol or even ran away from home!!! FOREVER!!! AND EVEN SKIPPED SCHOOL FOR ALL I CARE MAN!!.. so sorry but that's real. FREAKING HATE MY LIFE AT TIMES!!!.. sometimes i wish i wasn't even born in this world... or sometimes i just wish i was D E A D! what does that word reads? DEAD!.... arggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. gosh!!.. that is how i feel when i'm in a state. as in freaking fustrated! angry! or feeling annoyed!!!.. trust me!!. anyway, im goin for NDP later.. and endin late again.. mayb i shall not answer my mums call if she happened to call me!!... fustrated with her!!!... for now is 11.27am and i'm stopping here. till then, see ya folks.

everything wasn't ok i was left to cry there
waiting outside there grinning with a lost stare
that's when i decided

crying out loud i'm crying out loud (x2)

open your eyes
open up wide
why should i care
cuz you weren't there
when i was scared i was so alone why should i care
cuz you weren't there when i was scared i was so alone
why should i care
if you don't care then i don't care were not goin newhere.

Avril lavigne - losing grip lyrics

screwed

2008-06-26T02:28:00.000-07:00

I SOOO FREAKING SCREWED UP MY FnN TODAY!! ARGG!!!
I'M SOO FREAKING PIST OFF WITH MYSELF..SIMPLY SCREWED UP MY MARKS AWAY MAN! FCUK HELL WRONG WITH ME TODAY. I'VE COMPLETELY SLIPPED OFF THOSE FnN NOTES OUTTA THE BLUE. ARGGGGG.

anyway, after FnN, we had lunch in the canteen and headed to school library for our english oral together with afiq and hakeem. all of us were practicing our reading and on how pronunciation.. but of cuz, at times we were giggling and laughin away and chewing chewing gum while reading and practicing our oral haha. after oral, it was about 11.30 and we left and went home.. i'm sooo PIST OFF with myself man. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!! FUCK SIA!!!..n i kinda stressed out during FnN till my hair was messy and looks like one crazy girl when i went into the washroom to take a look at myself.. hahaha. oh well, i dun care!! i shall try even harder on prelim!! this is just a trial. next prelim, gonna try harder!!!! till then, i shall continue revising my maths for tomorrow!.. see ya!!

more than a name or face in the crowd

re:none

2008-06-18T23:21:00.000-07:00

hey!!..

today's the 19th june.

nothing much but i've been studyin and revising plus NDP-ing at marina platform.=)
right now, my bro is sleeping in my mum's room and i can't study in there. i can't concentrate too as the aircorn is on and it's lowered down to like 22 degrees. i'm like freezing cold.. i woke up around 10 or 11 plus.. oh and my brother's friends are in his room sleeping like a log or a pig..haha.. so.. anyway, i'm right now at the first floor in the living room.. just finish studyin n revising for like 2hrs and i played ''audition'' for 20 minutes. and now i'm bloggin.. later on, around 3.30, i'm headin to my mum's school to help her out for abit then headin off to airport terminal 3 to fetch my dad as well as have dinner.. for now, my head is spinning every 5 minutes... that hurts ok. super 40% stressed out aight*. no matter what i use to distress myself, it's no use. right now my headphone with mp3 music is hung around my neck. maximum volume is 30 listenin to songs but still i'm havin headaches.. GRRRRR... 4 more days b4 my trial prelims and 3 more days b4 school re-opens. i'm right now feeling so screwed up, freaking out and nervous bout exams... HELP ME!!!!!!!!....freaking arse bored right.. ain't got things top do besides reading, studyin n revisin like one insane and nerdy creep.. always felt like doin other things but afraid that i will get carried away.. and whenever i feel stressed out, i'll just slack the whole time and doze off on the table..DARN IT!!! MY HEAD IS HURTING LIKE NOW!!... i soooo wanna go to my mum's school earlier if that's possible. i'm like freaking bored as hell!.. i ain't close with my granny... ain't really close with my brother.. and my sister just left for work.. it's just soooooooo....grrrrrr..... nvm.. forget it. mayb i shall msg my mum askin her if i could go to her school earlier...i feel like a rotten rock at home yaw!.. till then, b4 i go really insane, i shall stop here.. tata.

if you wan to play it like a game
well, come on, let's play
i'd rather waste my life pretending
than have to forget you for one whole minute

they taped over your mouth
scribbled out the truth with their lies
your little spies
they taped over your mouth
scribbled out the truth with their lies
your little spies

crush
crush
crush
crush, crush

re: holiday

2008-06-10T09:02:00.000-07:00

Hey there.

today's the 10th of june. and it's after NDP practice that I'm actually bloggin. it's past midnight like 12.05am.. woohoo.. had my bath like minutes ago and so now i'm usin the towel to dry my hair and later on i'm gonna blow-dry a little and head to bed. anyway, today was the same thing had practice and there's this mly guy that looked like Chinese he kinda looked at me weirdly. cuz i was speakin mly to a sec 2/3 guy. after talkin to him, the guy whom looked like chinese, he talked to me.. and so did i talk to him =)... bla bla bla. sucha tiring day. and it rain heavily like cats and dogs. freaking cold when the wind blows strongly. anyway, here's my trip to macau & Hong Kong diary.

5th june

Today's my b'day n now i'm in d speedboat heading to macau. i'm so having a seasick if d boat keeps shakin as in in tiltin left and right. anyway, right now, guess what, i saw 4 HOT n macho guys from northern india. Seriously.. it's like i'm head over hills with them. 1 of the guy he kinda look at me quite alot of times n i look at him too. not me alone but my mum too i mean both my mum and i admire him.. we admire em' 4 long hours.. haha. not really. okok stop it. i'm going crazy n feel like vomittin anitime... like soon i guess.. anyway, today i guess we're not walkin aniwhere.. after this we're goin to our hotels and from there we'll c. gotta stop. i'll continue later.
6.39pm.
i'm right now havin dinner at d restaurant.. hours ago, my parents and i walked around to see clothes, jewelleries and taste diff chocolates. that's called window shopping..oh and btw, i saw them again! but it's one of the guy that kept on lookin at me n got my eyes eyein on whenever i c him around. lol. b4 that, we were in our hotel rooms restin while i played with d laptop chattin with zahid n two other foreigner friends of mine.. im darn bored waitin 4 my parents servings.. my eye are gonna close anitime. so yeah. later on would be just walkin around the whole hotel then bed time.. see ya.

6th june

today was a draggg. early in the morning it was rainin heavily like cats and dogs.. my parents and i had breakfast in the hotel itself. it's called the 'cafe de cor' had cereals n a pinch of this and that on my mums serving. after breakfast, headed back to our hotels, pack d stuff that we need n bus-ed to zhu hai.. was almost drenched. thanks to the rain my facourite pair of shoes from USA was soaked with pourin rain.. went through all immigrations n stuff n finally went to a big shoppin mall. spend most of d time in d mall buyin shirts, n of cuz jeweleries and phone keychains as well as a little soveniour 4 my friends. my dad was annoyin both my mum n i as in kept tellin us to speed up when there isn't a need to.. so i just fugly freakin ignored his chasin. seriously irritatin. anyway, i'm in a SAN BAO restaurant having lunch which i'm havin sandwich as i'm not hungry. like wth is wrong with me. i ain't in a mood 4 no reason. after lunch, we walked around then finally bus-ed back to macau. went up the hotel room, rested 4 like few seconds n went out again to walk around. bought two blouse from esprit. after that, had dinner.. 4 now i'm tired n tmr we're heading back to hong kong 4 another 2 nights n monday we're headin back to s'pore. see ya folks.

7th june

first time of d day that we woke up late 4 breakfast at d 5 star hotel. anyway, after breakfast, we went up, had our final pack n check out of the hotel. ' i miss admiring those hot guys.. hahah. shht*..' niway, bus-ed to d ferry terminal airport. n now i'm in a first fery macau boat headin to hong kong. then bus-ed or car-ed to shangri-la hotel. i'll continue later aight*. ( ps. sorry if i've forgotten to continue my story. was tooo buzy and tired after a whole day of shopping on this day.).

8th june

heylo. today's finally d last day that we're gonna shop. first of all, we woke up very early in d morning.. had buffet till bout 9 plus. then, my mum and i went back to our rooms to do girls stuff. after that, came down n walked all d way to d MTR station. * in HK they call it the MTR while s'pore call d MRT* n went all d way to place where we wanted to take d cable car ride but it was close cuz of the flood... so ended up shoppin around d mall till bout 3 or 4 plus then mtr-ed back to tsim sha shui and walk around and look at the shops... minutes later,we headed back to our hotels rest for awhile...bath and all... at about 6 or 7 plus, went out again to the streets to try some desserts.. o well, lte's just say i bought a D.K.N.Y jeans cap. i love that cap.. i wore it and people stare at me. as well as one foreigner guy as in the aussie guys. he kinda stared at me once n i stare at him too. then i look elswhere and looked at him again and he was kinda lookin a smilin. at first he was standin n leanin on one of the shops n against the wall after then he kinda stand still and walk over to another shop n looked at me again. i kinda look at him again and went into the CD shop. LOL... i'm CRAZY!!!.. after tryin the dessert, all of us walked home and BED TIME!.

9th june

hey. today is d final day and we're goin back to s'pore. woohoo. oh well, first of all we went for buffet breakfast. dad was rushin us as he don't wanna waste time. ate quickly n went of, walked underground as in d MTR station to another of the place. took some photo's of a Filipino's maid on how they earn money, n even how they pray. after that, bus-ed tour again to harbour city. went window shoppin. didn't buy anithin cuz d things were too ex-ed. so, other then that, came out of the shop, went to look 4 food to eat. walk around again as in window shopping again. waited 4 mum as she went buyin chinee medicine back. finally walk all d way back to out hotel room. let's just say i rested in d room, packin n get ready to head to d airport while my parents went out to d market again to buy her stuff. after awhile, they came back and started packin their last minute stuff. at about 3, a driver came to pick us up to d airport. i sat infront. D aircorn was blowin at me face that every 5 min, my eyes close and open as in makes me wanna sleep. lol. once reached n all, check in, went in d departure side, waited 4 few minutes n got into d airplane n off to s'pore.

so that's how my diary goes for macau and hong kong trip. pictures?.. kinda sloppy to upload it. next time i'll upload it aight*.sooo for now.. FUN IS GONE AND NOW HERE COMES THE STRESSIN PART, REVISIN, STUDYIN FOR UP COMIN PRELIMS yeah. tmr onwards i ain't goin online! but since SHAZWAN( sec 2) ask me to go online... i shall go online for awhile and then go on with my studies aight*. till then see ya folks. it's 12.48AM. i'm about to close my eyes.
see ya folks.

re: early b'day ''bash''

2008-06-04T00:52:00.000-07:00

hey hey!!!

4th june.

acturlly i wasn't in a mood to hang out with my mum as i was dead beat from yesterdays NDP practise.. but then had a message from my mum askin me to get my butt outta from bed.. no choice but to get up and get ready. headed to parkway and had lunch with her. we had sakae sushi.. played peek-a-boo with this cute little foreigner boy.. really adorable ok. haha.. anyway, after eating, she went to do all the errands and bought 2 b'day cakes for my sister and i then headed home..

and now let me talk bout yesterday which is the 3rd of june

had NDP practice...
ndp happen to start at 6.45.. and i was being demanded by fatin as in tellin me to be at the eunos MRT station by 5.00. that's ok. next thing is, i got ready by 5.40 and left the house at 4.45. reached mrt at 5.05. guess what.. NO ONE'S EVEN THERE YET. grrrrr... LOL.. waited there for half an hour like fool till finally sabariah came. anyway, waited...and waited then amira.... finally fatin came. that was alreadi around 6??.. MRT-ed to bedok.. waited for siti, atikah and suzianah. bus 14-ed all the way to bedok camp. by the time we reached, it was alreadi 7 plus. LATE. but didn't get a scolding. bla bla bla bla. made a new friend.. her names is zhong yi.. talk to her quite alot.. bla bla bla.. until the end of NDP practice and this is how it happends. first of all, headed to the toilet.

*all went into the toilet except for me waited outside*
fatin,siti,amira: Nette.. u do wan to come in?
me: do wan..
siti: nette, come in..
me: do wan urh..

*seconds later i went in*
*lookin at the mirror..*
*amira playin with the so called toilet bowl where the guys pee.. 1 by 1 pushin the button. *
*me starrin at the thing duno for what*
siti: nette suke sia tgk punye tu.
me: *laugh* no lar i was lookin at the water lur

either fatin,amira or ct *started pouring cold water on me*
i stood down screamin like crazy.. seconds later i stood up wanted to ran out but ended up fallin down hurtin my knee.. but still laughin away... my left leg was like through the door.. siti,fatin n amira continue enjoyin pouring water on me.. almost drenched from head to toe.. LOL.. went out from the toilet, peeps starrin at me. *PAISEH MAN*....all the water spray made my contact lens drop out.. wanted to put back but can't.. both my hands were sheivering.. lol.. but still i had a good and fun time yesterday.. THANKS YEA GIRLS FOR THE SABO-ING AFTER NDP WHEN I WAS TIRED THEN SUDDENLY WATER POURING TIME..* next time pour usin one whole bucket yea. hahahhaha..thanks for that n i have a blue-black on my left knee.. but still, love you all lur...*.. niway, it's 4.28pm and i'm goin out again later for my sis and i b'day celebration.. and tmr i'm goin to macau!! see ya!!!!!

re:none

2008-05-29T21:01:00.000-07:00

heylo.

it's 12.01pm. waiting for the peeps who is repairin the aircorn to get outta my mum's room b4 i can brush up. anyway, i wanna make this clear. from today onwards till i go for holiday, i wanna revise and study for some of my subjects. i wanna read up. n if i can, i wanna do my holiday assignment as well. that's my plan. seriously speakin, these few days, or weeks, i've been slackin and lazin around like deep shiat. watchin movies on youtube, chattin, playin games n all sorts of stuff. yeayea. only i knew it myself. my mum don't really know. so yeah. from today, i'll try not to blog or go online. only to listen to music just to chill myself. till then,

i have to go.
gonna start dwelling on revision as well as studyin n homeworkin after the aircorn peeps have left. till then

see ya.

re: none

2008-05-28T18:58:00.000-07:00

hello...

today's the 29th of may and it's 9.59Am..

today, supposedly there's a english practise oral in school. but ended up not going. let's just say the i couldn't sleep last night. tossing and turning like crazy.. couldn't fall asleep till i had a miss call, i jerked up and headed back tryin to sleep till i finally did. LOL. -.-''.. at around 7.00 the aircorn disrupted my sleep.. let me just say my aircorn almost exploded. luckily my mum jerk up and quickly off it. it's been years and months n still we've not change the aircorn. anyway, from then on i continued my beauty sleep till 8.30, gotten a msg from fatin saying that there's oral practise today.

*phone vibrates, jerked up me and got me into a heart attack*
fatin: Nette, there's sch today right?
me: give me a fright..i'm not going hahahk. amira also not goin..
fatin: what seh. go ar..today there's oral practise.. fine arh.. lazy bum. hate you!
me: hahak. is siti goin?.. but today is only practise right.. what time must we reach?
fatin: 9.. dunno.. p8 low arh
me: ouhk. see first lur..keke.

lol. from then on, i couldn't sleep and so i woke up went to the loo and sat in there for few minutes n thinkin whether to go or not to go. LOL. minutes later, my hp jerked me with a msg.

*bzzzz....bzzzzz*
siti: Nette, you goin for class?
me: lazy to go urh. ha ha. i'm now at home. thinkin to go or not to go. you goin?
siti: going. coz yesterday my family faught. n so i don't wanna stay at home. i rather go out.
me: ouh.. mayb i'm goin. if not i'm MIA. ha ha.

in the end, i decided to stay at home. right now i'm blogging. later on, i'm goin to revise the subjects that i'm weak in and mayb start on my holiday homework. =).. and yesterday i was suppose to go to school. and this is how it goes

*alarm clock rang*

*zzzzzzzzz*
mum: bernie, don't you have to go to school?
me: nohmm..
mum: *silents*...

1 minute later
mum: do you have to go to school?
me: stomach pain.
mum: don't be lazy.. wake up, take panadol and i'll send you to school
me: argg hmmmm..* still layin on bed with eyes close
mum: *wakes up*..brush up and all, got dressed* you take responsibility for yourself k
me:*silents and went back to sleep*

LOL.. i know that's SUPER BAD!!!! AND NOT COOL OK...people who are my blog, i advice you not to follow my footsteps. dun be in my shoe. it's not worth your life yeah. hees*.... anyway, yesterday i really had a stomach ache ok. at around 11 plus i text fatin sayin that her umbrella is with me. bla bla bla. got changed, eunos mrt-ed, met fatin,siti amira,sabariah and syazwan. sat for awhile, siti,amira and sabariah headed home. so, in the end, fatin,syazwan and i headed to orchard as he wanted to pass his dad some stuff. dam! it was rainning cats and dogs. my shoe was drenched. stepping on the puddle of water, squeezing through crowded path filled with peeps pushin like hell and walkin slowly.. grrr... after syaz pass his stuff, then went to his chalet at parsir ris. *ehem. stomach pain still can go chalet.. ehem*. haha. and without tellin my mum but instead, my grandmother.bastered me. LOL*. fatin and i was like talking and gigglin while in the MRT. syaz went all silent but he talked.. not much though. once reached, went into his chalet but not right inside. sat outside at the doorstep. bla bla bla. whatever.. and so fatin and i were thirsty. both of us went for a walk and bought drinks for ourselves. but of cuz syaz followed us. i felt weird cuz syaz kept askin me where we wanna go. like i'm the host of the day?? ..-.-''.. i was like'' why ur look at me? ha ha''. whatever that is, and so i turn back, OMG!!! I SAW HAKEEM!!! and his friends like faiz, syuhada and the rest sec 4n2 and 4n3 peeps. fatin and i went hidin in the toilet.. -.-''. in the end, i went in the chalet myself, took fatin's bag as well as mine and chao. reached home about 4 plus almost 5.. bath and all.. luckily i was home first b4 my mum. if not my head will land in d bin. LOL.. let's just say my mum came back at 5.20. phew!!!... alright. guess i've told you a long grandmother story.. the time now is 10.39am. i'm like sooo tired still. eyes can't open.. listenin to slow motion songs that makes me wanna dooze off again. so.. yeah.. till then gotta go. see ya peeps.

i've been waiting for my dreams to turn into something i could believe in
and i'm looking for the magic rainbow on the horizon i couldn't see it
until i let go, gave in love, watch all the bitterness burn
now i'm coming alive body and soul
feeling my world starts to turn

re: ...

2008-05-22T04:18:00.000-07:00

hey blogger..

today's the 22 of may.

holidays are coming..but still we ain't allow to leave s'pore till the 31th may. there's XTRA classes like english,EOA,CPA and mathematics..our first lessons start if 8-10.00... from there we carry on with our cpa n maths. niway, i'm now addicted to folding stars. these few days i've been folding stars. even today durin mother tongue lesson and even while havin mhy oral conversation with my teacher. LOL. bet i'll flunk. cuz i skiped like 4-5 words and my conversation went hectic. as in it went hay wire. wasn't ready for it n so i just say whatever i can and whatever i have to say in my mind..just blare it out!!!.. then it was english. waited for mdm lim for like 30 minutes and she came. did letter reading and stuff.. then it was recess.. after recess we had CDP. was bored like hell.. did nothin but slack while the guys were playing the guitar noisily and disturbin us by sayin all sorts of rubbish. espeacially atikah.. their childish. then was CPA. did the workbook.. while listening to the explanation, afiq and i started folding stars.. mr.yeo was behind our row starring at afiq.. lol. as usual, me n afiq is always noisy n sometimes entertaining each other when we're bored half-way through lessons.. hees*. then it was MTECH. all the girls slept right through the lesson while me and fatin was texting each other usin my handphone. long story.. talking bout this and that and so on... today all the guide members.. but of cuz the senior guides, all came to my house to do a project for environment. i've not even started on my project yet.. what the hell is wrong with me. gettin lazier and lazier and lazier each days. i've not EOA work not done. plus the holiday assignments are given out. guess i'll have lots to do during the june holiday b4 i go somewhere... it's like the last minute booking trip.. better still, it's on my b'day that i'm leaving.. sooo.. right now, i'm practisin my guitar, learning how to play some songs and there goes i'm gonna start on my project. so yeah.. see yar.

adios amigo.

re: laziness

2008-05-18T23:51:00.000-07:00

i ABHORE today....kept on sneezing like no one els business.. it's like every few minutes i'll just sneeze outta sudden.. arggggggg!!!.... anyway, guess what, i'm still dwelling on my CPA homework since the day i check for homework in the school website. how clever is that.. lol.. but, i'm doodling on CEL 3 half-way through. bet i'll ever finish it by tonight at the rate i'm going through. haiz.... what the hack is wrong with me these few days... all i know is, i've been assigned too much assignment from teachers till i'm beginning to feel sooo slacken on doin my assignments...grrrrrrrrr... anyway, JUNE holidays are coming soon and my B'DAY is coming really soon!!!!!!!.. but still, bet we have to head back to school for some remedial b4 our mid-year exam starts on the 24th of june... o well, no matter what i am today or tomorrow, i'll try my very best to work hard and strive well.. cuz it's like we've left with 4 more months b4 our 'N' levels.. stress for it, score well, and we're outta this school and i'm outta and away from all those uppper levels guys that i've known n whom have been talking to me bout BGR!!! which i've had enough.. LOL... and 3 months for NDP.. *sigh*..... shoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooots!!!!!!...

I WANNA QUIT SCHOOL
I WANNA QUIT MY STUDIES
I WANNA QUIT EVERYTHING!!!!...

o well, nahx... just kidding..... if i say that to my mum, guess what, my head will land in the dustbin. =D....
it's 3.14pm right now.. having an hour or so break b4 i continue with my CPA. plus i have journal not done!! it's still asleep in my bag..never been touched. so yeah.. till then, i gotta go..chows.

who's that girl?
where's she from?
no she can't be the one
that you want
that has stolen my world
it's not real, it's not right
it's my day, it's my night
by the way
who's that girl livin my life?
oh no, livin my life

seems like everything's gthe same around me
then i look again and everything has changed
i'm not dreaming and so i don't kow why
i don't know why
i don't know why
she's everywhere i wanna be

who's that girl?
where she's from?
no she can't be the one
that you want
that has stolen my world
it's not real, it's not right
it's my day, it's my night
by the way
who's that girl livin my life?

re:.

2008-05-16T07:12:00.001-07:00

hello blog.

today was a e-learning day. stayed home. woke up around 10.45??.. laze around then telok kurau-ed to my website and check out the homework that my teachers gaved. after checking, first one i did was cpa. dwell on cpa for like 1 hr and switched back to maths.. and it goes on. as in kept on switching every hour. lol. suddenly i felt sooo lethargic and stress out doin my work. and so i went to youtube and movie-ed for like the whole afternoon and then homework-ed back in the evening till i didn't know it was time for dinner and my mum had to give me a buzz and tellin me to go for dinner.. haiz... anyway, i'm having NDP practice tomorrow. and i have to report to sch by 7.45.. how early is that... arfffff... i'm like half-way through my CPA as well as maths.. how GROSSful is that.. pffft... mayb, right after bloggin, i'll start dwelling on my CPA. and if can, stay up abit later and dwell up a little on my maths cuz i don't think i'll be very active tomorrow after practise. u know... after practise, i'll just go for my bathe and land straight on my bed and sleep for like hours b4 dinner??.. guess so that is.. grr.. so yeah... right now is like 10.19pm, i'm bloggin while listeining evenescence- immortal song and with my CPA workbook, file, as well as maths txtbook and workbook laying on the table wide open. for now, i better get goin b4 it's too late. till then,

astalavista people.

my laziness is coming back to my habit.
stress n migraines are here.
nerves coming down my spine as i hear the word NDP.
it isn't 3 years but 3 months left to my performance.
i'm like freaking out for NDP.

this is the time when i needa shout HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!.

re: feeling sick

2008-05-15T00:59:00.000-07:00

hello blog.

today is the day where everyone feels sick. firstly headed to school fine.. first period was P.E.. the girls, there's only me,sabariah,fatin,atikah and siti. so we didn't do anything but slack during p.e.. siti was groaning in pain. as in her stomach hurts.. fatin felt sick.. has fever.. while me, i felt quite giddy.. after P.E, it was maths lesson. did gramatica in .com lab. bla bla bla.. felt sleepy.. then it was mother tongue. wasn't in a mood. and so i shouted at eugene till alex have to ask me what's wrong with me. i told him i wasn't feeling well... whatever.. then it was english. had dictation. anyway, lemme cut it short. today was just a sickly day. after english, siti went home.. and Mtech, was kinda boring though some guys was planning a song that we must sing somewhere in term 2 anytime but during assembly.. oh and during CDP, me, atikah, zharif,syafa n some guys black jack-ed. =).. o well, the reason i was a little sick today is because i walked in the rain yesterday. almost drenched from head to toe. but thankfully the rain stopped half-way. hees*. and now i'm bloggin rather then revising and doin my homework. my tempreture for now is 37.5. weehee!. for now,

gotta go.
see ya.

trying hard to reach out
but when i'd try to speak out
felt like no one could hear me
wanted to belong here
but somthing felt so wrong here
so i'd pray
i could breakaway

re: FCUKED up

2008-05-10T22:39:00.001-07:00

hey hey..
11/5/08

guess what. finally i've found my CPA workbook!! WOOHOO!!!.. yesterday i was acturlly too lethargic to even head out n be bothered to buy CPA book. but come to think of it, cpa helps us in future to do lots of stuff like learn how to make a website which we just did, make movies learn all parts of the computers and stuff like that.. it even help us in our EOA??.. sortta... ok whatever.. and so i woke up, slack for awhile.. at around 1 or 2 plus.. i tampines-ed to popular but darn it it's outta stalk. it's a coincidence that fatin and CT were coming to tampines too. met them at the MRT control station. waited for CT till bout 3 plus.. from then on, headed to the nokia shop to buy fatin's nokia ear piece. waited for quite long.. i was yawning away till i saw this Eiffing SUPER DUPER cute baby girl or boy i ain't sure.. but it's sure Eiffing cute with the hair comb up like punk rock... lol.. after buying fatin's ear piece, all of us took a bus all the way to seng kang popular.. still, it's outta stalk..GRRRR.... the branches left are toa payoh and bras basah. happens that CT is goin to toa payoh today.. so i pass the money to CT and she found my book!! woohoo...thank you2... o well, another thing is, i ain't got idea but now a days i feel that i'm always slacking and slacking. and i wait till after dinner then i'll start doodling on my work. am i too stress that i don't even wanna do my work?.. as in lazy???.... grrr....seriously speaking.. i'm like slacking now a days even though i've got tons or billion work to do or to revise.. haiz... o well, i'll try my best to revise and do much work as i can. i know that my mid-year exams are like nxt month but 24 june. and 5th june is my BIRTHDAY. plus my dad is planning for a holiday.. i don't know.. i'm sooooooooooooooooooooooooo having a migraine and heads spinning like shiat!!. soo yeah... i wanna try to revise and study and do whatever i can to my work yeah. but i'll start at 2.30. for now, i've gotta run and mayb do stupid stuff. LOL... chows.

sometimes i work on a scheme
but then it flips on me
doesn't turn out how i plan
get stuck in quick sand
no problem, can't be solved
once i get involved
i try to be delicate
then crash right into it
my intentions are good
sometimes just misunderstood

nobody's perfect
i gotta work it
i know in times i'll find a wa y
nobody's perfect

sometimes i fixs things up
but it all falls apart again
nobody's perfect

i might mixs things up
but i always get it right in the end.

next time you feel like .......... it's just one of those days
when you just can't seem to win
if things don't turn out the way you plan
figure something els out
don't stay down! try again!.

everybody makes mistakes
everybody has those days
everybody knows what, what i'm talking bout.....
everybody gets that way.

re: stress out

2008-05-08T07:22:00.000-07:00

hey!.

right now, i'm completely stressed out. migraine coming back obviously. lots of work gonna be given by teachers each freaking days. mid-years during the june's.. gotten back my Mother Tongue got 16/30. highest among all the guys. LOL. yesterday marine parade-ed to popular just to buy that CPA WORKBOOK for SEC 4 NT. but it's out of stalk. wanted to go to Tm but it happens when my EZ-link card left with like $2 plus. and i ain't got enough money to buy the book eventually after buying my stationaries that i needed. but then spend afew minutes at the magazine corner and was eye-ing at the Teens magazine which happens to have JONAS BROTHERS face at the coer page. was grinning from ear-to-ear. luckily no one saw. after that, looked at my watch, it's drewing near to 4.30 n i still went browsing happily at the magazine.. then walked out of popular and bus 15-ed home. missed the first bus. waited and waited. and acturlly saw my pri school mate which i wasn't really close with but knew her as we're from the diff class. 20 minutes later, another bus 15 came. i can say that the bus was like totally quiet and freaky. there's only me as in young teenager in the bus, 1 middle age lady, few old man, oh yeah 2 teenage boys in the bus. then later 2 foreigner workers boarded the bus. wanted to sleep as i was sleepy but afraid that i might miss my stop. so, kept my eyes open by looking everywhere, outside till i reached my stop. went home straight. rested and went out again to kembangan CC till bout 6 plus. then headed home.. anyway, tomorrow, after school, mayb i'm gonna go galeventing again to buy my CPA book at other branches. till then, i have to wash up and have some rest. chows.

re: ..

2008-05-03T00:00:00.000-07:00

hello may! 1 more month and it's JUNE. 5th of june, it's my B'day and i'm turning sweet 16 really soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!... so what if i'm 16??? i ain't got my own life yet???.. grr..

anyways, yesterday i screwed up my day!!!. and you know what, i feel like i aint got a truthful friend to talk to. or neither do i have any truthful friends.. let's just say, for now i only have amira and fatin. Siti is somehow not really close to me anymore. NO IDEA WHAT'S GOT INTO HER. and sabariah, she's changed alot. oh yeah.. speaking bout her, she told fatin n amira that i've changed. my character and all.. like hello!!! i'm what i am ok!!! i'm still ME!! so what if i mixs with those friends??... you jealous???? n n sabariah also say that i'm a F L I R T!! that AIN'T FREAKING DARN TRUE!!. has she got an issue with that??? just b cuz i've got quite a few guy friends or guys irritating me n i irritate back.. or i smile at them.. whatever.. HELLO!!! that's not called a flirt!!!!.. dam!!! anyway, all i know is, i know what the hack i'm doing and i AIN'T A FREAKING HELL FLIRT ALRIGHT!!. i just wanna do my best in my studies, get the hack outta this school, find new friends and a new fresh life! that's my plan yaw!! i had enough of this school. i mean my class.. it sucked!!!... i mean it's sooo childish. first day u talked and then the next day u fight. u know what i mean??? but for siti n i , it's different, she changed alot n don't talk to me much!!.. haiz... people are like sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ridiculously INSANE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MAKING SOOOOOOOOOOOO NUTS!!!!!!!!!!!. o well, yesterday was friday, screwed up my kebab.. went to grill and forgotten to check every few minutes and it turns are chaco. then i re-do it.. thanks to farah chang that she reminded me to check and turns out to be alright. then my sweet and sour chicken. did it the first time and the flour together with the egg turns out to be too soggy and to re-do. lastly my chicken pie looks like a rock!!!.. soo hard.. soo in the end, guess i'll screw up my 'N' level practical! i ain't a good cook ok!!! and i ain't ready... was nervous!!. left at 5.00.. went rushing room but no use!.. the people came to my house at 4.00 plus to spray the mosquito insecticide my bro's room, sis and mum's room. i can't go in to get my P.E attire. if i do, i'll faint. as the smell is too strong.. in the end, i didn't go to for my NDP. grrrrrrrrr... instead, i went out walking around my housing estate. as in kembangan... strolling around the estate till bout 6.20 then i headed back and had my bathe at the first floor where my cousin room used to be.. bad thing is, my mum and i slept at the living room.. so yeah. FINALLY, i'm back in my room and i can sleep on my comfatable bed again and sleeping on the floor makes my butt bone pain.!!!!!. alright then, i've said my peace and now

chows!.

re: hello

2008-04-29T04:40:00.000-07:00

hello there!!!

today is the 29 of April and it's been long ever since i've blogged. it's either I'm too lazy to blog or i've been revising that i ain't got ample time to blog. o well, let me start it all.

today was my Mother Tongue paper and guess what, nothing really happen. hahaha.. -.-'' crap lame!! let's just say the passage was really long, almost the whole page and i almost spend half an hour reading and trying to understand the passage. in the end, i had to sacrifice the last two question first and dwell on the other questions that i've not done-ded. and so after dwellin on the other questions, i then went back to the last two questions from the comprehension that i've not done. and guess what, i ain't got ample time to check. once i'm done, the bell rang. i only had time to flipped through make sure i've done all the question.. GOOD LUCK GIRL YEAH. WISH FOR THE BETTER AND TO GET ' JUST PASS GRADE' ha ha ha ha ha ha. aniway, after MT, had a break till 10.00

saw sec 1 haikal and amin and one more which i dun really know his name. all came and surround and so called annoyed me while i'm eating. -.-'' amin was one of the annoying one. and haikal with his treating( blanja-ing). amin with his Deer or Bull disturbing. CHEEKY BOYS!!!. at 10.00 had my 'N' level practical work. was all confused and so at times i whispered to syafa on how to do this and that. at times i asked mr.yeo. LOL.. aniway, stayed till about 4 plus. was extremely exaushted that i kept stretching and making weird loud noises.. thanks to mustaqim whom sat beside me kept on making stupid n lame jokes to make me laugh and kept me awake.. zzzz... anyway, it's 7.55pm and i have to go and read up my story book and find out the meaning n OH YEAH!!! HAVE TO DO MY ENGLISH HOMEWORK!!!...till then.. see ya babes/dudes.

chows.!

re: stop thinkin

2008-04-18T00:47:00.000-07:00

hello.

well, just wanna say, today was really nothing much. first period was english.. then maths. o well, mr. sulaiman wasn't around and so a relieve teacher came. atikah,me,fatin,siti went into the room at the back to the class to slack and listen to music while some guys were playing takkraw. the teacher was like'' if u wanna play, make sure u guys dun hurt urself'' later on, afiq came in then FREAKING ANNOYING JACK, then syaffar. i was feeling bored and i ask him for his psp. played for the whole period till nxt period was CME. oh yeah and what's wrong with today. yiwen saw me in the hall and he was asking me all sorts of rubbish. not asking but talking to me all kinds of SHIT. as in where's my boyfriend.. tellin me to talk to my friends. askin me to choose him or asking me why i ain't got any boyfriend. in my head i was like'' what the hack is he talkin to me bout boy/girl relationships'' but in the outside i was pretending to acknowledge in whatever that he was saying.. WEIRDO'S... acturlly, i'm kinda slacking.. ain't got idea but those few days i felt soooooooo darn sloopy and lazy to do revision n homeworks. i don't know why.. haizz...WAKE UP BERNADETTE. TEST IS COMING RIGHT UP AND 'N' LEVELS ARE DREWING NEAR!!!!! THINK POSITIVE N NOT NEGATIVE!!!.... today i IGNORE COMPLETELY when jack looked at me. when he looked at me as in he wanna attract my attention, i turn away n face atikah. WHAT A FOOL!!!. EWWW...GROSS MAN!! i mean he tried all ways to attract my attention as in usin the small piece of paper to slap across my face, purposely walk pass me.. STUPID ARSE! IGNORE HIM FOR AS LONG AS I WANT AND IF I FEEL LIKE IT , PLEASE DO SHOUT AT HIM AGAIN...o well, gotta run. goin off to NDP.

if you heart is always searching
can you ever find a home
i've been looking for that someone
i never make it on my own
dreams can't take the place of loving you
there's gotta be a million reasons
why it's true

when you look me in the eyes
and tell me that you love me
everything's alright
when you right here by my side

when you look me in the eyes
i catch a glimpse of heaven
i find my paradise
when you look me in the eyes.

re: haha. i feel so relieve

2008-04-17T00:55:00.000-07:00

date of post: 17/4/o8

yo! wassup yaw!.. today is thursday and and i've not been blogging since the 9th of April. o well, had english test about 3 days ago and today i had my 2.4km run. such a unlucky day to have a 2.4KM run. ABHORE TODAY.. grrrr.. we ran 10 rounds.. for me, i was running few rounds then i stopped. mr raj was like'' *clap hands* come on bernadette.. dun stop'' but still as i run, i kept panting and my stupid shoes are gonna be tearing apart really soon. and all my ankle socks are like soo loose that it fall every seconds after i pull it up. after P.E, the clouds started to gather and foaming into water vapors then it rain heavily like cats and dogs..oh yeah, have i ever mention that while jack was running till he ran pass me, he turn n looked at me. i was like'' what the hell is he looking at me* felt irritated n annoyed*''... anyway, then it was maths. i completely SUXS at probability. got the lowest and i ain't the only one whom failed. 2 failures. bla bla bla. handed up maths assignments. after maths it was mother tongue. i completely IGNORED JACK AND SUCKER EUGENE that was looking at me and pretended their invincible.. i was opening my sweet and i put one in my mouth and jack was like'' *reached out his hand* i wan one?'' i just IGNORED HIM. after mother tongue, i wanted to walk back to class but in the end, i followed amira,fatin and siti plus sabariah to the wash room. came out, went down, and jack was acturlly behind me gonna walk pass me and his like wanna turn and look at me AGAIN! then i felt really annoyed till i shouted at him as in

me:'' WHAT YOU LOOKING AT!!!''
jack:* silent and straight away look infront*

hahahhahaha. look at me once again and you'll NOT be SPARED.!! DENG! DONKEY!!.

damn. for now, i can't be nice to guys. i mean i can be nice but not really really extremely nice to them. if not i'll give them the wrong signal. NO BEING NICE AND GENTLE TO GUYS. gotta have to give them face n show them i ain't interested if their tryin to flirt with me..hak hak hak.

o well, CDP, we did extremely nothing but slack for one whole period. as in talking rubbish while the teacher told us to do a story for the pronunciations. didn't really bother. LOL. some of the guys were in the room or somewhere els playing takkraw while some of us was in the hall but spread out. me,fatin,siti,afiqa,alex,syaffar was sitting on the chair talking, laughin and laying our heads down.
sabariah,atikah,amira,ikin,zafir,zharif and khairie were at the backstage. next it was CPA. same old thing. did coursework. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. when are we gonna complete it. then MTECH. a relieve teacher came to relieve our class. let me just say that afiq, amira,atikah,fatin, me, siti norain and alex were at the back and in the room slacking while afiq n alex played the guitar. and sabariah was snoozing for one whole period as in during MTECH... one whole thing to describe todays was '' ANNOYED, EXAUSHTED, BORED!''.

one more thing b4 i CHOWLUBABES.

Please for GOODNESS SAKE!!!! WHY MUST YOU GUYS START OVER AGAIN WITH THE ME AND ALEX AGAIN!!! IT'S FREAKING DAM ANNOYING AND IRRITATING. IMAGINE IF I ANNOY YOU GUYS WITH A GIRLS NAME WHICH U DUN REALLY LIKE?? HOW THAT MAKES YOU FEEL?>?..'' GRRRRR..... fcuking irritating.. I DUN LIKE ANYONE OK. what's the hell wrong with making friends and then you start with the silly and nonsence rumours saying i like alex or alex like me.... ewwwwwwww....GROSS MAN!!!... I ABHORE YAW!!! one day i might go crazy and i'll not layan( interact with you guys man). already i'm in a state where i wanna be stressed out with work and CONCENTRATIN on my work and there you guys are tryin to irritate me with guys name RIGHT IN MY DARN HEAD! what's the point?? GROW UP PEOPLE!!! GROW DAM UP! DUN BE CHILDISH AND L A M E = LAME! BE MATURED AND CONCENTRATE ON UR STUDIES RATHER THEN ANNOYING AND IRRITATIN US WITH STUPID ANNOYIN UNKNOWN RUMOURS!!!!!!!!. DAMN!!!!!.

list of friends that i dun really like ( including boys)

zulaikha
zuhrie
jin qiang
alex

guys that i DUN LIKE AT ALL

jack
ismail

guys that i'm fine and alright with

zharif
hakeem
afiq
fadly
ikin
izzat
ammar
syafa
zhafir
khairie
zahhar

My Babes

fatin
siti norain
mira a.k.a micha
sabariah
atikah.

re: sick sick sick!

2008-04-09T02:52:00.000-07:00

GONNA BE SICK SOOO REALLY REALLY AND ACTURLLY SOON.

had a slight fever few days back and a slight fever yesterday about 37.8. but still i went ahead with the hip-hop practise.. after the practise, headed home and i felt a spooky feeling plus a cold and chilling feeling down my spine as i walk in the quiet area near my house. and today my head was giddy. not kidding. plus today was on exciting day as the 98.7FM people came and they had two bands to come to our school to perform. it was such a blast. i LOVE WEST GRAND BOULEVARD!!!! THEY ROCK MY SOCKS!!!!.. hahahaha. though i cheered for them at the end of their songs but still felt giddy.. * ehem* u know what.. acturlly when my mind was concentratin on their band, i didn't feel anything till the end* LOL. today they was a prefect training. i told floric i can't go n she was like'' don't give me excuses..'' what so ever! i snick outta school and headed to eunos MRT for awhile with fatin n sabariah to chill for awhile. we sat near the MR. BEAN stall and rest.. opposite of us was 2 foreigners. then, 1 came.. let's just say i was just drinkin that bubble tea and the china guy looked at me, i looked at him n wanted to smile but i pulled myself back. LOL. bla bla.. headed home, wash up, bath and all, took my tempreture, and here it goes 38.1. WOOHOO!!... fever... for now, after resting, drinkin lots of water, it did came down but still havin a slight fever which is 37.7. wait, i got a flu too.. grr... i'll just write a parents letter to give to floric for not ATTENDING THE PREFECT TRAINNING!!!...if she doesn't believe, that's her PROBLEM!... till now, i've got list of homeworks to spare. see ya!

been playing the songs you hated
i called a boy i almost dated
his not the one
but i'm having fun
and i'm better off without you
and i think it's what i want.

i'm getting over you
i'm getting over you most of the time
if i say it like i mean it
then mayb i'll believe it like it's true
i'm gettin over you

re:

2008-04-05T07:09:00.000-07:00

heyhey!

it's the 5th of April and let's just say my tempreture kinda rise up to 37.5 today. i had abit of cough and headaches. argg... o well, i was suppose to go to the cemetery today to visit my long10 time ago great10 grandparents but i didn't. can't wake up as i slept late last night doing nothing but, laptop-ing and abit of reading of my story. bet i ain't got any ample time to read my story book either. too buzy with school homeworks revising n gettin ready for 'N's. gosh!!! it's driving me INSANE!! and i can go NUTS really soon. o well, today i woke up around 12.o5 in the afternoon. that's like freaking late. wash and brush up, had lunch.. played with my puppy jackie for awhile as in throwing toys for her to bite but still she love biting people's hands,legs, shirts, fingers, toes... she BITES!! BEWARE!!!.. secondly, went to play nitendo wii ( guitar) till 2 plus and started doin my maths homework till dinner, then continued till 10.oo. and now i'm resting my brain and listening to music plus bloggin. let's just say bout 3 or 2 days back, after MTECH, we headed home.. while goin down the steps at DnT block, my head suddenly black out for like 3 seconds then i felt alright again. no one knows except for me.. argg.. for now, i'm left with the second homework list that Mr. sulaiman gave us. i'm done-ded with the 1st homework list that is resselation, translation and all. except for some questions, i ain't sure how to do it. i shall continue with the 2nd hmwk list tomorrow. till then,

see ya folks.
chaos.

lost in love and i don't know much
was i thinkin aloud and fell out of touch?
but i'm back on my feet and eager to be what you wanted

re: stressed out

2008-04-01T19:11:00.000-07:00

hey hey!!!

long time no blog huh... it's the 2nd of april and right now, i'm in school blogging for awhile and i'll continue at home if i have the time. aniway, seriously speakin, i can't take it anymore. i'm having migrains these few days.. but not really much. teachers pillin up homeworks and revisions for us. much more, we have our coursework to do like FnN, EOA, and CPA. the rest are all revisions and drilling of all subjects.... FUSTRATIONS!!! the bad thing is, i can't stay up late at night. for example, when i've not complete my homework, my mum will be like'' girl, time to sleep.. it's late'' and i'll be like'' wait.. i've not finish my homework yet'' all kinda stuff.. i just wanna stay up late to complete whatever homework i have n mayb revisions too.. argggg.. o well, life have to go on. and guess what, my uncle bought a new puppy about quite a few days back. and it's all in a mess as in we have to take turns to take care of the 1 1/2 puppy. haiz.. plus all of us have to work or go to school.. long story anyway.. plus i'm freaking exaushted as yesterday i came back around 11 plus and by the time i headed to snooze, it's almost 1 am. pass midnight as i was packing ym bag today which is wednesday. GROSS YAW!!... my brain like spinnin some of the times. my mum said'' if i wanna join the NDP, make sure i dun complaine that i'm tired out'' well, it's fine with me. i like keepin myself buzy. and i wanna be fit.. oh yeah and school stuff, it's alright to me. except for some rumours or NEWS as in guys wooing me and all. that's all CRAP AND SHIT MAN!.. i'm just concentratin on my studies. and WOOHOO! I PASS MY CPA. haha.. anyway, my brain is blank and i'm listenin to mp3 player, heading off to maths lesson soon which the bell will ring at 10.3o or 4o i guess.. so yeah. till then, i'll stop here. and will blog again whenever.

see ya. toodles.

re: chaotic day

2008-03-24T01:06:00.000-07:00

hello!!!..

o well, i've just came back from school like 1hr ago and had my bath and everything.. today was such a chaotic day for me. early in the morning i went hay-wire. and here it goes.

*alarm clock rang:'' ti ti ti ti''*
*mum stopped the alarm clock from ringing and pass it to me.*
*looked at the time'' 6.35''.. headed back to sleep*

sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep..

Time, 7.15.

first thought, thinkin that today was monday and we can go to school late. * close my eyes*
*was dreamin and threw the alarm clock on the floor* then i jerked up thinkin'' today is monday... what do we have..... OH YA!!!!! SHIAT!!!! COMMON TEST!!!!...*called siti*

me:'' SITI, WHERE ARE YOU?''
siti:'' i'm in the bus''
me:'' SHIAT!!! I'M STILL AT HOME N JUST WOKE UP!! WHAT TIME SCHOOL STARTS?
siti:'' 7.50 but must report to school by 7.40''
me:'' SHOOTS.. I'M STILL AT HOME...ARGGG''
siti:'' quick urh ''
me:'' KK...*HANG THE PHONE DOWN N THROW IT ONE SIDE*

wash and brush up quickly.. got changed and rushed outta the house and in my mind i've forgotten something and it came out and that is '' OH YA SHIT!! MY BROWNIEEEE!!''...
then i rush to the bus stop.. NO BUS!!!!
i said to myself'' ARGG... NO BUS.....*LOOKED AT WATCH*..SHIT..LATE ALREADI!!''

finally bus 15 came and boarded the bus.. finally reached school, ON THE DOT! MEANS, 7.40 BUT 1 MINUTE LATE.. and still soo nice of the teacher to let me in.' haha... was perspiring like cats n dogs yaw!!..n i was penting like a dog hunting for water. LOL.... what's wrong with me man... arg!!!!! I'M INSANE!!!! would nvr ever forget this incident.. n one thing is, last night was buzy doing maths homework till 10 plus n i read up my EOA only afew chapters but nothing went in my head.. cuz i was rushing.. sooo.. GONNA SCREW UP MY EOA SERIOUSLY.. AND BIG TIME!!!.. U'LL SEE MY RESULTS SOON. DOWN THE DRAIN IT GOES.. WOOHOO!!... o well, gotta run.. wanna revise maths.. chows.

re: FRIENDSHIP SUCKS AT TIMES

2008-03-18T04:40:00.000-07:00

hey hey.

not suppose to be blogging.... should be doodling and screwing up my maths.. but then.. here's what i wanna say '' sorry to my friends like siti,amira and sabariah and atikah. or whoever it is. but sometimes i just that

FRIENDSHIP SUCKS ALOT AT TIMES. SERIOUSLY. =)). JUST FEEL LIKE HAVING NORMAL FRIENDS AND 1 CLOSE FRIENDS WHOM CAN REALLY UNDERSTAND MY FEELINGS AND LIFE. C'MON MAN. IT'S JUST A SMALL MATTER. WHy MAKE IT SUCH A HUGE BOMB AND LEAVE IT UNKNOWN AND NOT BOTHERING BOUT IT. HAIZZZ..

o well.. i wanna expose myself to studies more then any other stuff if i could one day. and i wanna be SINGLE!!. i mean just have normal friends to chit-chat with.. do things together as in study and all. but normal friends yeah??. sorry if i happen to be like that. i wanna be myself. and at least find one really close friend whom can understands me better. o well, it's 7.46pm and i've been doin my work since just now. and i shall continue doodlin on my maths. soo yeah.. see ya!

WAIT!!!.. b4 i run away, wanna say. this friday is a good friday plus i hav two weekends. i wanna use that time to study n read up my EOA if i can. cause this fri-sun my mum n i hav quite a few numbers of errands to run. kinda buzy. soo if i hav the timr i'll read up EOA. cuz my target is i wanna get 1 U grade and that is maths. for that my mum understands. can forget bout it. the rest, i don't wanna hav U grades!!..so yeah. target is only ONE U GRADE!!!.

so times are scraping, sink so low,
i'm shocked at what your capable of
and if this is a coronation,
i ain't feeling the love,
cause we are all a bunch of animals
that never payed attention in school
so tell me all about your problems
i was killing before killing was cool.

lyrics from : My Chemical Romance. ( EMO songs.)

re: none

2008-03-14T06:47:00.000-07:00

hey blog..

today was just a bad day for me..what's wrong with me... WAKE UP!!!... mayb i'm just stressed out or worried or nervous when doing my dreamweaver... believe it or not... i cried half-way while mr.sulaiman was helpin or scolding me.. haizzz..... mayb i'm just not ready for the coursework???... ARGGGGG..... i ain't got idea!! like what Siti said... try my best.. do the basic first... all the scolding thingy is a way of improvement.. o well... i just don't wanna think about it. let my mind rest for two days.. and here comes another stressing out of weekdays studying and revising.. n now here's a song lyrics of what i feel.

2'o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
can't get no rest, keep walking' round
if i pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, i can get to my sleep
i can think that we just carried on

this is the hardest story that i've ever told
no hope, no love, no glory
happy endings gone forever more
i feel as if i feel as if i'm wasted
and i'm wasting everyday

re: giddyness

2008-03-13T06:11:00.000-07:00

heyyo blog.

nvr been blogging cuz was away for camp last week 3 days 2 nights camp in school. overall i should say it was fun. got mosquito bites n rashes.. there was a campfire night and confident walk at night..DUH...had fun being a senior campers helping out. haha. came back straight slept like the whole day till in the middle of the night n woke up.. LOL and head back to snoozing again.. next day had english oral. dragged my foot to school n with my eyes half-open n felt like sleeping.. the good thing is, i think i did well for my oral.. only that one sentence i stopped for quite long n tht minus afew marks. n for the conversation part, i almost screwed it up but then i came up with a few ideas and started imaginating stuff n talk..mdm lim was smiling.. hees*.. aniway, after the oral, amira, siti and fatin came to my house and went insane... we had a play skit. siti being a mother, fatin being a sister and amira being a baby. it's crazy i tell you that. but funny. =)).. tuesday is the only day i had a break from school and Wednesday plus today i aheaded back to school for our CPA dream weaver coursework. create a website of our own.. 9 hrs in school..these two days heading back to school made me felt like slacking and a feeling of laziness to do my holiday assignment.. haiz.. o well, by hook or by crook i'll have to stay up n finish my holiday assignment tomorrow after school.. cuz i wanna enjoy my last two weekends b4 school re-opens and b4 i start to stress myself out again..so for now, my mum is watching some cantonese DVD and i'm like slacking and chilling right in front of the computer happily blogging and listenin to emotional songs and sentimental songs.. for now, gotta chaos n wash up aight

once in your life you find someone
who will turn your world around
bring you up when you're feeling down.

ps:''I HAD ENOUGH OF MESSAGING. IT'S EITHER I SAID SOMETHING BAD BUT JOKINGLY N THEY BEHAVE LIKE SMALL LITTLE KIDS WHOM GETS SENSITIVE EASILY.. ANOTHER ONE IS MESSAGING THEM IS LIKE MSGING THE WALL. LIKE WHAT MALAYS SAY'' HAUS.. DAH BIASE BUBUAL SORANG!!!!'' for now, i dun feel like msging people.

chaos.

re: off to camp

2008-03-06T01:07:00.000-08:00

HEYYO!!!!.

well well well......just what can i say... tomorrow is camp day and woohoo!! i'm just starting to adore camp soo much.. dunno why... but i just LUV CAMP!!!..(semangat ngan camp).. anyway.. as usual, been doing homeworks/revising/reading n stuff like that till i've completely slipped off my mind that i have to bring my thumbdrive and give it to ms kua!! and talking bout thumbdrive.. SHOOOOOOOOOTS!!!!!!!!!!!!... arggggg.... i've forgotten to see mr. yeo after school today to backup my thumbdrive!!!! arggg!!!!!!.. i shall go tomorrow by hook or by crook!!!... DARN IT MAN!!!...b4 i go LUNATIC again..., this is the last day i'm bloggin.. and i'm off to camp tmr till sunday. and it's like a busiest day for me next week during the march holidays. i only hav 1 day off which is on tuesday.. n i'm half-way done with my english holiday assignment...how smart... oh and i'm starting to feel a sign of laziness.. as in doing my english holiday hmwk. don't know why but yeah..but, no way, i'm gonna tell my brain that.. o well, i shall do my homework mayb right after bloggin or right after dinner.. at least complete half of my assignment b4 i go for camp.. hmmmm.... let me see...... school? nothin much.. but starting to hate zurhie. his just such a nuisance n his like WHATEVER!!!.. his funny...NOT... lalalallalallalalala. i've just got back my report card. my maths n EOA is like down the drain. but i think if i ain't wrong, i improved my EOA. got 30 plus but still a U grade. FINALLY, i've nailed my chinese!!.. Grade A.. weehee!!!...needa improve on my english plus FnN nxt. n work EXTRA HARDER for EOA.. make myself stressed out again.. last thing, i just LOVE sitting at the back n last row.. LOL.. but except for when zharif gets me irritated n annoyed. but other then that, i love my place.. HAHAHAHHAK.. alright then.. i shall stop here and find a school bag since my bro has taken away his school bag from me as he wanna USE IT... like as if he ain't got other bags.. n he AIN'T GOIN TO SCHOOL ANYMORE!!! EXCUSE MOI!!!... argggg..if i ain't wrong, i saw few school bags in his room. why can't he use those!! WHATEVER!...... gotta run.

it doesn't matter what people say
and it doesn't matter how long it takes
believe in urself and you'll fly high
and it only matters how true you are
be true to urself and follow ur heart

re:...

2008-03-01T08:02:00.000-08:00

Hey!!

it's the beginning of March. and our exams are like few months away.. i've been seriously revising n havin like 3-5 times of migrain.. took panadol lots of times.. for today i woke up very late which is in the afternoon at around 1.15. the reason is i always sleep late as i revise n did some studyin... anyway... schools nothin much but always with the CPA,EOA and FnN corsework.. soo pressurising n it's stressing me out.. not only that but homeworks are like piling up.. bags gettin heavier each days.. by then i'm gettin all the giddiness and headaches. grrr.. it's just feels so frustrating.... well.. that's life all about yeah...it's like 12.11AM and i'm still awake updatin my blog.. n oh yeah nxt Friday till Sunday i'll not be at home as i've got combine camp! woohoo!!.. i'm startin to adore camps man.. no idea why but yeah...mayb it's b cuz i feel like i'm being jailed when i'm at home. that's why i guess.. i'll feel restricted as in i can't hang out with my friends as much as i want to. and i can't come back after 6.. have to be home b4 6.. if not, i'll have a call from my mum wonderin where in the world i am. LOL.. so yeah... guess i'll hav to stop here and wash up.. get ready to turn in aight*. till then

see ya guys..

and if you love me
you'd hold me in your arms where i belong
so while i'm feeling strong
i sing you one last song

let me ask time has passed
do you feel this could last
if you don't, why then stay
take your wings, fly away
i love you way too much
to wanna be the one who brings you down

and if you want me, you'd show me
that your love is for real
and if you love me
you hold me in your arms where i belong
so while i'm feeling strong
i sing you one last song.

re: STRESSED OUT AND HAVING A MIGRAIN!

2008-02-24T01:44:00.000-08:00

hey!
it's the 24th of February.

it's been quite awhile ever since i've blogged. seriously speakin, i've been working on my CPA DREAM WEAVER PROJECT, revising a little bit here and there for EOA but in the end, we had a English paper 2/3 bout 2 days back...the hard work counts though. anyway, those few days back, i've been soooo SICKENING and FUGLY STRESSED OUT and even had a MIGRAINE!! ain't joking.. had something like a blackout 2 days back which is on Friday. as in while doing the English paper, out of the blue i saw red.. and i blink my eyes, then i saw white again.. and then red then white.. seriously speakin.. took panadol yesterday night. Plus i've not been online though i'm on the computer but doin my project work ONLY!.. and school was nothing much interesting now a days except for the scolding and the lecturing from Mr.Sulaiman during maths lessons as well as CPA. but whatever he does for us, he just wants us to do the best we can n score well.. n not forgettin, he wants us to CHANGE OUR HABIT!!...hahahha...x)))... aniway, i have to study harder for mother tongue as i've got like 9/20. 1 more mark to pass man. read more newspapers as well as english story books to improve more on my english. do the same for EOA and for the rest of the subjects.. so... from now, i shall be buzy on school work and will be havin lots of pains in the head. and sooner nor later, gonna be sick in the health. till then, i shall DO and TRY my maths workbook and do some ''MTV'' video recording yeah.

chownutsss.
sees yous guys in schoolsss.. ( stop with my sss) hahahhaha

re: schoool work

2008-02-15T05:55:00.000-08:00

FRIDAY 15 FEB.

HEY!!...today's nothin really much as it's total defence day..had assembly in the class... then a teacher came into our class to talk to us bout total defence plus the SARS thingy... i was seriously very sleepy that i acturlly slept in class for awhile while the teacher is talking.. as in i shut my eyes for 2-3 minutes and wake up.. then headed to the hall for a talk...in between the speech, i slept until it was time for us to go for our excursion that is the visit to the new water... saw the japanese guys( tourist)... sabariah and me n somehow amira, went head over hells with some of em'. LOL.. aniway, after the whole field trip, came back to school had our chinese common test then had Girls Guides.. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz... as in i was exhausted and all.. not only me.. plus my friends...was dismissed at around 6 plus.. i reached home at around 7 plus.. and now these are the things that i needa complete

FnN study background reasearch
Maths revision
english journal and unit 1 in the english book
EOA revision.
Girls Guide reflection logbook
Girls Guide donation card.
CPA project work* snap another 20 photo's plus another 1 more audio and video

That's like quite alot of work to do. for now, i feel sooo lethargic now to do my school work.. i shall start work tomorrow. till then

chaos for now.
wake up early n bash into school work. don't screw up any of em'.

soo long.... farewell!!!

baby i will wait for you
if you think i'm fine it just ain't true
i really need you in my life
no matter what i have to do i'll wait for you.

re: none

2008-02-09T21:42:00.000-08:00

hello......

i'm soooo bored!!!!... anyway, open all my red packets yesterday night.. counted and i have lots of money... ain't gonna say it out but just alot yeah. =]]...n yesterday my brother's friend came over for CNY visiting.. well, some don't even know tht my bro has a sister... but nahx.. forget it.. those who know tht my bro has a sister will come say HNY... if not they'll ignore.. LOL... o well, i was grinning from ear to ear when i saw some of the guys as their good looking!! seriously.. n i was like'' STOP SMILING !!''... LOL.... they stayed quite late and some even camp overnight at my place.. but of cuz in my brother's room as well as the living room.. DUH!!! this afternoon, all of them left.. oh n one of my bro's friend offered me mentos... hahah...x))... chill yaw!....dun go overboard yeah!.. o well, tmr is school day and gonna start off with business of ''misery'' LOL... kiddin... nahx.. it's hardwork... we have our dreamweaver work, FnN coursework, EOA coursework, what els.. oh yea our image consultant plus for our GirlsGuide, i've sign up for photography lessons.... lots of things to learn.... i'm gonna be buzy like hell.. n n start to work it out!! ( sounds familiar) LOL... aniway, last day i'm gonna be slackin and all.. so yeah.. gotta run..

i'm not the type to get my heart broken
i'm not the type to get upset and cry
cause i never leave my heart open
never hurts me to say goodbye
relationships don't get deep to me
never got the whole in love thing
and someone can say they love me truely
but at time it didn't mean a thing

my mind is gone, i'm spinning round
and deep inside, my tears i'll drown
i'm losing grip, what's happening
i stray from love, this is how i feel

this time was different
felt like, i was just a victim
and it cut me like a knife
when you walked out of my life
now i'm, in this condition
and i've, got all the symptoms
of a girl with a broken heart
but no matter what you'll never see me cry.

re: CNY

2008-02-06T01:42:00.000-08:00

hello!!

first of all,

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!

havin re-union dinner again today in my house.. yesterday was in my mum's mother house which is in yishun.... aniwaiy, today celebration was rather dull... i was kinda yawning n yawning... n n my friends and i are never done with our photography camwhore's!!! since we're SUPER DUPER Dull.. we took photos... after the whole celebration, eugene and zafir started sprayin the party poppers or whatever that thing is called made the hall in a mess!!... we hav to clear it up... after that, we headed to the toilet first and took photos usin athirah's phone n nawwarah's phone if i ain't wrong.. LOL... addicted to the camera..NEVER ENDING.. then, nxt, all of us as in me,fatin,sabariah,amira and zulaikha headed to changi beach by MRT then BUS..(duh!).. n n *ehem!! i was attracted to this chinese guy.. his quite young.. tall.. n his soooo good lookin n cute!!!. hahahah... shhht*.... *stop it!!*..k k... once reached, we settled down and all then fatin n i started playin with the sand and sea water.. writtin our names on the sand.. collectin seashells n walkin to n fro.. we also tooked a few pictures.. beautiful pictures as in the sceneries and all.. after hangin at changi beach, all of us headed to tampiness mall.. from there, amira,zulaikha and sabariah headed home.. while fatin,siti n i hung around TM for awhile..walkin here and there... did nothin but hunting for food as we're starving.. in the end, i bought a bottle of water plus fatin too. took bus no. 8.. stupid bus driver!! dunno how to stop for people!! anyway, skip that part.. from there, 1 by 1 we disperse ourselves... n n i'm here bloggin and im feelin a little of sun burn...LOL.. till then,

happy chinese new year to all you chinese peeps... collect more red packets and do well in ur studies yeah!

chill the babe!
chownuts!

re: .....

2008-01-31T05:39:00.000-08:00

hey..

b4 i start, just wanna say '' AN JING AR!!!'' to the prefects torial board!!!.. i HATE being a prefect now... cuz i feel stressful.. plus whenever there's meetin, n if i go home late, i can't finish my work on time and i hav to turn in early.. i mean not only me.. i know there's alot more whom can't finish their work but for me it's different.. i can't stay up late.. i've been skipping prefect meetings lately n i've not been doin duties till i'm asked to. =)))... i hate it.. feel like quitting prefects... but if i do, they will deduct off our CCA points. and that sucks...plus maths is sometimes sooo pressurising as we've always being given test after test n after test till we can nail it. gosh!!!.. plus i have a CPA test tmr and how intelligent am i to live it behind as in in school and under my desk.* BRAVO*.. nvm.. i'll study durin recess and after school durin break.. aniway, schools been pretty good but the day b4 yesterday, durin EOA lesson, and after greetin mdm lim, i was about to take a sit when zharif so called ''accidentally'' move the chair to his side n i fell all the down.. his like laughin.. i couldn't control n i stood up, sit on the chair n cry.. hide my face behind my screen. the next day, my backbone hurts alot till now!!! it really does hurt!!.. so yeah.. i ain't got nothin much to talk bout but to groin in pain.. hope the pain will go away and doesn't stays there.. i can't even bend down much.. o well, i've blogged enough, let me just brush up, and get ready for bed and chaos for school tmr.

chaos beti chaos.

re: hearts pumping

2008-01-28T04:51:00.000-08:00

hey blog..

how are you?.. fine? dead? alive?.. lol..
aniway... i don't know why i'm feeling nervous right now... oh n i'm kinda abit lost for some reasons... plus today i lend my homework to sabariah... n she claim that she hasn't got it... i've check my file plus school bag, it isn't there too.... oh god!!! please.....hope it's with her cuz i don't wanna re-do it again... grrr!!! i ABHORE IT WHEN THEY LOOSE MY STUFF!!!!!.. tht's why i went all quiet after school... fatin n siti was like'' nette!.. from just now until now u kept quiet'' im havin a weird n bad feeling that sabariah might hav misplace my homework...shooots!!.. o well, we'll see tmr.. n today i went to school very early to finish up my maths homework but in the end, mr. sulaiman hav to extend till the end of this week as my classmates have not done it yet... for me, i've almost completed my homework but i left some blanks as i don't really know how to do the sums. and oh yeah.. i had a maths test bout 3 days ago and i kinda screw it up.. seriously speaking, i didn't revise durin the maths paper that we did on friday n after school.. i was sooo buzy with cpa work as in i did wrongly n so i hav to re-do it.. then i ran out of papers so i walked down photocopied the extras paper that we have to write the image number n up back to class n finish it up.. by the time i finish everything, i had no time to revise for my maths test.. i'll fail my maths...
seriously speakin man...for now, i hav nothin to say but to read my story book later on and get ready to sleep. till then.

adios amigo.

and i don't want the world to see me
'cause i don't think that they'd understand
when everything made to be broken
i just want you to know who i am

and you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
or the moment of the truth in ur lies
when everything feels like the movies
yeah you bleed just to know your alive

and i don't want the world to see me
'cause i don't think that they'd understand
when everything made to be broken
i just want you to know who i am

re: i'm dreading

2008-01-23T01:53:00.000-08:00

hello....

nothin really much.. but i'm DREADING!!! n my heart goes ''thumb thumb thumb''.. LOL... seriously.... i kinda freak out easily just now durin CPA period and it was a hell mess!!!!... i'm dreadin that i might not be able to do the dream weaver webpage! and might not even nail it. i don't know but i'm just dreadin!!....shiiiiiiiiiiiiit!!!!...n n all i need now is the sound...*breath in.. breath out* plus i've got my EOA, english and maths homework!!! lots of it man.. GOSH!!!.. we're being pressurise by the teachers except for my mother teacher whom always tell us stories and n it's absolutely as dull as ever but interesting.. n so i hav to go huntin for a chinese tutor to catch up on my chinese b read up more english stories b4 my english starts to drown... n n EOA, hav to read it too.. pretend i'm readin a story book n just revise on it.. for maths, hav to ask my bro whenever i get to see him cuz his always in his room either sleeping like a PIG!... his timing is always upsight down.. as in whenever we're sleeping his awake. and whenever we're awake, his asleep.. you see!!!... that's why i'm just tryin my best to catch hold of my brother..but still, things still goes not quite well as my understandin may not be good. haiz....grr... super pressurising plus sometimes i feel like there's a needle or a stone knockin on my head or drillin in my head.. o well, i hav to do my maths n EOA and go searchin high n low for my EOA holiday homework b4 i get a detention from MDM LIM WHOM IS ALWAYS IN A BAD MOOD N GRUMPY MOOD if she's all moody or pist off... arggg..... see ya..

hold your head up high
there's no time for looking down
you will not believe where we're goin now
here we go, let me remind you
look ahead, the past is behind you
we're the kids of the futurex2

everybody live' cause the future is now!

re:...

2008-01-17T05:15:00.000-08:00

hey...

nothin much to blog about... same thing.. been doin my homework and projects plus the stayin back in school for decorations of class.. and all the laughter n stupid jokes thn we're into... and i've got no mood today... after i came back from school, n after my bathe.. went for dinner at about 6 plus almost 7.00.. took my rice and my maid was like

me:*walks to the kitchen pushes open the claypot rice n scope my rice*
maid: bernie, goldy just pass away at 6.00
me: *heart drops* huh..??!?!>..where???
maid: this morning.. grandma brought her to see doctor n just now at 6.00 she just pass away
me: where is she??
maid: near the shoe cupboard outside
me: ouh.....

after scoping that 1/4 of rice, i went outside to see her for the very last time till the man came to collect the body...few minutes later, i ate my dinner n went up to the room straight cryin my tears out.. n the 2nd one was cryin on my mum's shoulder..... omg!!!!!!!!.... niway, she's old... she's got a heart problem.. so yeah... once dogs gets old.. this is what happens.... moral of the story,

DON'T HAVE ANY PETS IS THE BEST.
holdin back my 3rd tears. save it for tmr. ha ha ha ha ha x)).
till then, i'm moody n exaushted. good nite n tera.

my mind is gone
i'm spinning' round
and deep inside
my tears i'll drown
i'm losing grip
what's hapenning
i stray from love
this is how i feel

this time was different
felt like i was just a victim
and they cut me like a knife
when you walked out of my life
now i'm in this condition
and i've got all the symptoms
of a girl with a broken heart
but no matter what you'll never see me cry

re: nothin much

2008-01-12T03:59:00.000-08:00

hey...

wassup duck!

quack quack!

well.... nothin really much.. but guess what... ?? i finally prove to myself that i can stay away from the computer durin weekdays except for fridays and saturday. i'm not stayin infront of the comp on sundays n weekdays.. so yeah.. that's a good sign.. i'v been a good kid alright.. as in i've been doin my homework everyday after school when i go back home.. n if i accure any problems for maths, i'll go ask my bro for help. so yeah.. been doin nothin much but stayin back in school to do class deco... and and...i FREAKIN HATE the school rules.... grrrr...seriously.. we can't leave our frindge hangin or whatever it is.... SUCKS!!!.....even if it's not coverin our eyes, we hav to pin it up.. PIG!!.. LMAO.. but school now a days are pretty good.. with my friends n i laughin like insane.. we may b innocent durin school time but off school time, we'll go hay wire as in crazy n nuts... x))...so yeah.... i'm not blank in the head... n my mum wanna use the computer to do her work.. soooo

adios amigo.

i'd take another chance, take a fall
take a shot for you
and i need you like a heart needs a beat
but it's nothing new
i loved you with a fire red-
now it's turning blue, and you say...
''sorry'' like the angel heaven let me think was you
but i'm afraid..

it's too late to apologise, it's too late.

re: hey

2008-01-06T04:46:00.000-08:00

hey hey you you!!..

well, i kinda miss bloggin.. nvr been bloggin since first day of school.. i've been slackin and chillin at home hangin out with mum, celebratin my mum's granny's b'day n my dad's mum grand b'day.. not just that but i was habbo-ing n chattin with friends and let me just say i was too engrossed playin nitendo WII... seriously it's fun.... better then doin nothin on the computer.. LOL.. o well, nothin really much but my right arm hurts.. o n i'll not be online startin from tmr onwards. cuz i wanna really study and revise and go through every single work that we've done in school. i'll only be on durin the weekends...weekdays i'm strictly off the computer aighty?... so yeah.. i'm soooo blank in the head right now. completely no idea after playin TABOO and nitendo WII with my cousins...gotta chao....

adios amigo.=]

re: first day of school

2008-01-01T22:37:00.000-08:00

hey people.. wassup yaw!!..

today is the first new term,year n day of school..... it was quite difficult for me to wake up.. the alarm clock rang and i just snooze it for 5 minutes. o well, my mum wanted to reach school at 7.10 but it happen that i, NOT purposely wanna waste her time.. i'm just slow when it's the first day of school.. i'll just walk slowly to the toilet as in the speed of umm 5.. yeah.. take my own sweet time tiein my hair... wearin my tie... ok skip that part... school was rather dull...some talks in the hall... my BUTT hurts after sittin in the hall for like umm.. few minutes or mayb 1 hour??.. not only me but everyone elses butts!!.. lol...anyway, played some games with the sec 1s.. and then at 12 went back to classroom wrote the grades tht we want for our subjects, wht courses we want when we're in ITE last but not least our NEW YEAR resolution.. all in, it was pretty DULLL.. but happy to see my friends though!!... tmr is another day n friday is also another day and monday is the startin of the real business.. school starts as per-normal.. so yeah.. gotta go.. i'm goin to my granny's GRAND DINNER!!!... chao yaw!.

re: happy 2008

2008-01-01T01:42:00.000-08:00

hey yaw people!!..

HAPPY 2008 AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

nothin much to say.... but didn't really blog those few days cuz i've been slackin for few days and then the nxt few days went to school helpin my mum out in spring cleanin in her school.=]].. not only that.. i've got no idea what i wanna blog about so...yeah.. but i was like playin the computer for like whole day in.. havin late night sleeps till my sister and mum share money and bought nitendo WII!!.. i LOVE playin that.. there's sports game.. and other games yeah.. that gonna entertain me and less computer n msn for me. lol..only when i wanna use the com thn i'll on. =] o well, gotta run... gonna go for my mum's grandmother's b'day at mandai!!.. so see yea.. oh and

holidays are out n schools back!!...
happy schoolin yeah!. see ya mates/friends/babes/dudes tmr.

toodles!.

re:

2007-12-24T03:46:00.000-08:00

yaw!!....

tmr is christmas and i wanna wish you all MERRY X'MAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!.. o well,..
after the hols as in after coming back from states and after few days, my life have been soooooo fugly fcuked up!!.. i hate my life... parents naggin at me.... n my mum..... she just loveeeeeeeeeeeee telling peeps as in complaining to them that i didn't help her in school today... or she'll be like'' i've been scoldin her sooo many times to stop playin the computer or to wake up early don't have late night sleeps'' bla bla bla..... that's like whatever!!! why must i wake up early... it's my life.. as in i wanna wake up whatever the time is... i know when to wake up... it all depends on my body.... and i always sleep late.... though i sometimes i sleep at 12 midnight.. but NOT ALL THE TIME!!! n PLEASE... FOR GOODNESS SICK!!!! when school re-opens, i can wake up early!!! don't stress me out on that sayin it's a practise when school re-opens u'll have to wake up early.... arg... and like few minutes earlier,..... nvm... forget it.... just that i need to be patient... i know i'm kinda sensitive at some points... and i can't take jokes sometimes....but i'm tryin my best to maintain my behaviour.... i mean be strong.. don't take things too lightly... but seriously speakin, sometimes my parents are just tooooooooooooooooo fugly annoying and irritatin n unresistable to be heard of and to pist me off....aniway..... B4 i go ani further bout my sickening life, i'm gonna end it here. see ya.

this song i love soo much it's called: over you'' by chris daughtry... i'm gonna type it here.

now that it's all said and done, i can't believe you were the one
to build up and tear me down like an old abandoned house
what you said when you left, just left me cold and out of breath
i felt if i was in way too deep, guess i let you get the best of me

well, i never saw it coming, i should have started running
a long long time ago
and i never thought i'd doubt you, i'm better off without you
more then you, more then you know

i'm slowly closure, i guess it's really over
i'm finally gettin better
and now i'm picking up the pieces, spendin all of these years
putting my heart back together

cause the day i thought i'd never get through
i got over you

re: back from USA

2007-12-20T18:59:00.000-08:00

NICE fireplace.

those are the houses up the hill.

took ths photo in one of the shops. haha..cute!

seagulls fighting for food. those are really big seagulls.

this isn't a seagull it's called the imperial white temple doves'' love birds''

while this two are called'' ring necked doves''

beautiful golf course.

that's the beach.

uh-huh..that's the grand canyon!. nice nice!!

rainning heavily and foggy weather.

the cat was in the stall n in the glass while i took a photo from the outside of macy's store.

nice sceneries huh.

they call it the golden gate bridge though it's red.

beautiful christmas tree!

beautiful!!!!.. i miss those days in USA

the beautiful beach. sun setting.

all the surfers doing surfing and gliding.woohoo!

sunset

my pink hands after holdin on to a snow for long.

SNOWMAN!!!...

was in the tram way goin up to the mountain.

paranoma mountain view from montoray hotel.

hard rock cafe guitar. cool huh..

on the way up to grand canyon

las vegas hotel sunset.

las vegas hotel TV. with internet. haha

mountains with snow

best western hotel. sunrise.

hello firday.. i'm back from USA and i'm gonna start off with my trip aight*
here it goes.

7th december

hey yo!..

well, today is nothing really much, but took an airplane and stopped over at taipei then from taipei, continued to los angelas. Arrived at night, took few hours to find the best western hotel. next, we headed out again to 7-11 to buy some food and drove back to the hotel. so, tmr is another day and i have to go and bath. see ya folks!. =)

8th december.

hello!!!..
well, first up, we went to santa monica to shop for like the whole day! o well, i didn't really buy much for myself. all i did bought was just a pair of jeans plus a converse shoes. the rest of the shopping time was being spend by my mum and sis. let's just say my dad and i waited around as in sit in a cafeteria, eating fries,pizza and drinking tea or coffee.. aniway, we also waled all the way to the pier. it's so windy that i had to put up my hood. cuz if i don't, my hair will be flyin all over my face.. oh and there's like two guys behind me.. well, the wind was kinda strong and so i turn back for awhile. as i turn back to the front, the guy whom is behind me, whislted. anyway, some peeps was just looking at me cuz of my shades that i'm wearing.. haha.. next up, we went to farmest market. it's an outdoor market. i was extremely tired cuz i couldn't sleep well. why? it's because of my dad's superb loud snore. not only i couldn't sleep. as well as my mum and sis. yesterday i was like yawnin and yawnin plus i couldn't or barely open my eyes. 7th and 8th of december was a sleepness night.( can't blame my dad though.... his the driver and he drove for like long hours.. so....=))..] aniway, as usual, farmest market was a open air and so spend almost the whole day. had dinner and went off to pharmacy. well, my dad went joking around and made us laugh and so this group of guys queuein up was looking at me. usual stuff.. my dad wanted to bring in the trolley which belongs to the wholefood market and i argued back as in i say it doesn't belong to the pharmacy shop. after 2-3 minutes of arguein, he finally realised it. i was boiling like a volcano by then. after a wholeday shopping, we headed bac to our hotels.

9th december

yaw!
we just left the best western hotel and now we're heading to las vagas and then do shopping again. so i shall continue later on aight. adios!

hello again

aniway, today my dad took more then like 3hrs to reach las vegas. he stopped for a rest and went to prime factory outlet. spent almost the whole time in that outlet.. well, unlucky day for me as my old sports shoe was kinda irritatin me. as in the sole came off and i couldn't walk properly with it. and so my mum and i went to a nike shop and bought me a sports shoe. ended up i bought a nike shorts and a shirt too. plus, let me see... nothing els much but i sat by the wishing pool area and waited for both my mum and sis while they were in the COACH shop. while waiting, some people walked pass me, smiled and say hi to me. and then i did the same thing too..=)).. * i know i'm friendly*. hahaha.. after spending bout more then few hours, dad drove all the way to vegas.. guys... the lights was super duper gorgeous and nice!. plus oh yeah, they have a internet that took place on the television and that's cool. but fugly keyboard was being so annoying as it's a old hotel. then had dinner in the cafe. had fish and chips. right now i'm superb tired and heads like hurting soo fcukin much. so... gotta go.. adios!

10th december.

hello there..

woke up very early, wash up and all.. then we headed to mcdonalds for breakfast. well, at first there wasn't any ladies till we went in. i saw some cute boys though.. oh and some of them looked at me.. =p.. aniway, we headed straight to grand canyon. people, you've gotta know this. those big mountains is just beautiful and gorgeous.! it's a must that you'll need to see. and yeah.. we also went to the skywalk. great walk...well, at least i've overcome my fears by looking down at the transparent glass and at about over hundreds of meters down! woohoo!!.. then, it was lunch. before that, there's this group of guys as in cool and hot dudes.. haha.. o well, they helped us took a photo using my sister's camera and one of the guy took himself and with his friends.. so yeah.. their HOT!.. *winks*.. after grand canyon, headed straight to las vegas primeium outlet.. i didn't really bought much clothes.. anyway, while walking passshops, there was a guy around my age, he looked at me and i looked back at him and looked away. 1 second later, i knew that he was looking at me and so i looked at him and i kinda smiled to myself.'' ok stop it yaw!''. then... dinner, we ate sushi.. o well, i helped my mum set up the table, walking to and fro and then, when done, i got what i wanted to eat and all. hmm.. this guy was either a jap or a mix usa, i don't know. he looked at me for kinda long and i looked at him for awhile plus i smiled out of a sudden.. lol.. my sis was like'' why are you smiling'' i was like'' nothing''...

11th december.

hey yaw!. well, we woke up very early in the morning, went for breakfast.. after that, headed to an outlet again.. to do shopping.. i defenitely had to follow my mum and sis.. it's like half the day.. next up, was las vegas shopping fashion mall.. didn't really shopped much. oh and tere's this santa toy on the table in a jewelry shop and my dad was pretty amazed by it. Santa Claus was in there too and dancing along with the toy.. the owner of the shop, as in the guy, he looked at me.. after shopping at las vegas, dad dropped us somewhere and we shopped on our own as well as we walked by the streets...well, we went to the arcade to play some games and also, we played ''Deal or no Deal'' quite fun. in the end, the total amouont of tickets we've gotten was like about 200 plus.. and my sis n i played that game as well, 200 tickets add another few more tickets and it's like 300 plus tickets.. after arcade, we just continued walking along the streets till we reached a hotel and rest inside. rang up my dad and headed to a opened air mall. hang around the mall, bought 1 clothes for myself then had dinner. well, let's just say, this guy, like about 1 table beside and infront and on the left handside, he kinda looked and smiled at me for awhile and i looked at him too. oh and yeah.. the chef was lookin at me too. they were like.. like what the muslims people say '' terpikat'' as in into the person.. yeah... after dinner, headed back to the hotel.

12th december.

Hola!!

check out of our hotel early and went to the golf corse for breakfast. let's just say there was older guys in the golf corse like the age of 30-40 plus.. some of them looked at me and was nice to me as in sayin hi and smiled at me.. later on, i wanted to go to the loo and the toilets were confusin me... i didn't know where the boys/girls toilet was.. well, their signs was kinda confuse and soo.. i kinda.... sorta.. almost went to the guys washroom!!..*blush*.. =$.. after that, my dad drove all the way to palmspring...long journey that i slept in the car..once reached to a pathetic mall,'' lol'' we went shopping again.. i bought another sunglasses whom my dad paid for it though i told him my mum wouldn't allow. *THANKS DAD*.. and then drove around again and went for dinner.. and now i'm here updatin my journal infront of a fireplace and watching tv while my sis is gonna snooze soon and my parents are already asleep!! so.. see ya!..

13 december

dear diary,

today was quite interesting as we went to aerial tram way.. it's right up the mountain and there's snow!!.. simply love snow!.. once reached, took the tram right up to the mountain and went track walking down to the flat area where we acturlly took some photo's..=).. i was kinda active with snow as in i threw snow at my dad and mum plus sis and to the open air area. we didn't had a snowfight though.. later, my sister wanted to take a photo of me.. so i didn't know there's peep behind me till i accdentally knock into this hot and cute french guy.. LOL.. i was like '' oops.. sorry*smiled*'' b4 that his like '' woop'' oh n both his hands was like almost touchin my hips as in afraid i might fall n tried to balance me..*hahahahah*.. oh yeah and at the entrance, the french guy came in, walked and stood infront of us and looked at me and my sis then at me again. i was like kinda lookin at me too but for awhile. o well, had lunch and thanks to my sis, she spilled a cup of ice-cold water on my table and it dropped on my jeans plus the back of it. it's water aniway.. no harm.. took lots of beautiful photo's and all.. halfway through had a tummy ache and so i headed to the washroom.. while walking, a 30 plus or 20 plus year old guy sitting at the bar area, turned and looked at me. i kinda smiled to myself. * aight.. stoped your dangerously addiction to aussie/usa guys yaw!*.. too bad their just sooo hot and cute and cool to resist and to looked at. hahaha. aniway, after that, headed to dessert shields to try different types of nuts and pastries. i went to the washroom, locked the door and went to do my business.. luckily i was done in a few minutes.. cuz this women, she was tryin to push her way in as in push the door open till it did. '' grrrr'' then as usual, went to the golf courses to look around. two courses.. took photo's then had dinner at fisherman's seafood. my sis open the door and went in. i went in after her and this group of chef guys look as though they were standin in a straight line and were looking/admiring me and my sister.. while eating, i overheard them saying something like'' the sister's good. her younger sister's hot... '' whatever it is.. sorry if i eavedrop, cuz i was bored.. haha.. after dinner, went to supermarket to buy some stuff and headed back to the apartment. i'm left with like 6 more days.. soo.. take care and good night.

14 december

yaw!

we went for breakfast and ten headed to palm spring and wwent to the indian dessert. after that we drove the whole day to shadow ridge. it's a seaview.. nice scenery.. nice houses across.. so yeah..

15 december

woke up, checked out, a guy at the counter, he stared at me if i'm not wrong. then we went shopping at montaray. bought chocolates, cookies and some shirts for almost half the day. and we drove all the way to SanFranSisCo and now we're in hilton hotel. aniway, i saw some necklace that i like and it's 2.99 about 3 bucks and my mum don't allow me to buy that gorgeous necklace.. arg!!.. she's like'' NO!.. you've got alot of necklace already.. which i only have fcuking 1 necklace. plus shirts i only bought like those normal tees and jeans and i've not bought any chinese new year clothes!!.. aniway, i'll write about next day. oh and before i forget, we had dinner with my relatives.

16 december

hey yaw!

today we woke up at 9 plus and wait.. my sis went to the loo while i was still on the ned lying down with eyes open..* o..k i know that sounds creepy but i was already awaken aight*. well, i was looking out at the window and there's this guy opposite our room and hotel, he kinda stared at our window while i was at the bed lying down. and so i i got out of my bed for awhile and came back, he wasn't there.. anyway, went out as in walking down the streets looking at shops, buying clothes and keychains and had breakfast, oops i mean branch or lunch. yeap yeap.. the manager smiled at me and say hi while i did the same thing. after lunch, we went taking pictures of scenery and seagulls. then we went walking around and back to the hotel. and later on, we ehaded out for dinner. had chinese food again and came back.

17 december

hey yaw!

today we went to sauselito for branch.. then headed to NAPA mall for awhile. bought nothing much but 6 pairs of school socks for 15 bucks and 3 pairs of white socks for 12 bucks. then headed to a winery which we don't even drink wine and then next was another wine. after goin to two wineries, headed to china town to buy our dinner and headed back to our hotels to eat and then headed out again to westfields mall to buy my mums stuff as well as my granny b'day card. let's just say this cute boy around my height, he whistled behind my back and then later on while i was looking at the cards on the shelfs, as in i was browsing the cards from top to bttom and walkin forward.. the cute boy he did the same thing as in lookin at the cards from top to btoom and walking forward till the end. after that, he turn around and walk a big circle just to walk pass me. later then, i saw this b'day card which sounds so nice and sweet but it doesn't suit my granny. after reading, i was like '' ha ha'' my sis smack my head using a card and she giggled too. i was laughin kinda loud and that cute boy turn around and looked at me while i looked at him and squat down. .. o well, then headed back to our hotel rooms. tmr is our last day in USA and we're taking a midnight flight. so we've gotta be at the airport by 8 or 9 at night. i'm so gonna miss usa and the sceneries!!! wish to stay in USA!!!..

18 december

hello..

today was really nothing much.. woke up at 9 something, laze around, drove to apple bee for branch.. well the waitress happens to be a guy and his hot and cute. aniway, we ordered our food. i was like'' eyy, help me order mine'' as in the food that i want.. * i was asking my sis* i was kinda drinking a cup of hot water and my sister was like' and for the little girl, pause'' the guy looked and smiled at me while i was drinking and gulpin down my ter and smiled too.. then my sis continued ordering my food. after eating at apple bee's, went to gilroy outlet to shop for awhile. well, let's just say, the sky was quite dark as it's rainning. so yeah.. nice weather. didn't really shop much as we've ain't got space to pack. but still ended up buying adidas bagpack as my dad bought lots of clothes. i bought a sports tee for running, though i don't really run much. after the whole shopping, headed to the airport departure. took trolley and put all the bags and went in. well, peeps were looking at me as they walk pass. as in sitting alone with lots of laugguages as if i'm gonna moved out from USA*migrate to singapore* LOL.. i wish i was migratin to USA from singapore. haha.. o well, i'm now waiting for my sis and dad while sitting down and writtin my journal and a guy just looked at me while walking pass. i looked at him too and scratch my head. lol.. o well, i've gotta go. my brain is blank! goodbye USA gonna miss you!! i LOVE USA!!! and hello to sunny side up hot country of singapore* sobs sobs*. seriously speaking, i miss USA!.. espeacially their sceneries. beautiful and pretty!!!...

* i'll upload the pictures later aight... my dad's like'' OI............................oi............................oi..'' as if i ain't got a name.. he wanna use the computer to check his soccer.. arfff.... can't be patient. so yeah...see ya!..=))

re:

2007-12-06T07:08:00.000-08:00

yaw!!!...

nothing much but i've just recovered from my sickness of havin a 38 degrees of fever.. woohoo.. recovered in just 1 day!!!... aniway.. i think i'm DANGERIOUSLY IN LOVE with a internet guy. ahahha..his from aus,16 n HOT!!!.. hahahahha..... omg!!.. it's insane yaw!!!..aniway, let's not talk bout it b4 i go 100% head over hells with the guy. tmr i'm off to states!! 2 weeks.. well, supposedly my cousin couldn't come along last minute cuz of some passport problem thingy.. and so she had to cancel her flight.. disappointed.. i'ts only my parents n my sis plus me.. duh... so yeah... nothing much but HELO USA N BUBYE SINGAPORE.. =]

''boy walk in the spot, he's so fresh and
he got what he needs to impressin'
just look at the way that he dressin'
ain't no question chicks like oh.''

he said you're amazing
she said then why ya waiting
no more deliberating
what you doin' let's get to it
just like that they

one night with you, boy just one night with you
all the things we could do
everyday i think of

one night with you
no one els but us two
all our dreams would come true
if we'd just get together

CRAZINESS of bordom

2007-12-02T21:19:00.000-08:00

monday!!

hey hey you you!

i'm goin hell crazy!!!!...aniway, woke up around 10 plus, wash up.. as usual did all that i have to do.. and then since the weather was sunny and windy, i went practising hitting tennis against the freaking wall.. and kickin the tennis ball for like 1 hr.. right here, right now, i'm bloggin yaw!.. well, i just don't understand parents.. they just don't seem to understand their daughters. as in what they really want it's really what they wanna do and what they don't like it's really what their not interested in. for example a game of ''majong''.. newspapers saying now a days teenagers are learning a game of majong and my mum, ha ha.. she wants me to learn it as well... that's wht i don't wanna learn!!! cuz i ain't interested in those kinda game.. it's gambling yaw!!.. i know.. i can play for once in a while or in some occasions.. but i just don't wanna learn.. all i wanna really do and learn for my own goodness freaking sake is dancing yaw!!! grrr... when am i gonna find one... arfff!!!.. mum thinks i'll just quit halfway again or she's afraid i ain't serious bout it... like hello!!! i've been like telling her and pleading her for me to find one. aniway, shoo that far away... it's the last month of the holidays and school re-opens.. yay!!!! im sooooo bored at home and i fcuking miss my friends yaw!! not only friends I MISS SCHOOL!!!... seriously speaking.. HOLIDAYS ARE FCUKING ARSE dull.!!.. it's 1.29pm and i'm gonna do some painting and cutting and colorin for my mum.. see ya tootsie people.

i think you got me all wrong
i don't regret this life i chose for me
but this places and and this faces are getting old
so i'm going home.

re: back from bankok

2007-11-28T00:28:00.000-08:00

four-face buddha temple.

river market. sampan.

doggy2

temple of dawn

took at the grand palace

watpo temple. the face of the buddha

took the other cruise opposite while i was in the boat

hello!.

finally back from bankok!. haha.. o well, it's wednesday and it's like rainning heavily and i'm darn sleepy. aniway, let me just tell you bout my bankok trip yeah. =)

24/11/07

hey! first of all, woke up very early in the morning got myself ready and all and then my sista fetch us to the airport. next up, took a plane to bangkok. took about 1hr 20minutes flight. well, it's a never ending that i will watch high school musical 2 as other shows are boring and stupid. plus the games are childish. haha..aniway, once reached, we took our lagguage and stuff, waited for the bus to bring us to our hotel which is Pathumnam princess hotel. once reached to the hotel, we wasted about few minutes or almost an hour in our rooms as my mum and aunt went to do some complaining about the cruise that we've booked. we did plan it in singapore but it turns out to be topsy turvy as in the person wasn't sure of what she was doing.. seriously, it's ridiculous. oh and we had a communication problem. some of the thai peeps understand english quite well while some don't even understand english.. o well, i've been having a really bad heacache since we touched down to bangkok airport. seriously.. it was like.. nvm.. but all i know it's like someone drilling in my head.. that hurts alot yaw!. after wasting an hour or so, we headed to MBK shopping mall.. it was just few floors down our hotel rooms. =).. MBK shopping mall was huge and there's like lots of things to buy.. while walking in MBK, some guys was like looking at me and even smiling at me.. i was like kinda nervous for no reason. LOL..oh yeah and there's like lots of aussie babes and hunk. some hunks were like looking at me too and i kinda smiled to myself. haha..ok alright! get to the point yaw!. after shopping, we took a cruise which made me felt fugly giddt and made my headache even worse.. it's really quite choppy that i felt like throwing out..the dinner wasn't fantastic though the so called cruise manager said it was fantastic!. we took the cruise it's just for the loi kratong festival. saw beautiful fireworks and it's super duper loud as i't just right infront of the boat but few meters away DUH!.. after the fireworks, the boat was filled up with the smoke. and btw, while sitting, this aussie guy, * his kinda crippled* he looked at me uses he camera to point at me. luckily he didn't snap a shot. LOL.. aniway, reached the hotel around midnight and it's like 1.34 past midnight. so i've gotta sleep. goodnight yaw!.

25/11/07

hey yaw!.
o well, acturlly i cna't open my eyes animore. i'm like so drowsy as can be as in both my eyes will be closing anytime. anyway, today we woke up at 7.45, went for breakfast and headed to MBK. but it wasn't open yet. zzz..all of us went back to our hotel rooms and waited in our rooms till 10 and we took the lift, out the door and in the shoppin mall. haha. shopped for 40 minutes then headed to watpo temple for 1hr. took a few pictures as we don't even know the history bout the temple. why? cause there was no tourist guide to guide us through the temple. next up, headed to grand palace temple where we almost got lost in there as it's SUPERB BIG and was crowded with local peeps as well as tourist. let's just say the tourist was like pushing and squizzing their way through. after taking photos and looking around, we headed big but got lost in the middle of the temple. my mum had to find someone whom can understand and speak english so that we can ask them to help us to find our way out of the temple. SERIOUSLY.. darn crowded. and i wonder.. while i was walking towards the entrance, peeps as in younger guys or teenage guys kept looking at me as if i'm doing a runway show?!?.. aniway, all of us felt exaushted.. we took a van and went for lunch. after lunch, as usual, headed for shopping again for like one whole day. i psent a hole in my mums pocket buying clothes, accesseries, cute stuff and few more things. some are cheap but still e have to bargain to a lower price.. it's in like 100bud 300bud.. my mum bargain and bargain for a lower price just to buy her shirt and my shirt.. =).. not forgettin i also bought a bag!!.. so, right now, my legs are tired and i can't open my eyes. i'm gonna sleep! tmr will be a half day tour and a while day shopping again!. woohoo!.
nites yaw!.

26/11/07

hello

today was a smoky hot plus windy and air poluted day..o well, went for breakfast around 7 plus and had a half day tour. first up, we went to the temple of dawn. walked around and took a few photos. while coming out of the boat and walking towards the entranc of the temple, this candid camera man took our photo without us knowing and it was printed up on the plate!!. i was like soo irritated by it.. arg!. aniway, some thai lady beg us to take photo's wearing thai costumes. thought they would use their own camera's. didn't know we had to use our own camera to snap. grrrr!!..waste our time. the tourist whom just got in, was like looking and smiling at us.. i was like kinda smiling as well as shy... so, next up, was the jewelry shop.. looked at how the carved or make the stones and stuff. and people in there whom are buzy working on the stone, looked at me and i pretended as if they were status. LOL.. after the jewelry shop, all of us took a boat and on the river itself there's a river market where peeps row their sampan selling cute pens and pencils or other stuff.. but i didn't bother to buy anithing from them. was buzy taking photos of the buddha and some old houses on my left handside.. minutyes later, we were given a loaf of bread and we fed the catfish in the river.. it reminded me if feeding some seagulls. haha.. niway, recorded videos of my baby nephew feeding the cat fish. after a few minutes of an hour, they tour guide brought us to a building to taste honey. but my mum and i, plus my grandmother stayed in the bus and sleep..we were like quite tired. but halfway through, my mum had to go to the loo and so the door wasn't open and she had to push the horn and it was super loud.. few minutes later, the bus driver came and let us out to the toilet.. after the half-day tour, it was free and easy as in we can go where ever we like. we walked all the way to platinum. seriously, both my grandparents couldn't walk much. my mum and aunt have to walk with them while i was asked to walked infront and needn't worry much bout my grandparents..both my grandparents have to stop for few minutes and walk again.. every minute they walk they have to stop and rest. *sigh*.. sometimes i do pity em'.. if we take a bus it's near. but if we go for foot,... nvm.. don't talk bout it. once we've reached, mum told my grandparents to sit at the cafe and rest or drink a cup of coffee while we went shopping again. i bought few clothes long sleeve as well as short sleeve plus a jacket and a necklace. and FINALLY YAW! bought a belt for my own!!.. THANKS MUM!!.. i sort of begged her till she got a headache and so she gave me money to buy.. haha.. as usual, we shopped the whole entire day and i have an experience of taking a taxi which they call it a ''tok tok'' fun!.. my right leg are like freaking hell pain!. so let me have a rest and i shall continue tmr aight*.. see ya!

27/11/07

hey!..
well, i'm kinda in the plane right now but yeah.. woke up early in the morning and had breakfast.. as my aunt was tlakin she saw two HOT HUNK! as in HOT AUSSIE..lol.. seriously, both of them were like freaking HOT can?!?. hahah.. ok stop it!.. shht*.. as usual, took a normal taxi cab to platinum, shopped for 1hr and headed back to MBK whici is pathumnam princess. shopped for awhile and my mum went for a foot massage while my aunt went for a pedicure. while i was sitting with a HOT aussie guy just beside me waiting for my mum.hahahahha... *ehough!*. now we're going back to singapore and woohoo! away from those bangkok people and aussit HOT guys whom just love looking at me.. bye bangkok and hello singapore. btw, before i go, i wanna tell you bout in the aeroplane.. first of of, we boarded the plane there's this singaporean guy whom was doing a business trip to bangkok and coming back to sing. i was like sitting down watching my show and out of a sudden he just stood up and said ''excuse me'' but nvm.. he then just squiz his way out to the alley as in i put my leg up on the chair and my mum was like having problem puttin up her leg while he simply just squiz his way out.. he think his soooooo skinny..gosh!! infront of me was just a tiny little space and he could just squiz out without my mum and i goin out first??.. WTH!!.. i was kinda aggitated.. typical singaporeans whom just can't wait.. then, both my mum and i got ready to stand up.. first we took out our seat belt.. when he comes, he wanted to squiz his way in again but we stood up quickly get out of his dam way and let him in to his fcuking place!!.. seriously, he can't wait and he thinks his like a snake or what!!..he was like'' sorry'' in my heart i was like'' sorry? go take a lorry next time and you can have the whole freaking space to yourself fatso!'' LOL.. i know i'm mean but his just soo ridiculous. i was PIST OF BY HIM!... arg!!.. aniway, i shall post some bangkok pictures yeah..

see ya ..

p.s. acturlly there's more but can't possible upload all photos..sorry yeah..=]

yaw!

2007-11-22T19:37:00.000-08:00

Friday
hey yaw!

today's the last fugly day i'm bloggin. and next day i'm heading to bangkok. 4 days 3 nights yaw!
o well, my brain is still on a shutting down system. don't really know what should i blog about. all i knew is the alarm clock went off at 7.35 waking me up and mum turning alarm clock off.. and i went back to beauty sleep till let's say 10.00. and then i went reading this times magazine. spend bout 1 hr in the toilet reading it while doing my business. LOL. aniway, yesterday i watched a show called Tab TV. bout two guys addicted to online gamings and not concentratin on their studies. as in where ever they go, they MUST play a online game like in a LAN shop. bla bla bla. after the whole show my mum was like.........

mum: so, you know what norman says besides gaming infront of the computer? is it good
me: go out for a jog or cycling and no it's not good
mum: why?.. and do you know ur addicted to it alreadi
me: cuz we'll get addicted* says in my heart.. yea sure i'm addicted. i don't even play online games.. DUH!!*
mum: why not you learn something new like baking.... or jog around the estate....

and there she goes again.. i don't wanna just learn baking!! im the girl whom love outdoor stuff aight* cuz indoor is like SUPERB FUGLY DAM BORING OK!!.. i mean like baking is interesting but not always we'll have to be baking the whole dam week/day/month/year RIGHTTTTT.... i wanna learn HIP-HOP DANCING AS WELL AS SEARCH FOR A SINGING CORSE YOU DARN IT!!... arfff...mum thinks i will give up. ok fine! i know i've gaven up on my guitar as well as my piano. that's being sucha LOSER i know that.. but this time im really interested in singing and dancing aight* why not give me a chance. and i won't EVER quit any of those!!! gosh!! i'm like boiling like a HOT POTATO SOUP!!....aniway, i don't care!!!! if next year there's a new cca that comes out or a programme, i'll just join for my goodness sake! not gonna listen to my mum as in she'll say things like '' hahaha... are you sure or not'' whatever it is.. i'll just FUGLY JOIN IT AND TAKE PART IN IT YAW!!... so yeah.. i guess that's all about it. and i'm gonna read my story and last chapter.. omg! it's soooooo romantic and it's sooo nice.. i understand the whole story.. about boy/girl relationships...awww... gotta run..

adios amigo.=]

look at me
i will never pass for a perfect bride
or a perfect daughter
can it be
i'm not meant to play this part?
now i see
that if i were truly
to be myself
i would break my fam'ly's heart

who is that girl i see
staring straight
back at me?
why is my reflection someone
i don't know
somehow i cannot hide
who i am
though i've tried
when will my reflection show
who i am inside?

re: weeeeeeee

2007-11-16T07:53:00.000-08:00

hello.... FINALLY COMPLETED MY ENGLISH ASSIGNMENT. AFTER A LONG WEEKEND AND WEEKDAYS LAST WEEK AS IN MOUTH SPEAK BUT NO ACTION DONE. and today is the day that i finally complete my mission!..

english 90 words as well as compo 100% done.
maths is whatever. throw it aside.hahahha.

the project thingy, tomorrow. last mission!. hahaha.. it's 11.48pm and i'm off to sleep

goodnight yaw!.

re:...

2007-11-15T06:46:00.000-08:00

hello people...it's thurday and it's been quite awhile huh.... let's see... i've been doin my holiday assignment.. but still let's put it in this way that

my english on finding 90 words= 65% done
compo=0% done.
maths paper 1= done it but left some blank.. cuz it's un-do''erble''*if there's such a word*. lol
paper 2= 15% done. the rest it's the same as paper 1.
project= hmmm.. let's just say it's 35% done. hees*.. yeayea...

o well.. nothin really much.. but just slacking and slacking till next saturday.. cuz i'm off to bangkok!!..4 days 3 nights with my mum's parents side. so.. i'll make A PROMISE to myself that
i shall COMPLETE my holiday assignment by hook or by crook before i fly off to bangkok yaw!!.
so yeah... i'm now doin nothin but updatin my blog plus dlding new songs from JONAS BROTHER.. nice songs they hav.. LOVE IT!!... and some of their songs, are meaninful for me.. cuz it always meant for people. but for now.. it doesn't meant for anione.. it's just meant for me.. i mean the song lyrics yeah.. and and... people change ya'll.. cuz i hav this friend whom is close to me, and to the rest of my friends.. she's splitting up with us.. she wanna be alone and to depend on her guy.. i don't know bout her.. she also said that from now on she's gonna treat us as casual friends.. not besties but just casual.. haix... I MISS HER MUCH!!...aniway, this friendship thingy is goin CRAZY, NUTS,LUNATIC,INSANE!.. as in things our friendship are like fading away far apart.. with just one of our friend.. and it's like making it BIG?? WHAT THE HELL IS GOIN ON YAW!!.. ARGGG!!!... CAN'T YOU GUYS JUST BE HUMAN?!?!.. WHAT ARE FRIENDS FOR?? WE TREASURE OUR FRIENDSHIP.. BUT THEN YOU SPLIT IT APART?.. IT'S LIKE SOOOOO CHILDISH!... I DUNNO YEAH.. IT'S ALL UP TO YOU GUYS TO SETTLE IT.. BUT FOR NOW, please enjoy ur holidays!!! do not get sooooooo FCUKED up bout this matter.. everything can be hold up later..it's 11.56pm.. and i'm gonna end here aight*..see ya.. HAPPY HOLIDAYS YA'LL

i've been wasting my time
i've been losing my mind
i've been running races
still don't know what i've been chasing
but my eyes still can see
bluer skies that wait for me
and i'm on my way

time for me to fly
time for me to soar
time for me to open up my heart and knock on heavens door
time for me to live
it's time for me to sing
time for me to lay down all my worries and i'll spread my wings
time for me to fly.

but you can be a heavy ride
when those clouds are in your eyes
but i feel a calling
i will rise, i won't be falling
and i'll escape the gravity
and i'll reach my destiny
and i'll fly away.

RE: went to do baking.

2007-11-10T05:32:00.000-08:00

there goes my marble cake and blueberry cake!..yummy!..
want some?.. BLEUK!!

second preparation for blueberry cake.=]

Tada!.. marble cake.. want some??...yummy!.
hahahha..

stirring..and stirring.. hehe..

oops.. dropped flour on my shorts..=]

starting/preparation of baking marble cake.

hello!.... o well..today was nothing really much but woke up around 11 plus, went down to laze around and round 12 had my lunch... ate slowly all the way to 1 plus.. and my mum and i did baking of marble cake and blueberry cake with some toppings of crush nuts.. YUMMY!!...haha.. o well, after baking, went tryin marble cake..and later on blueberry cake... after tryin... went practisin tennis.. as well as SUN TANNIN outside the house... as in sit on the chair beside my aunt's car.. sun shinnin on me.. wooohooo....niway, let the pictures take over aight*..see ya... TOOTS!...x))

SO SICK OF BoREDOM!

2007-11-06T21:54:00.000-08:00

hey blog..what's up ya'll..
o well.. nothin really much but been tryin to finish up my holiday assignment like english..which is like half-way done? plus my maths equally the same as my english.. LOL.. and i've not started on my project yet.. mayb after completin my holiday assignment.. sooo.. it's like keepin me kinda buzy.. aniway, i couldn't sleep the whole of last night..was tossing here and there when my phone rang wtih vibration.. got me into heart attack.!.. it rang twice when i acturlly cut it off twice.. and the third time, i switch it off... and turn it back on after 5 minutes till the next day. hahahhaha...seriously i couldn't sleep till it was gonna pour like cats n dogs...and now both my eyes are like soo small that it can close anitime.. soo, later on, i'm gonna practise playin tennis to keep me awake and sweaty, go for a nice and refreshin bath and i'll be awake aight*.. =)).. oh yeah you know what,.. this guy that i DUN LIKE AND HE KEPT WAITIN AND WAITIN FOR HIS WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE... darn!!! his really askin for it man!.. and his forcin me to do this... and SURE I'LL DO THIS NOW!..let's just say yesterday was like a nice and windy day till i check my friendster.. and you know what comment some guy gave me?.. let me post it out for ya.*ehem.
'':hey..how are you doing lla...is everything alright??? why in class uu dun talk to me lla...mayb uu dun like me.. i don't know lla...just to tell uu..one time hear that uu got boyfriend, sadsad...don't tell ppl lla..okk i got to go soon..send uu happyniss...hahaxxxx:''
uh-huh..and i guess you should know who send me that.. if you have no idea, it's ok...cuz you know what, i don't give a damn thing bout what HE send me.. kinda lethargic to reply that LAME and CHILDISH comment of his... i know i'm a imposter or a jerk by doin that but he FORCE ME INTO THAT...sorry..... NOT!....niway, as i've said, i'm not gonna entertain those kinda comment yeah.. i'm like startin to change myself slowly as in change into my NEWself... and start a new life next year!.. with no rumours, no secrets bout me, and no what so ever nonsence bout me in school.!..it's time for serious business! cause you know what, i've got no interest in some guys out there whom are being a real jerk and a pain in the butt..if u wanna ask bout being my guy, please.. tell me bout it.. as in talk to my hand??..still dun understand? R E J E C T= rejection!..it's just gonna be making new friends... hang out..study together and study smart!...and get good are average grade to MAKE MY PARENTS PROUD FOR ONCE AND FOR ALL..!!... promise is a promise!... oh yeah.. one more thing, i DON'T LIKE PEOPLE WHOM just LOVE typin LIIKE THIIS.. CAUSE IITS JUST SOO IIRRTA TIIN MEE MANN!!. as in double I'S, O'S, U'S AND N'S anithin that's double and i can't read properly..so yeah... aniway, shall go practise my tennis in bout 13 more minutes and start with my halfway done holiday assignment aight*.

well, when you go
don't ever think i'll make you try to stay
and mayb when you get back
i'll be off to find another way
and after all this time that you still owe
you're still the good-for-nothing i don't know
so take ur gloves and get out
better get out
while you can
when you go
would you even turn to say
'' i don't love you like i did yeterday''

re: hey yo!

2007-11-04T07:00:00.000-08:00

hey peeps.. thunders are here.. and it's gonna rain soon... so yeah.. here i go..

YAY!!!... THANKS MUM.. THANKS DAD.!!! LOVE YOU!.. THANKS FOR BUYIN ME A NEW HANDPHONE.. even though i didn't really score well for my exams..... i knw i'm lucky.. but i'll promise you guys that i'll wokr much harder nxt year like 10 times harder!... will completely enjoy my holidays and start a fresh and get over with my whole of emotional stuff... promise to get good grades yeah.. X)))..... and i've cut my hair... new hairstyle!!... goodbye to long straight hair and hello to twirls...=].. o well, it's 11.o04pm and my mum is asleep while papa is watchin golf.... guess i should wash up and go to sleep and star of with my project tomorrow plus my english holiday assignment... PEACE!.

re: zzzzzzz

2007-11-01T06:41:00.000-07:00

Goooooooooooooood evening thursday. =))... o well, never been bloggin for like 5 days.. cuz kinda so called buzy with slackin, gossipin on msn, listenin to music, plus muggin abit of my holiday assignment.. LOL.... gosh!.. i'm like sooooooooooo hella bored.. seriously.. besides goin back to school for enrichment classes and all... still felt as dull as ever till the day where i'm flyin off to bangkok.. 4 days 3 nights.. niway, acturlly, the truth is, i still can't get over with my emotions and all.. though i'm like laughin and smilin in school with my friends... yeah... seriously.. it's kinda hard to GET OVER WITH MY EMOTIONS YEAH.... wait a sec... at least it'll take me like 2 months to get over?.. gosh.. that's sooo long... if not it'll be like 1 month at least yeah.. hees*...and yay!! my dad came home with 3 boxes of chewing gum!...weeee...love it!... love you dad... though i still show you my bad attitude and character and all... the bad times that u've gone through me.. but i still love you!...aww...so sweet.. hahahahha...so yeah... tomorrow is the last day of the enrichment class... and saturday gotta wake up early as a bird around 7.00 and then go all the way to some place which it slipped off my mind... to collect my passport... after that, come back.. snooze off till bout 1 or 2 plus head off to dental appointment thn come back.. and mayb snooze off till dinner again.... pff.. and sunday is the day w here i finally goin to CUT my long ''beautiful'' hair b4 goin off to bangkok.... yeah..that's the plan..should i perm my hair.. cuz my mum says i'll look mature and people might think i'm 21...it's not that.. it's called fashion mommi... new hair style... haiyo!!... anwiay, we'll see bout that after i've cut'ted'' my hair. LOL.... it's like 9.57 and i've gotta go wash up b4 my parents snooze off to bed yeah.... good night peeps... take care.. and HAPPY HOLIDAYS...=]]

i lose my way
and it's not too long before you point it out
i cannot cry
because you know that's weakness in your eyes
i'm forced to fake
a smile, a laugh everyday of my life
my heart can possibly break
when it wasn't a whole to start with

because of you
i never stay too far from the sidewalk
because of you
i learned to play on the safe side so i don't get hurt
because of you
i find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
because of you
i am afraid.

re: gonna change my life

2007-10-25T20:58:00.000-07:00

hey friday!... well, should i blog?...mayb i should.. since i'm now in here.. zzz..wadever.. aniway, last night, i had 8hrs and 20 minutes of sleep.. i woke up around 7.50 this morning.. and that's early to me..cuz usually, i'll have late morning wake ups.. for example, i'll wake up around 10 or 11?.. but today is super early.. i can't sleep!!!...tossing here and there..wakin up every second...well, yesterday my mum and i went to my school for parents meeting...talkin bout my results..PLUS talkin bout my blog bout how it afact my results and all...my mum and my form teacher did talk for quite a long time..i was there listenin too..DUH...the whole story was kinda long...after parents meeting, went straight home...took a short rest.. ate dinner.. went online chattin..and siti started askin me for my results... first up, didn't wanna tell her until finally i told her..i ain't happy bout my results...well, why is that so..my blog says it all.. and that's true.. all my emotional feelings bout BGR and some stuff that's goin on..so yeah.... while chattin with siti, my water pipe just can't control but to leak out tears from my eyes.. it's like every 2-4 minutes.. cried for awhile and i stopped.... cry again and stop...seriously speakin!..=).. i even cried myself to sleep..my mum doesn't know bout it cuz it was a soft weep...well, mr.sulaiman and even my mum told me to try and get my emotions off by next year when school re-opens.. i'll try my best to forget and to sweep everything off my mind and start a fresh next year.. provided there's no one pisting me off.. but there is, i'm just gonna IGNORE... treat it as his talkin to the lamp post or to the wall... o..k...wait... first of all, sec 2 i had no problems at all.. as in no BGR and stuff like that.. but when it comes to sec 3... it's like chaotic...boys comin to me and ask to be their girl and all sorts of stuff.... you know what, next year is a clear mind of guys askin me to be their girl... as in if they do come askin me or whate so ever, i'll just R E J E C T= REJECT! you understand..cuz this comin tuesday i'm headin back to school forCPA enrichment program till friday...we're acturlly gettin ready for our 'N' levels when school re-opens in some time like late january if i ain't wrong...?.. so, in that time, it's monkey business.. as in serious business...so please, don't add any lame,stupid rumours bout me or even add a guys name in my mind.. all i wanna do is work harder!!!!... oh and if that enemy, eugene, is in the same class with me, then i shall just ignore him.... don't even care a single bit bout him..leave that freakin,insane nuts minded guy alone!!.. and for now, it's 12.35pm waitin for my TWO MAIDS to finish vacuming and cleanin up my room then i shall start on my holiday assignment b4 i fly off to aniwhere and start to forget what i've got....soo yeah...that's the end of me..

i wanna make it right, that is the way
to turn my life around, today is the day
am i the type of girl who means what i say?
bet on it(x2)

how will i know if there's a path worth taking?
should i question every move i make?
with all i've lost my heart is breaking
i don't wanna make the same mistake.

oh ya,for my close friends, : fatin,siti,amira,atikah and sabariah... if next year i'm not in the same class with you guys, sorry...but if we are then... we'll see each other again.. if not, then i'm gonna miss you guys... all the memories we had.. the ups and downs we've been through... and the things that we did... time that we hang out and had fun together durin guides, camps, outings, or what so ever... gonna miss those days with you guys...sooo yeap... guess i'll end here as both my maids hav just finish cleanin up the room. it's time for holiday assignment..

and so we talked all night bout the rest of our lives
where we're gonna be when we turn 25
i keep thinkin times will never change
keep on thinkin things will always be the same
but when we leave this year we won't be coming back
no more hangin out cuz we're on different tracks
and if you got somethin that you need to say
you better say it right now cuz you don't have anther day
cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
these memories are playin like a film without sound
and i keep thinkin of that night in june
i didn't know much of love
but it came too soon
and there was me and you
and then we got real blue
stay at home talkin on the telephone
we would get so excited and we'd get so scared
laughin at ourselves thinkin life's not fair
and tis is how it feels

as we go on
we remember, all the times we
had together
and as our life change
come whatever
we will still be
friends forever..=))

re: hello!!!!... my right elbow hurts...

2007-10-23T06:18:00.000-07:00

hey!... o well...ain't nothin much to do.. so i've decided to post a blog. today was rather dull but interesting as we went to the singapore shooting center..first up, came to school, once stepped into the canteen, some guys or whoever was like'' wooohooo'' or whatever it is... like as if they have not seen people wearin jeans in their whole entire life.. LOL.. niway, skipped that part.* screams*'' wth!! click 5 went to st.joseph secondary school!!!!!!!.eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!'' ok stop it!!!!!.. hahahahhahahahahahhahahaha...well, bad news, i didn't get to aim anithing.. lousy shooter me. after being there for like 2 hrs.. took group photos and all.. went back to school.. fatin and i took bus 21.. and SCREW THE BUS DRIVER...CAN'T YOU SEE I'M A STUDENT!!! WHY MUST I TAKE OUT MY BUS PASS WHEN YOU CAN'T SEE MY SCHOOL LOGO!!..and my stop is like 2 stops away and ur askin me to pay 90 cents.. custered!!.. * kan...kan...*..
* peeps in the bus stares weirdly at me*
* me: roll eyes blink away from them and mumbled sarcastic words bout the bus driver:*.

minutes later, there's this few girls from other school came in and they were like squizzing in and pushin me... bla bla bla... why am i talkin bout this niway...suppose to tell you guys bout a thing..and it's like RIGHT NOW!!... let's just say, i've just finish talkin to atikah on the phone like half an hour ago.. and she told me that alex is still waiting for me.. and it goes like this

me: tikah, did alex say anithin bout me?
tikah: yeap...
me: what did he say?
tikah: he say that he still have feelings for you.
me: keep quiet and ask: continue
atikah: but i told him that you dun like him.. and he say that mayb one day you'll like him
me: sayin in my heart: CONFIDENT........MY FOOT!!: sayin this to atikah: my foot... i don't even like him a single bit..
atikah: serious?.. u dun like him..
me: no!!! never ever will i even hav a feelings for him.....arfff!!!!!
atikah: oo....*cian dier*..

and the story goes on and on..
later on, i went smsin atikah say
: tikah, do me a favour and tell that CONFIDENT guy, stop lookin at me, don't even try anithin to get my attention, dun ever wait for my answer cuz i dun even like him AT ALLL!!!!... thxs yeah..: too bad atikah didn't reply... but she'll tell him all those stuff that i've smsed her.. aniway, i'm sick and tired of LOVE LIFE... though there are some guys out there whom mayb still chasin after me ... or me admirin some HOT guys out there.. but it's just a admire ok... so yeah... it's like 1o.o8pm and mum's callin.. so yeah... tmr is like another SUPER DUPER DULL SICKENIN DAY..zzzzzzzzzzz..... n thursday is parents meetin... gosh!!.. super nervous... wonder what would my mum talk about to my form teacher.. ahaha..

adios amigos.

re: tellin dad my results was like tellin the real truth

2007-10-19T05:48:00.000-07:00

hello people wassup ya'll...

i'm like sheddin tears in my heart right now.. cuz u know why... i've just told my dad bout my exam results.... shouldn't have pick up the phone.. hahah...just kiddin...aniway, the first results that i've told him is english.. secondly was eoa.. thirdly i told him was chinese but i said i didn't know the overrall marks yet.. forthly was maths... and he was like'' still the same.... no improvement.. * sighing*..need to get you a tutor...* and he goes on and on and on.... well, dad, my mum did get a tutor for me but still no improvement... seriously... and my mum said that it's understandable as i've got no basic for maths.. oh and my dad thinks i'm always infront of the computer and i always do last minute studyin when exams are comin.. like please!!! i don't do that ok... his not in singapore for like 24hrs to watch me..and he don't believe that i acturlly revise my work everyday after school.... let's just put it in this way yeah. not say he don't believe me but the thing is, his not always in singapore and at home to watch me study or revising... that's the thing.. and it also depands on how i study.. well, for me, i cover and practice the sums again... seriously i really did that.. durin classwork, i'm quite ok with it.. mayb i have the fear in maths??...i ain't sure myself...aniway, we're gaven holiday assignment to do.. EOA and maths.... gross!!! why isn't there ani english!! haha..FIRST favourite subject.. today we got back our FnN.. i screw up my FnN... BULLSHIT!!!!...hahahahha.....and....darn!!! look what you've people have done to me... talkin to me lots till i've completely forgotten what i wanna say..arg!!!..... niway, i'v got nothin much to say but yeah...gonna end here.. havin a serious mygrain now since yesterday... ain't idea why the hell i'm havin a mygrain....grrr..so yeah... see ya.

*psss....i saw 3 handsome chi dudes at the bus stop...hahahha...and fatin was like teasin me cuz i was like wanna turn and look at em'.. hahahahha...i was laughin my arse off non-stop.LOL.'' * that's all i wanna say......SEE YA PAL.

re: NO MOOD

2007-10-18T01:12:00.000-07:00

BONJOUR PEOPLE..:))

today is the day that we gotten back our results...gosh!!!.. kk.. first of all, it was mother tongue.. well, don't wanna say my marks but our chinese teacher told us that we might pass if she add the total marks for listenin and oral.. so yeah... overrall, i HOPE i'll pass!!! seriously, i don't wanna SCREW UP my mother tongue..cuz if i do, and when it's parents meetin seasion.. i'm gonna get a slit on my throat. as in mum will say'' you wanna die...your chinese is still soo bad..'' bla bla bla all sorts of stuff... after chinese it's maths.. MATHS....OOOOH MATHS..... seriously i've GIVEN UP on maths... would never ever improve.. my maths have alreadi gone the the deeeeeeeeeeeeep and filthy GROSS drain... and i shed tears after gettin paper 2.. NO POINT SHEDDIN TEARS YA'LL!!! NO USE CRYIN WHEN I SAY I WANNA PASS MY MATHS BUT THEN IT'S STILL COME TO THE ENDING... skipped that filthy maths part... for english, my favourite part..

paper 1 i've got 51
paper 2 i've got 33
paper 3 i've got 11.

in total, i've got 95!!!...SITI!!! WON ME BY 3 MARKS.. 98...-.-'' but good job gurl!!...at least my english is like my best subject ok.. the total marks as in i'm not sure it's 95 out of how many marks yeah.... and EOA, don't wanna say out my marks but hey, i've improve my EOA.. the mid-year and small test, i've been gettin either 1 digit or either 2 digits but below 20... but for now, i have improve my EOA marks and gotten above 30 marks 2 more marks to go to 40... but then there's like corsework to be added... so don't really know what's the over all for EOA...aniway, for now, i just wanna keep it low from my parents till the parents meetin..:))...and today all of was like not followin the rules and all... as in goin for early recess but finally got caught by mr.teo and mr.siva.. sayin'' i do wan to scold the prefects... the prefects should be helping out..go back to ur class..* fatin,amira,siti,me walkin to the toilet..came out* mr teo: eh!, quick go back to ur class!*..'' and the story goes on and on and on.. non-stop... for now, i've given up on prefects.. next year, mayb if i can't handle my studies well, u know what, i'm gonna stop being a prefect. and that's final!!.....and right now, i've got nothin to do but my left leg is cramping like no ones business..soon gonna be my right leg.. i know... i'm like an elderly girl. as in old ''women''... for now, i wanna draw my pictures yeah... see ya'll around. oh and btw, today while heading home, fatin was like'' bernadette, mat salleh( foreigner, aus peeps) siti,sabariah,amira,fatin n me was like smiling.. and i was liKE grabbin fatin arms. cuz first of all when amira wants me to go back with her, fatin pull my arm to her and so her hands was still on my arms.. so yea... i ended grabbin fatin arms when i saw that HOT GUY!!...* okay.. bernadette, please... stop ur nonsence and get back to ''serious'' business.. hahaha...* niways, gotta get back to my drawings... see ya peeps round aight*.

adios amigos.

just remember in the winter
far beneath the bitter snow
lies the seed that that with the sun's love,
in the spring, becomes the rose.

re: hello

2007-10-15T21:01:00.000-07:00

yerp.yerp. i drew that too..quite nice..(bunny.waitress)* that drawing.was.long.time.ago.*

suppose to be hello kitty but ended up drawing a goth piglet kitty?

sleeping.beauty.koala.( soooo.CUTE.except for the legs and arms.*cacat*). haha

hello tuesday....freaking hell bored right now!!...had late night sleeps since the short holiday started..now school is like gonna start soon but it's just a short few days and then it's holiday again!! but then my class and 3 nob have to go back to school to do the dreamweaver b4 it's too late for 1 an a half weeks then it's gonna be like the REAL AND BORING HOLIDAY FOR 2 MONTHS...zzzzzz...niway, did nothing durin the short holidays but looking for pictures to draw on my scrapbook. those up there, are few examples of my drawings..haha...o well, ain't much to converse about but i woke up 10.30pm today. so yeap......oh and guys, get ready for the exam results aight*.. haha.. wish ya all the best of luck..and hope to graduate to sec 4 nxt year. till then, see ya folks.

i'm over your hands
and i'm over your mouth
trying to drag me down and fill me with self doubt

oh and that's why your world
i'm over it
so sure
i'm over it
i'm not ur girl,
i'm over it (x2)
i'm over

wanting you to be wanting me
no that ain't no way to be
how i feel, read my lips
because i'm so over
(i'm so)
movin' on it's my time
you never were a friend of mine
hurt at first, a little bit
but now i'm so over
so over it
i'm so over it

re: wooohooo... exams are defenitely WAY over

2007-10-11T21:36:00.000-07:00

IT'S FRIDAY AND FINALLY!!! I CAN RELAXS MY MIND.. CUZ I'VE BEEN STRESS FOR THE PAST FEW DAYS!!.. SO YEAH...and i've got like tmr-wednesday... holiday.. and thursday we're gettin back our results.. gosh!!!... dreading for my results ya'll... niways, today is my FnN.. it was quite alright.. but i guess some of the topics that i've memorised, it slipped off my mind..grrr......completely got screwed up!!.. oh yeah.. since exams are WAY OVER, let me just say this outta ma heart yeah...

first of all, i wanna say sorry to this person whom i've read her blog and found out she was commentin on me. bout how i change.. sorry yeah.. and no offence at all.

secondly, i wanna say please.... for GOODNESS SAKE!!!... think twice.. if it's isn't enough, think THRICE!!.. cuz u know what, i'm NOT EMO!!! AND THE WAY I SIT IS THE WAY I AM.. I'M JUST NORMAL GIRL IN SCHOOL OK!!! I AIN'T THOSE MINAHS OR WHAT YOU GUYS JUST LOVE SAYIN THAT MINAHS LOVE BEHAVING IN A BAD MANNER AS IN SHOW OFF HOW SEXY THEY ARE OR HOW CUTE THEY ARE...i'm not those kinda gurl aight*.. my skirt is just too long and that's the reason why i gotta fold... what's that gotta do with my character... and i've not changed a single bit.. you just don't understand me and don't even know the 100% of the real me... so PLEASE....... FOR UR OWN GOODNESS SAKE!! if u wanna comment on me or tell anione bout me, just talk face-to-face.. there no reason for you to talk behind my back!!!... arg!!!! that's like soooooo childish aight*.. seriously, being in that manner that you are in, is really childish... talkin behind my back bout my skirt and my character...pfff.... GROW UP YA'LL...!!! GROW UP!!!.... i hate friends whom behaviours are like that...seriously speaking..oh yeah..that's the whole truth.. and please just look at your behavior and character first b4 talkin bout others!... damn! talkin bout this make me go on fire ya'll... oh yeah and

thirdly, please think back on the good things that i've been doing for you... especially during the sec 3 camp as well as in school.. all the help and favor that i did for you.. all those are the good things that i've been doin for you and this is what i get in return?.. talkin bout my skirt and my character?.. ha ha ha ha ha ha ha........seriously, you have to think back ok... and

fourthly,
bout the bf thingy, i know that i've told you guys that i don't wanna have a boyfriend... and i ADMIT IT I'VE TOLD YOU GUYS...( at least i admit things that i've said ok).. but then.. as my life changes, i just need someone to comfort me as well as to confide in.. oh and yeah.. SPEAKING OF THE TRUTH, i don't even know if he accept in the first place after tellin him that i have a crush on him...so, we're not really together!... and that's just a CRUSH!!! PLEASE DIFFERENTIATE THE MEANING OF CRUSH AND GOIN INTO STEADY!!!...right now, is neither a crush nor a steady... we're just normal friends but not more than a glass of a cup.. once broken into pieces, it can't be fixs.... you know what i mean?.. if you don't, i'll explaine it.. it means we're not sooo close till we're more then friends and then later on we break up.. NO!.. isn't that.. so yeah.... right now, i'm with no one!! seriously saying THE TRUTH!!.

lastly,
please... don't say anithin bout me... if u want, do come face-to-face with me and tell me!! and if you think ur angry, whose even more angrier.. i'm sooooooo DARN FUSTRATED RIGHT NOW JUST B CUZ OF THIS..all i know is your just jealous of whom i'm mixing around with... i know i've got lots of friends in this school... but there's no need to be jealous... gosh!! this makes me wanna puke infront of the computer screen.. what u want me to do... talk to you more often and leave my close friends aside....please lar!! be mature... we're all friends for sure right... there's no need to be jealous.. just mixs around with us and talk to us.... there's NO REASON FOR YOU TO HIDE ALL UR FEELINGS AND SPIT IT ALL OUT WITH ANOTEHR FRIEND OF YOURS...GRRRRR......* relaxs bernadette...relaxs... don't get soooo fish up easily bout this one matter. it's just a small matter... don't make it BIG!*so yeah.... guess i'm done with saying my peace!.. and anithing that i've missed out?.... hmmm.. nahx... i hope after readin my blog, you'll understand what i'm tryin to say.... ONCE AND FOR ALL, I'M GONAN REPEAT MYSELF, I'M AIN'T EMO, AND I'VE NOT CHANGE MY CHARACTER PLUS, I'M JUST A NORMAL STUDENT WHOM DON'T MIXS AROUND WITH THE BAD COMPANY AND WHOM KNOWS WHAT I'M DOING..AS IN I KNOW WHAT KINDA FRIENDS I'M MIXING ROUND WITH AND ALL... SO YEAH.... *give a sigh of relieve.*..

PEACE YA'LL!!!....overall, it's just sooooooooo DARN RIDICULOUS!.

re: can relaxs my brain for awhile.

2007-10-10T00:34:00.000-07:00

gonna screw my maths!!..seriously..but i hope i'll improve on my mother tongue and eoa..and i hope i can pass my english...like duh i always pass my english..o yar and not forgetting cpa. well, we've got like 2 failures. hope that's not me.. cuz i don't wanna fail..!!! and tomorrow i've got english paper 3 and cpa practically.. wanna try my best for the practical... the last paper is FnN.. so for now, see ya.. wanna study hard and pass my FnN... if i fail one sub tht is maths, it's ok.. cuz i've never pass my maths b4.. but i wanna pass the other 5 subjects!! or at east improve on it.. so yeah.. chao for now..

re: I CAN'T TAKE IT ANIMORE..

2007-10-05T23:44:00.001-07:00

hey blog.. o well, it's saturday and i've said b4 that i won't blog till after the exams aight*.. i know.. but for now.. i just can't take it animore... let;s just start of with early in the afternoon. my dental appointment is was around 11 plus.... and i woke up late around 11.15.. the reason is i slept late as i studied really late last night.... it all happends when my maid woke me up.. then, my phone started to vibrate.. it was my mum.. and so i just leave it alone went up to her room and the house phone rang.. bla bla bla... i went to the toilet.. dad came up and he was like''*BANGIN ON THE TOILET DOOR REALLY HARD* YOUR RIDICULOUS..HURRY UP!*'' like hello!!! i just woke up and tryin my best to speed up ok!!... i quickly went to bath and all.. house phone started to ring and when i pick up, mum was like shouting at the top of her voice to me on the phone'' i've told her that i studied late and she was like'' DON'T GIVE ME RUBBISH!!!'' GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR... IF YOU DON'T BELIEVE, IT'S FINE WITH ME... CUZ ONE FINE DAY I MIGHT AS WELL NOT TREAT YOU MORE LIKE A MUM.....seriously... i went down.. and mum startin scoldin me at her top of her voice syain that i've got no sense of timing and all sorts of stuff..... she was like'' YOU KNOW WHAT TIME IS IT NOW... AND HOW LATE ARE YOU?......'' bla bla bla.... '' UR NO MORE A KID... YOUR 15 ALREADI.. U WAN ME TO SCOLD YOU EVERYDAY AND EMBARRASE YOU INFRONT OF EVERYBODY?'' bla bla bla'' YOU WAN TO DIE???'' in my heart i was like'' wadever... i had enough of you shoutin and scoldin me alreadi.... if u want to embarrase me infront of everybody.. it's fine with me... and the nxt time ur NO MORE MY MUM!!!... alreadi she embarrase me infront of my granny... and you know my granny... she's a big mouth... whatever she have heard, she'll spread around to her sons and daughters..... not joking.... i bet my neighbour nxt door could hear my mum shoutin as well as my aunt in her room.... THAT S U X S (SUXS LIKE HELL AND TO THE CORE!)....
whts the point man... wanted to apologies but then just leave it... it's no use.. she'll still continue to shout and scold me.... after the whole of shoutin and scolding me, i can't take it animore but to loose my temper by slammin the door and the cupboard and just shed my bloody tears out.... and sorry if i have to say this just to release myself..'' FMTOOTKER''.........seriously.... it's like i felt like running away from home one day... or i just wanna say, '' why am i born in this world or place''......aniway.. after the whole scolding and shouting movie.. i went EMOtional for like half the freaking day with my parents...didn't talk to them... if i did it was like one word at a time. that's all..... mayb i should just be like this for this two days....o well, I'VE SAID MY PEACE.. AND NOW I'M GONNA GOT MY ARSE OFF THE BLOG AND START TO MUG AGAIN FOR MY EOA AND MATHS PAPER 1 RIGHT NOW!!!''

i will always remember
the shoutings and scoldings that u've did to me
always scoldin and shoutin
of pain and hatred that come to me

when i think about my father
the way he used to scold me bad
and when i think bout my mother
the way she scold and nag at me like nuts
I CAN'T TAKE IT ANIMORE!!

...

2007-10-02T02:40:00.000-07:00

REVISION AND STUDYIN FOR EXAMINATION IN PROGRESS..WILL NOT BLOG TILL EXAMS ARE OVER..

FREAKIN.STRESS!!!!!...

re: none

2007-09-27T02:00:00.001-07:00

hey!.. it's thursday.. DUH... and it's pouring like cats and dogs...with thunders and lightnings...freaky rain...the world is changin... aniway, let's not get carried away and stpped into geographical or history lessons bout the world yeah... just wanna make it short and simple.. exams are like 6 days away... kinda studyin really hard for now... quite stress alraedi...and damn!.. we've been told last minue tht we ain't got e-learning tomorrow and so we hav to go to school!!...grrrrrr!!! screw the teachers.. if not i'll be stayin at home wakin up late around 11 plus and i'll be like stressin up on my revision and all alreadi... seriously.. but it's a good thing that we ain't got girls guide tomorrow!.. yay!.. so yeah.. nothin really much this days... but studyin and studyin and homeworkin and revisions yeah... so gotta go...see ya peeps... and oh ya... i'm like attach to this guy.. his sooo sweet and nice... he does really cares for me.. so yeah...hahaha... gotta go.. adios amigo.

you'll always be a part of me
as long as time keeps on
passing by
you'll always be my baby boy.

ILOVEYOU!..X))

re: none

2007-09-23T01:07:00.000-07:00

well well well... it's been long huh.... been buzy everyday after school doin revision,studyin,homeworking and corseworking for FnN.. that's the reason...hmmm.. i guess it's really nothin much.. but woke up very early about 9.30..went down to the kitchen to get ready my stuff for baking and tryin out my recipe's... it's the first day of the try outs.. i was kinda slow in doin stuff..and oh yeah... i wonder why i just enjoy accidentally cuttin myself.. today while cuttin the mango skin, i cut my tall man finger.. but luckily it wasn't deep....LOL... today i tried doin rock cake and fruit salad with prawn.. my rock cake was not bad at all accordin to my aunt,mum and granny.. and it's good for people whom have diabetes.. cuz it isn't sweet.. seriously... hahahah.. so yeah... practically did nothin at all... went to have a nice bathe and landed on the bed.. eye close and zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz until 2.3o... started checkin my mails.. the computer is like laggin and laggin.. shut off the comp and went to my sister's room... i'll be sleepin in her room for like 3 weeks!! wooohoooo!!!.. i can use her comp and no one would come distractin,annoyin,irritatin, and fightin with me over the computer... I LOVE IT BABEY.. hahhha talkin bout FnN try outs.. seriously, i'm sooooooooooooo nervous... cuz.. espeacially when it comes to cookin and preparation... gosh!.. seriously.... while tryin out my recipe's my heart was thumpin and thumpin like a train... how would i get over my nerves..another subject is EOA.. mdm lim is like givin us test after test after test this few days... and mdm tang is like givin us work after work after work each days too.. dam!.. i really gotta revise those chaps in maths that i'm good in.. the ones that i'm not good in, i'll just try my luck.. and EOA.. gonan read up... i wanna STRESS myself in EOA.. plus abit of FnN and chinese... talkin bout chinese, i've acturlly misplaced the composition book that was gaven to me as a small token.. GRRRRRRRRRRRR... i'll try lookin it up again... o well. it's 4.30pm and i've gotta go reivse my maths right here.. right now... soo.. see yea peeps.

so i should keep this to myself
and never let you know..

re: EOY exams are drawing near.

2007-09-17T04:22:00.000-07:00

hello peeps... o well, it's like alreadi the 17th of setember.. i'll try my very best to study hard to not go online durin weekdays and mayb durin weekends.. cuz i kinda find myself drowning in the water..where no one is there to help me.. u know what i mean?.. if you don't, it's aight*.. cuz i doin't expect you to the meanin of it straight away niway. hahahahah.. aniway, saturday i stayed at home the whole day, doin nothin but revisin on my maths since 12 or 1 plus til 6 plus... but of cuz i did rest in between... duh!!.. and sunday,i woke up very early just for goin to the gym and playin tennis with my sister and cousins.. but in the end, my cousin denied the plan as it's rainning over at her side.. so.. yeah.. kinda tired.. eyes was like about to close.. and when i was about to land on the bed, the phone rang, sister told me that we're goin out.. what to do... but to change and just get my butt off the bed... o well, today's really nothin much but i kept sneezing and scratchin my nose durin CPA, maths and FnN lessons... and even some of the times too.. i was sneezin and sneezin away..and yeah... sorry but i'll have to bold this sentence that i'm gonna type right now!... COULD YOU GUYS LIKE STOP SAYIN ALEX NAME.. CUZ SERIOUSLY IN MY HEART.. I DON'T LIKE HIM....C'MON.. HIS NOT MY TYPE.. AND I WANNA CONCENTRATE ON MY STUDIES..ARF.. WHEN WILL YOU GUYS STOP TELLIN ME BOUT HIM..
if i treat him as a friend, he may think later or sooner he'll get a chance again.. and it'll start all over again those stupid n lame rumours that's ain't TRUE!!.... and well, i wouldn't wanna bother or be interested in such things like people liking me or just gonna wait for me till i accept the person.. cus it's alllll LAME-MO.....and it's like zzzzzzzz....wadever.... so yeah... i'm like matured alreadi... don't really bother bout such things.. seriously... oh and can i like ask my dad to buy himself a laptop.. cuz his like snatchin with me over the computer... if it's not computer then it's the tv.. i know he doesn't come back to singapore all the time... but then, he have be patient!!!!!he can't even wait for like 5 minutes or so.. he'll just chase me off the computer like no one's business and he can't even see that i'm doin my work in the computer and i'm like gettin fustrated!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!.... at least i understand my dad better then he does understand me ok.. sooo please!!!! gosh!!! i'm kinda gettin on my nerves right now ya'll.. o well, guess it's kinda long grandmother and grandmother story, so i'll just stop here and continue with my revision on maths and a little readin on my english book.. and just before i forget, gotta finish my my FnN corsework.. so yeah... toodles for now!...

GETTIN OUT OF HAND EACH DAYS..

re: ..........DOTS

2007-09-11T05:06:00.000-07:00

hey ya'll!... nothin much to say.. it's just nice and simple. exam is like 2 more weeks and 3 more days to go..time flies fast yeah.. been revisin.. and my maths is like goin down the drain.. and it's suckies and all... niway, gonna try revisin my maths and the topic that i'm good in.. and hopefully, durin my eoy exam, it'll bring my marks up.. schools really nothin much..subject teachers stressin us on the subjects.. givin us lots and lots of homework...and there are some people whom are acturlly complainin as in'' argg..homework again.....haiz''.. all i have to say is IF U DON'T WANNA STUDY THEN QUIT AND GET OUT OF THIS SCHOOL!!..seriously... not to be mean but yeah..hahah.. nothin much interestin.. but wasted my money goin to and fro from school to sabariah's house then once reached, straight took a bus 60 back home. wasted all my money as in coins... should have known earlier that i should just go home and do my homework and revise..zzzzz... so yeah... niway, gonna stop usin the cmop at 8.30.. and here comes revisin of chinese.. as well as readin story books.. and argg.. my rashes are here again!!!.....DARN RASHES!!!.. whatever i eat, my rashes will pop up... my as well, i'll suffer from starvation till dinner... so yea... that's all... gotta go... see ya guys. x))

but i can't help...fallin in LOVE with lollipops! and sweets!..

3 more days till school re-open

2007-09-06T23:47:00.000-07:00

3 more days till school re-open..

wooohooo!.. stayin at home it's such a dull... though i've got holiday assignment that was bein given by subejct teachers.. but then finally completed it within 3-4 days..soo yesterday and today is my rest day.. i've beenn kinda slackin at home.. lazin around.. doin nothin but computer the whole day...really had a late night sleep these holidays.. and late afternoon wake ups.. LOL.. kinda used to it. but i'm a light sleeper.. the slightest noise of anithin, i'll just jerk up and can't go back to sleep.. aniway, school holidays are like endin really soon.. left with 2 more days of weekends and monday is back to school. it's like startin of monkey busniess. as in serious busniess.. as usual..come back straight after school, rest for awhile..glued to holiday homework if there is ani.. and revise on work.. stay away from comp durin weekdays... only weekends are like the rest days.. but of cuz when eoy exams are like veri close like an inc closer, i won't be online even on weekends.. u'll see me stressin up on work.. so yeah.. yesterday didn't head to anywhere but woke up as early as a bird about 7.oo.. send my sis to her work place then headed to the clinic to do a bloodtest as i was havin rashes on my arms and back.. seriously.. was kinda scratchin and scratchin.. and now i've gotta stay away from this dishes for the time being. and they are'' fish, egg, nuts, cows milk( ani chocolate's or milk that comes from the mooo's) and not forgettin ice-cream... it's obvious that creams are made from milk right.. soo.. yeah... poor me hav to stay away from so many dishes.. better if i become a vegetarian for the time being.. and just suffer from starvation?.. lol..all i need to to drink a cup/bottle 1liter of water. that's all.. LOL.. today, did nothin.. but woke up very early again around 7.oo..send my sis to work.. went tp my mum's school to help out.. and now my eyes are like barely open.. feelin like a drunk person whom just came out from a ktv bar.. so yeah.. gonna stop here.. and i wanna sleep!!!

bye for now.

BIG GIRLS DON'T CRY.

2007-09-04T04:30:00.000-07:00

nothin to do.. niway, sabariah was ask to come my house cuz of my calculator.not only did sabariah came but her ex(wei lik) plus my pri sch ex( justin), joel and afiqah came.. got my calculator.. invited them in my house and up my room.. was laughin cuz of some lame jokes and talks.. at the end of it, sabariah gotta go.. so, sabariah was like'' i gotta go home.. mum's callin'' wei lik,justin n joel was like'' k..bye..'' afiqah and sabariah went out and down..the three musketeers stood infront of me sayin goodbye to sabariah n afiqah while they were goin down.. i was like'' zzzzzz....* but of cuz i kinda got annoyed by them but still i had tht smilin face of mine...lol. they were like playin with me.. minutes later, joel went down.. and i was like'' o...k left justin n me in the room.. -.-'' ''.. joel came up.. i went over to justin tryin to pull him up.. he moved away.. didn't bother bout them i just went down..afiqah n sabariah was still at the livin room outside. the garden acturlly.. once i went down, the guys then finally came down.. and finally went home.... niway, it's like once in awhile they come to my house..oh ya n saw my table messed up with school books, maths files,chinese books n dictionaries.. LOL. PSPS.. niway, tht's all i'm gonna say..

i'll sing for free
we still chasin our tails in the risin time
in our dark third planet
when no one fights and no one's one
see i don'r belong here
i will carry your cross and your song
but i don't belong here.

re:.

2007-09-03T03:39:00.000-07:00

FLIPPERS in escape theme park.

o well, hey there!.. it stopped rainnin. aniway, today's monday. let me see.. last saturday, i went out with sit and fatin. headed to escape theme park almost bout 4 plus.. then we went home.. reached home around 6 plus almost 7..yesterday, i stayed at home the whole day.. woke up around 11 almost 12.. wash up and all.. started work at 1-2 plus.. as in doin my holiday assignment.. i hav to read a story book.. and look out for 30 words..took me that long to find..i did my english from 2 plus till 7.00.. that took me long.. cuz i'm readin a thick book and some of the words i do understand so..needa find other words which are hard to understand.. after dinner, went usin the computer.. check my e-mails.. and i finally found the HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 2 movie in youtube. watched that show till past 12 midnight..after that, i went brushin up.. by the time i went to sleep, it's alreadi 1.ooam. hahaha... today, i woke up at 12 in the afternoon.. started work at 1.oo.. and finally i've completed my english assignment.. and started abit of my maths paper.. and DAM!! my calculator is with sabariah.. and u know what, she wants me to tag along with her to east coast park. should i or should i not go?.. cuz if i go, i ain't got time to finish up.. last few days of holiday, i'm gonna b buzy.. so.. mayb i shouldn't go..shall ask her to meet up somewhere in eunos and take my CALCULATOR!!.. if not i can't do my maths homework in the textbook.. grrrrrr...told her to bring durin teachers day, yet she has forgotten all bout it...screw her. x). hehehe.. niway, it's 6.48pm.. and i'm off to dinner.. then read my story book till 9.00 and from 9.00 till night, gonna watch my favourite movie.'' i not stupid 2'' in chinese we say'' siao hai bu ben er(2)''. till then..
adios.

re: HAPPY TEACHERS DAYS

2007-08-31T03:21:00.000-07:00

hey yo!.. o well, it's like 6.15pm and i've just got back from OUTTIN with my sec school friends as well as my last years pri school friends.. today teachers day performance was great. love the performances and the singing plus the band and all...bout 10 plus we went home.. apparently, i've completely forgotten to bring along my wallet, soo, poor me have to go all the way home to get my wallet. fatin and siti was asked to follow me.. pity em'.. haha,,sorry guys to trouble ya.. rested at my house for awhile.. then. i went out at 1.oo met sabariah,zulaikha and afiqah at yu neng primary. saw joel and azmil.. azmil was like'' whose this'' as in can't remember me.. in malay..-.-''..zzzzzzz...the wei lik came.. and soo stayed in schoo till bout 2 or 3 plus and we went galeventing around bedok interchange first.. while comin out or the pri school, i saw JACKY!!!!..his my pri 4 friend..until now we still can remember each other.. his now becomin more handsome.. he was like lookin at me and i was like whose this.. but still i smiled.. in the end, i knew he was jacky..he chage alot that's why.. both of us smile and wave at each other...all of us went tampines but joel went home.. didn't do anithin much but wei lik... grrrrrr.. kept on irritatin me as in steppin on my shoes as well as sabariah's and zulaikha's shoe.. but the most is me and sabariah..zzzz.. wei lik have also changed..but talkin have'nt.. as in when we call him he'll be like'' what..''...zzz...all we did was starrin at this girl doin the para2 dance..*ehem. this girl is acturlly quite fat lar..* hahahahahaha...around 5 plus we went to tampines interchange and took a bus home.. the best thing is, while we were at the bus platform, i didn't see where i was goin and so my left leg fell on the road path as in like gonna fall.. sabariah,afiqah,zulaikha and me was like giggin and laughin.. as well as sabariah's cousin...:$...niway, zulaikha and i took bus 67 home.. barely open our eyes..soooooooooo exaushted. guess, i'm gonna do a little bit of my holiday assignment later if i can be awake.. if not i'll do tomorrow after comin back from down town east yeah. till then, i wanna DOZE OFF..

see ya

re:EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE...BINGIT AKU!!!

2007-08-30T01:44:00.000-07:00

hey yo! wasup peeps.. o well, today's thursday and tomorrw is TEACHERS DAY just wish all the teachers happy teachers day.. cuz i ain't got time to rap present and give out to the teachers.. and woooohooo.. i've got tons of holiday assignment. not really tons of assignment.. but quite alot.. that will keep me accupied. not only homework but to read up my EOA textbook and the catch up yeah.. that will allow me to stay at home and do all those stuff that are need to be done and not allowin me to go to far away places like VIVO CITY..LOL. aniway, time passes real fast and our exams are comin and also my malay friends fastin month are comin.. so have to respect them as in dun eat infront of them. i'm a good angel. kekeke..first period was mother tongue.felt like dozin off.. toooooooo sleepy..1hr.took me half an hour to copy the whole passage. and 5-10 minutes of underlinin the words to write..skip that.. then it was maths..did corrections and did some revision on the topic.. then it was english..o well, let's just say in the middle of the time while mr. Siva was teachin us english, my water bottle went droppin on the ground and rolling and rolling and rollin right infront of mr.siva.. he was like starrin at the water bottle.. siti,me,fatin,zulaikha was like smiling and giggin and laughin. i went takin my water bottle and so mr siva stare at me in a weird way.. the best thing is, after takin my water bottle, i was kinda so called ''blind'' bang myself on the small table and one of the guys laugh at me.. i was kinda embarrase..kept smilin to myself.. skipped the reading and recess.. here's come CPA. let me TALK about CPA!!.. worst of all.. starting we did out work in the files..and it all happens when mr.sulaiman ask one repesentative from each of our group to go to another group to find answers..but before that, fatin,sabariah,zulaikha and some others was being disturbed too... let me just say it in the simplest was aight*.. I HAVE NO TASTE FOR ALEX!!!!!!..EWWW...GROSS...SORRY, HIS AIN'T MY TYPE PLEASE FOR GOODNESS SAKE...DO YOU MIND???..HAHAHA..AND FATIN, NO OFFENCE YEAH.. PLEASE STOP SAYIN MY NAME INFRONT OF ALEX AND TRYIN TO MAKE HIM SIT BESIDE ME OR WADEVER IT IS..GRRRRRRR.. i'm tryin to concentrate on my studies here ya'll..soo please.. don't be a match maker..pffff...arf..... bingit tau!.. hahahahahhahahahahah...aniway, i've gotta wake up early tomorrow and be in school by 7.oo. and we, the prefects are allowed to wear home clothes.. wooohoo.. we're not gonna do the aces day.. yay!.. so yeah.. gonna chao for now..and forget everything that had happened today.

adios.

leave me alone
get out of my face
i'm tired in love
feelin so misplaced
time for you to go
you still know i'm better off on my own, oh
leave me alone

re: woohoo.. i've cut my tallman by accident

2007-08-24T22:16:00.000-07:00

hey blog!.

long time no update huh...o well..here i go...nvr been bloggin..as i've been revising...though i check e-mails and go online for this week..but still i put my status to buzy..i continue revisin and doin school homework...oh yeah.. i've gotten back my common test papers...i've kinda improved my chinese a little..i've got 18/5o.. but still..it's GROSS!!..but my chinese teacher is gonna add up the marks for the oral.. so ain't really know wht's the exact total marks..dreading now...well, maths.. don't wanna say cuz it's as usual.. nvr gonna nail it.. unless i really try hard this time for my EOY... english, i've got 21/40 or 50 if i ain't wrong..second highest..WOOHOO..kekeke..oh yeah.. and the best thing is, yesterday we had Girls Guide.. wanted to go home but then..nahx..nvm... waited till 2.oo.. started the guides.. i went carvin a shape on the bar shop, out of the sudden i CUT MY TALLMAN(FINGER) ...!!! quite deep! and it's by accident.. =))..woohoo.. blood was droolin out and drippin all over the floor while runnin quickly to the wash room.. i was sobbin in pain.. THANK YOU amira and siti for helpin me out while i was in pain...went in the office.. mrs kua went applyin entiseptic on my finger.. kinda cryin and laughin.. siti was like'' bernadette, are you cryin are laughin'' LOL..seriously, that was my first time i cut myself..and it bled like nobody's business. hahahaha..from then on, i stop doin the carvin...didn't do anithin but to read the english book that i've bought...pffff..o well, now my finger is left with a ''BEAUTIFUL'' scar...woohoo..still hurts but not as much as yesterdays....GROSS!.. felt like vomittin when i looked at my deep scar yesterday...pfff... so yeah... guess i'm gonna end here.. cuz gonna go off at 2.oo go and take a bathe WITHOUT touchin my scar..and 3.3o gonna leave for my dental appointment..today, i shall go read up the english book.. and mayb revise some of my subjects that i hate a little like EOA and maths and chinese.. x))..see ya.

i've got to move on and be who i am
i just don't belong here
i hope you understand
we might find our place in this
world someday
but at least for now
i gotta go my own way
don't wanna leave it all behind
but i get my hopes up
and i watch them fall everytime
another color turns grey
and it's just too hard to watch it all
slowly fade away
i've leaving today cause i've
gotta do what's best for me
you'll be ok

i've got to move on and be who i am
i just don't belong here
i hope ou understand
we might find our place in this
world someday
but at least for now
i gotta go my own way

re:none

2007-08-17T05:05:00.000-07:00

hey!..it's been long ever since i've blogged..well, those few days, i've been a good gurl.. as in after school, come back home straight and revise my work and do my homework, though i always go on the internet BUT to check my mails only.. other then that, i continued revisin and studyin alright..X)) hehe..tht's why on that day, when mdm tang asked us to close our maths book after we have gone through what we've learn and i was like still browsin at it and she was like'' Bernadette.... you don't have integrity'' i'm like'' whatever..''.. aniway..those few days, i was hacin my common test..i'm gonna flunk my maths as well as MT i guess...and that's the same news..and...let me see.. oh and as usual, me,fatin and siti are always laughin and makin tones of stupid jokes..and emmm sabariah lost her voice...shhhhhhhT*...hahaha..and let's just say there's like some new goin on..which is alex(our class) his been likin me... and i know of cuz.. GOSH!!! can he like just give it up on me ya'll!!..grrr... niway, i just dun like the NERDS and the WEIRDOS company pte ltd(accordin to siti). hahaha...*siti, relaxs aight* if ur readin my blog.hahaha*.. oh and i won't gonna fall for him..it's a N.O NO!....no way ya'll.... why am i talkin bout that.... o well, and damn!! startin from nxt week, our class is gonna have a remedial class durin readin period and it's english!! it's either this comin monday or wednesday.. GRRR.....hate it!!..n i hate it when mr.SIVA ask me to pin up my frindge! and sometimes he'll purposely come findin me and check me up...pffffffffffffffffff....<---( that was what i did durin maths common test..).. yesterday imran just flirt at me as in he winked at me..OMG!!. am i that popular that i have lots of fans... no way!!...oh ya...today, right after school, sabariah and i accompanied amira back to her house to change.. then headed to parkway cuz ms rachel wanna treat us swensens.. once reached, met them.. ate different flavors of ice-cream..*pity that i ain't got my nokia phone 3230..MISS MY PHONE SOOO MUCH!! SCREW MY MUM.. AHAHHAHA. if not i would have taken pictures of te ice-cream and put it on my blog and people will just drool out saliva..hahah*..aniway, after that, both amira and i headed back to eunos.. we saw sholihan..we chatted awhile.. then came rizal,ridzuan,asri and hussein.. they asked us to tag along but we can't as amira wanted to meet someone..ehem*.btw, they were goin to east coast.. it's been such a long time ever since i've been there....should have tag along man.. niway, waited for that someone with amira for sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo long...it's rainnin.. such a nice weather to sleep.. while waitin, i was kinda crazi makin stupid jokes together with amira.. around 4 plus that someone came..finally i could go back. few hours later amira sms me sayin
''bernadette, you know what.. from the time he came, he just keep quiet..never talk..i want to ask him whether his steadin with me but i didn't say.. eei..gerum aku..sholihan more bagus* in malay*.. i replied her.. it's a long stroy which i don't wanna brag too much cuz i dun feel like it..and that IRRITATIN FREAK EUGENE!! AFTER FnN, HE PURPOSELY USES HIS BAG TO HIT MY STOMACH..GRRRRRRRRRR... CAN'T IMAGINE IF NXT YEAR OUR CLASS IS GONNA COMBINE WITH 3 NOB.. i'm tellin you, i'm gonna go NUTS with him.. my temper will be like an animal which is hmmm lion?? or.. cheetah??.. seriously... i can't deal with this kinda guy...this year for my class, 3 is enough for me!! gettin annoyed by those 3 guys.. don't add another one..if not i'll gooo super crazy.. hahah.. o well, like that my mum always say.. try my best! study hard! and get the hell out of that class to avoid that *cuker!!...=#.... niways, guess that's all for now.....it's a rest day for me today and mayb tomorrow i'll start doin my maths homework aight*...PEACE!..

mi amor i'm not sure of the right words to say
maybe this simple words will do best to best explain
what i feel in my heart, what i feel more each day
how to make you see
how to let you know
how to see how to say
with words you understand
words that get right through to your heart
here's a place to start

tu amor
i will always be
tu amor
means to world to me
estaras siempre en mi corazon
you're the one in my soul
and i live for
tu amor
tu amor

mi amor, love you more with each look in your eyes
maybe this simple words will to best to best describe
what i feel in my heart, what i'll feel for all time oh
how to make you see
how to let you know
how to see how to say
how i need you so
with words you understand
words that get right through to your soul
words that let you know

tu amor
i will always be
tu amor
means the world to me
estaras siempre en mi corazon
you're the one in my soul
and i live for
tu amor

you're the one i need in my arms
believe me these words i say
are words that come straight from my heart
how do i make you believe
nothin els seems as much
as what you mean to me

re: i've been DISTRACTED ever since the national day !!

2007-08-12T05:15:00.000-07:00

SORRY, BUT DAMN!!

SERIOUSLY, I'VE BEEN DISTRACTED AND I'VE BEEN AWAY FROM STUDIES EVER SINCE WE HAVE NDP HOLIDAYS... seriously.... ain't no lies man..let's just say i've only revised like 5-12% of english.. 10% of maths, 0% on eoa and 0% on chinese.. SEEEEEEEEE how that atrocious it was...but then, i've read at least 25% of my english story book to at least keep me accupied and ready for my english common test that's tomorrow...and what i've been distracted from is hangin out with mum.. watchin of singapore history on television..goin out to the movies at night with my sis, her bf n the bf's bro.. plus today's headin to VIVO to hav lunch with my grandparents and aunt and walk around.. GOSH!!! I'M SOOOOOOOOO DEAD MAN!!...i'm sooo gonna be in HOT CHILLI PEPPER SOUP.. o well, C'MON!! BUCK UP GURL!!.. fine! from tomorrow onwards.. it's gonna be my muggin time as well as stressin time!.. gotta revise on my common test..EOY examination are like 2 months away and not 2 YEARS!!... sooo.. guys, i'll not be online from tomorrow onwards!! shall be muggin on my schoolwork!!... only weekends and i MEAN IT!!..does that sounds OK! to you?.. tomorrow is SCHOOL DAY!!. woohoo!! can't wait to be havoc with my friends.. not really havoc but just crazi..i've just got back like 1hr ago and just had my dinner like 50 minutes ago and finally i've packed my bag 10 minutes ago.. and now i'm updatin my blog. after that, it's like gettin ready for school and comes to SERIOUS BUSINESS!!.. gotta be hard workin as an ANT!!..
and not forgettin, today, i saw 3 HOT MAT SALLEHS(FOREIGNER) at my age.. 2 of them was kinda lookin at me.. ahhahahhaha.. my aunt and mum was like'' i know.. i saw them..their very handsome'' when i told them that i saw 3 hot guys..x)) * stop it bernadette!..ur suppose to be concentratin on studies and not lookin at hot guys.*.. wakakaka.. o well, i shall go online for like half an hour or 1 hour till 9.30 then it's time for bed yo!!. till then

see ya. good luck for your common test people.

re: NDP parade celebration and racial harmony

2007-08-08T02:37:00.000-07:00

sorry if it's blur..no scanner to scan the photos..

yo! wassup!!.. o well, let's just say today our school celebrated NDP and racial harmony together.. went to school very early cuz we need to get ready for the parade..skipped that part..after all the students have assemble at the basketball court, we started our parde.. the student behind us was kinda chit-chattin away.. some were even laughin n gigglin... oh n btw, two of our guides fainted in the middle of the parade...GRRR.. cuz of them i didn't do my squard attention properly..niway, after the whole thing, went to the toilet to change into our green t-shirts..mine was a sleeveless t-shirt and i wore white skirt..friends of mine were like'' sexy seh...'' '' lawa(pretty)'' and all..kinda shy but i just smiled to them.. best thing is, after changin, the girls, went puttin on make up and all. then went to the hall.. as usual, the guys look at us and we pretended that we saw some pretty stuff outside.. we watched a small concert.. after the whole thing, me,fatin,amira,siti and sabariah went galeventin outside..first stop, eunos.. saw amin,afiqah,raudhah,sholihan and all.. afiqah n raudhah was like'' ceyyy bernadette pretty seh..feewit..''...skip that part.. went bugis.. took some pictures in the bus and touch up as in the make up..was laughin and gigglin on the way the bugis and in the bus.. guess the people in the bus was sooooo fustrated by our loud laughter and shoutin..LOL...first up, this teenage guy boarded the bus..he kinda sat last 4th row from behind..he turn and looked at me for few seconds then he looked at the front..let's just say amira n fatin came helpin me out with the touch up of eye liner and all.. the teenage guy turn back n looked at me then at fatin again.. he did some actions which i don't really know how to describe.. we got down bugis..went takin neoprints.. after takin, we kinda not soo expert in the japanese words on what they meant as in when we wanna edit the picture and all.. though there's some chinese words but still i suck at it.. hahaha.. in the end, we chose bout 3-4 pictures the rest went missin in action. *winks*..after takin neoprint, went walkin around... and siti and i was just admirin those foreigners(mat sallehs).. LOL..X)).. later, we went mcdonalds.. on thw way to mcdonalds, i saw eunice,rong zong, imran n others which i can't remember their names..thank god they didn't see me. if not they'll go'' sexy babe '' or wadever it is.. around 11 or 12 plus, elfiee and izzat came.. elfiee ate mcdonalds too..as usual, when the mat salleh's walk pass siti was like'' bernadette...*turns head at mat salleh guy*''... after lunch, we followed elfiee and izzat where ever that their goin till 2 plus.. oh yeah one more thin, bout fatin.. hahaha..sorry ek.. all of us was in the library, chose our books to read while elfiee went sleepin..
fatin was like'' nette, aku nak kentot( bernadette, i wanna fart)''..
me:'' iyerlar''
fatin'' *farted*.

both fatin and i was laughin like crazi.. izzat look at me as if i'm crazy and indeed i am.. then i controlled myself.. try not to laugh my head off...
o well, i'm like sooo exaushted right now after bein a early bird today and hangin out with those crazi n cool friends of mine.. oh n NOT FORGETTIN ON REVISIN ON MY STUDIES.. mayb tomorrow.. today i'm just tooo sloppy... niway, i needa doze off for awhile before dinner is served. chaos.

i always needed time on my own
i never thought i'd
need you there when i cried
and the days feel like years when i'm alone
and the bed where you lie
is made up on my side

when you walk away
i count the steps that you take
do you see how much i need you right now?

when your gone,
the pieces of my heart are missin you
when your gone
the face i came to know is missin too
when your gone,
the words i need to hear
to always get me through the day
and make it ok
''i miss you''

i've never felt this way before
everything that i do
reminds me of you
and the clothes you left - they lie on the floor
and they smile just like you
i love the things that you do

you walk away
i count the steps that you take
do you see how much i need you right now?

we were made for each other
out here forever
i know we were
yeah, yeah
and all i ever wanted was for you to know
everything i do, i give my heart and soul
i can only breath; i need to feel you here with me
yeah

when your gone
the pieces of my heart are missin' you
when your gone
the face i came to know is 'missin' too
when your gone
the words i need to hear
will always get me through the day
and make it okay
'' i miss you''

re: had NDP parade drillin again.

2007-08-03T06:15:00.000-07:00

people, if u can't listen to the song, sorry.. cuz i don't really know what's wrong with it though i put it in the right place..

SAY YO!

SEAN KINGSTON

YOUR WAY TOO BEAUTIFUL GIRL..

LOL...what am i talkin bout...niway..today's friday and like duh..finally mdm lim was present.. if it's wasn't her, then another teacher will come relievin us..i dun really like that teacher..cuz his borin and i can doze off anitime.. niway, had p.e... first we played with the guys..then the team was gettin lesser and lesser and soo atikah decided to play against the sec 1s versus the sec 3s. but we only played for them for awhile and i guess they started complainin to the teacher bout us as in sayin that we're too rugged or somethin like that..their kinda a loser..shhht!.. hhaha.. then had FnN.. was such a bore..2hrs in the computer lab...zzzz..almost doze off but friends of mine kept me awake..seriously, i kept yawnin and yawnin...skip that school thingy.. cuz today it's nothin really much... o well, let's just say the truth aight*... i've been revisin but not properly as now days i've been comin home, takin a bathe, havin a room service cuz my show hav started, after my show, went checkin my e-mails and blogs for awhile... started doin my homework though sometimes it's kinda pilin up these days as our common test are comin and EOY exams are like 2 months away.. time passes real fast people..i didn't really revise hard enough this few days.. soo..my plan for tomorrow,

sleep longer tomorrow as in wake up late..

skip my lunch if i want to.

try stayin awake..
if i wanna use the computer is only for checkin my mails and for bloggin if i have to..if not just listen to my mp3 player with minimum volume.
revise as much as i can for maths..as i've got a maths test comin up nxt comin mon or whenever

sooo.. i guess that's what i'm gonna be doin tomorrow.. and o yeah one more that i've forgotten.. i've not sketch finish my english compo bout tsunami in pencil b4 i could write it down on the paper itself..rest assure i ian't gonna stress myself out..but EOY,.. haha..gonna work even harder and u'll see me bein stressed out,fallin sick and havin a fever and all..X))... and yeap..as usual... had NDP parade drillin for this comin 8 august. of cuz not forgettin standin under the HUMID GLARIN SUN.. the heatness that my face is facin.. not only me but the guides on my left hand side plus the ST.John's and npcc's.. Best thing is.. ha ha.. i've got SUNBURN..and i'm right now kinda tann..woohoo!!...monday is gonna be the same thing...NDP drillin..sunburn again..if we don't do well this comin monday, we'll do it again on tuesday and if we practise again on tuesdays it will be like 3 days of sun tannin after school at the basketball court right under the HUMID GLARIN GAZIN sun...it's a MUST for me to remember to put on my sun tann lotion..=))... thank you!! my dad is back.. and it's the startin 4th or 5th or 6th or wadever number it is world war.. fightin over the computer and television.. arfff....ABHORE IT WHEN THAT HAPPENS.. CUZ IT'S LIKE FREAKIN ME OUT.. HE JUST CAN'T WAIT FOR ME TO GET AWAY FROM THE COMPUTER!!.. he'll be like'' is it my turn?..yes?..'' few minutes later, he'll comin standin behind my back pressurin me..if not he'll be infront of the tv sayin'' OI..FASTER LEH...ISSIT MY TURN'' when i alreadi say'' wait for awhile''...or'' go watch your soccer or golf''...and of cuz my mum is backin up with my dad OBVIOUSLY!!..and of cuz she'll back up for me but not totally!!!...and like i've got this suggestion... '' MUM, I SUGGES THAT U BUY A LAPTOP FOR DAD SO THAT HE WON'T COME PESTERIN AND PRESURRISIN ME OR FIGHTIN WITH ME OVER THE COMPUTER..SERIOUSLY SPEAKIN'' i would really suggest to you that...niway, my target for tomorrow is, complete my english research homework before my dad comes back, fightin with me over the computer and makin noise and all and then my tempreture starts boilin and i'll start sayin all kinds of bad rubbish bout my parents and sayin all sorts of stuff like wanna run away from home and all..so yeah.. that's my TARGET YA'LL!!...today is a day-off for me from disgustin homework and revisin.. tomorrow i shall face those things that i'm suppose to stick to it... and b4 i start braggin any longer i shall stop here aight*.. till then.. see ya babes and dudes..

i never felt nothing in the world
like this before
now i'm missing you
& i'm wishin that you
would come back through my door
why did you have to go?
you could have let me know
so now i'm all alone,
girl you could have stayed
but you wouldnt give me a chance
with you not around
it's a little bit more than i can stand
and all my tears they keep runnin down my face
why did you turn away?

so why does your pride make you run and hide?
are you that afraid of me?
but i know it's a lie what you keep inside
this is not how you wanted to be

so baby i will wait for you
cause i don't know what els i can do
don't tell me i ran out of time
if it takes the rest of my life

baby i will wait for you
if you think i'm fine it just ain't true
i really need you in my life
no matter what i have to do i'll wait for you

it's been a long time since you called me
(how could you forget bout me)
you got me feeling crazy(crazy)
how can you walk away,
everything stays the same
i just can't do it baby
what will it take to make you come back
girl i told you what it is
& it just ain't like that
why can't you look at me,
your still in love with me
don't leave me cryin

o well, guess it's enough.. cuz it's a real long song...kinda lazy to type it all out.

re: spoil my whole dam mood

2007-07-31T05:11:00.001-07:00

goldy..just got a hair cut..CHIWAWA!!..

yo!.. wassup people....o well..today wasn't really that much interestin but durin EOA lesson, miss wee taught us..and zharif went immitatin her voice again and his name got written down on a piece of paper..haha..niway, after EOA, it was english.. mr.siva(2nd) was pleased with the gurls for pinnin up their frindge..=]]..then it was CPA...did some work checkin, and corrections.. then it was readin period...did nothin except for doin our mathslast minute homework..oh as well as talkin and laughin in class..then it was recess.. saw wayne dancin as in tiltin himself left and right.. like shrek!.. hahahah...shhhht..=]...was laughin like crazy..so was siti...niway, don't wanna talk bout schoo.. after school, went to look for miss tan as siti was asked to practise the speach or should i say the recollection for NDP parade...miss tan,sit,amira,sabariah,fatin and me was there.. then we started practisin.. o well, minutes later, we started laughin out loud on the way we're sayin the lines..espeacially me and siti.. cuz of the pointin to help to say in a angry way or in a loud voice tune..can't stop laughin even a second or a minute..and so miss tan join our laughter...X)).. niway, after that, stayed back in school as sabariah had the marchin thingy.. but at last, she doesn't need to do as atikah will be doin it.. oh and btw, atikah was kinda suspended by smokin in school.. she pleaded mr.jerry tan for forgiveness.. she could stay but for one week.. another week, guess she'll be at home...if i ain't wrong... o well, stayed behind in school to finish up our maths homework as well as to revise a little of maths..while doin, we were also makin a hell out of a noise in the canteen..runnin and laughin like small kiddos.. left school around 5 plus.. went eunos mrt station to meet a guy from ITE which sabarish suppose to meet.. and finally saw the guy.. she was kinda embarrase to meet him as it's her first time. but in the end, she met the guy..then we went home.. worst thing ever goin home today.. once i've got home, mum was naggin at me bout my health and all.. i didn't say anithin bout my mum not allowin her to take care of me...i told her i didn't say that and she just say it striaght forward as in'' u wanna die right?...let you go n die then'' somethin like that.. i just kept my mouth shut..but in my heart, its almost like a piece of paper... once torn, it can't be ment.. that's how i felt when my mum acturlly curse me..was sobbin in the toilet while takin a bathe and after takin a bathe...omg!.. which mum would ever say that to their daughter.. seriously, i just can't take it animore..she's been harsh to me at times...i know i'm a little sensitive and all and i take things seriously as in i feel offended at times.. i know..but some things, i can't control and have to vent my anger infront of my mum...or even just locked myself in the toilet, vent my anger and start to sob.. that will make me feel better.. just to let you know, if i'm sad or angry and i feel like cryin, i'll lock myself in the toilet for half an hour and cry myself to sleep..no kiddin ya'll..but please... i ain't gonna sleep in the toilet.. just gonna lay and sleep on the bed..
SERIOUSLY, my life sucks lately..all laughter and smiles just to make me feel happy.. but in my heart, it's always lays lots of problems that i've not confide in...or have not brought out to anione yet except to my friend, siti..thanks for ya comfort yeah..appreciated..x))...will always keep in contact.. o well, i've just said my peace..gonna revise my chinese and mayb read story books and get to sleep..b4 goin sleep, gotta pack for tomorrow's guides parade....grr.....niway, see ya dudes..

i open my eyes
i try to see but i'm blinded by the white light
i can't remember how
i can't remember why
i'm lyin here tonight

and i can't stand the pain
and i can't make it go away
no i can't stay the pain

how could this happen to me
i made my mistakes
got no where to run
the night goes on
as i'm fadin away
i'm sick of this life
i just wanna scream
how could this happen to me

everybody's screamin
i try to make it sound but no one hears me
i'm slippin off the edge
hangin by the thread
i wanna start this over again

so i try to hold onto a time when nothin mattered
and i can't explaine what happened
and i can't erased the things that i've done
no i can't

(repeat the chorus)

i made my mistakes
i've got no where to run
the night goes on
as i'm fadin away
i'm sick of this life
i just wanna scream
how could this happen to me.

re: none

2007-07-26T07:00:00.000-07:00

hey yo!..wassup...

long time no updatin of my blog huh.. o well, let me just tell ya.. that i've been comin home late last weekdays from mon-fri to practise for our competition.. and then on saturday, we went to changat changi sec for our competition..in the end, we didn't win anithin... but it's our hardwork that counts..we did try our best right guy??... niway, just incase they didn't put the exact day that i'm updatin, it's thursday today..so yeah...and same old thing, been comin home straight after school to do my homework and revise on my work..u know what, i've not been revisin that much cuz i've ain't got ample time..but i tried my best to at least catch up with the time by revisin whatever i can everyday.. unless i'm seriously dead exaushted then i'll just snooze off after school...the weather have been coolin now a days niway.. let me think....finally pass my class test.. got 5 out of 10..how pathetic is that just b cuz it slipped out of my mind of not writtin down ''therefor'' and the word'' or''..zzzzz... that's called not careful..skipped that part.. and on the day when siti and fatin came to my house.. i felt like hidin my head somewhere... siti went openin up my picture folders and saw all my photo's... they was laughin their arse off.. and of cause i did too.. but i felt embarrasin..OMG!!... i just love them lur.. they always make my day...whenever i'm sad, they'll cheer me up.. oh, they came to my house to do some CPA project work.. guess it's kinda right?.. we're done with our cpa work.. tomorrow, we're gonna hand it up to our form teacher..o..k.. why am i tellin u all those crappy stuff which i'm not suppose to.. aniway, had guides drillin today.. as in the marchin.. to prepare for the NDP parade.. continuously.. but of cuz, there's a break...duh~~...there was the NPCC's n the ST.John's.. both the NPCC n st.john's was STRICT ENOUGH..hilary's voice was super loud as well as imran's n the ma'am..ended at 5.00..went to eunos hawker centre to eat together with athirah,amira,sabariah,fatin and siti..ain't got idea but i just went silent for almost the whole of the eatin time..except for when this old man came askin if he could collect the cans and we were like'' it's not empty''.. he kept askin us.. he stood there for few seconds and he walk away.. minutes later, he came to our table again and ask... his soooooooooo DESPERATE for cans that he can't wait and just leave us alone for awhile until we go... kinda bothered by him.. his doin his job..got home around 6.20-30..so.. did my chinese homework just now.. and was kinda tired.. left with my maths homework ... and yay!! ain't got guides tomorrow and so i'm gonna use the free time that i've got..so..what i'm gonna do tomorrow.
1. come back home straight after school(duh)
2.slack for awhile
3.get my hands and brains workin on my homework and revisin for my common test!..
4.do some readin.

that's what i'm gonna do...it's now 10.25pm
i've gotta wash up..and snooze off..

see ya folks.X))

re: never been bloggin

2007-07-20T06:13:00.001-07:00

will. miss.Ms.Rachel.lots..=[[..

this.is.how.our.mini.structure.looks.like.

this.is.the.real.structure.gaget.

let me start..well, as usual.. never been bloggin for awhile as i was sort of buzy with
1.homework
2.revisin.
3.homework
4.revisin.

5.checkin e-mails(friendster.blog.hotmail.*not.important*).. but it's only for a short while. then i continued revisin and homework.. as days passes by, i'll have to put in more effort aight*...let me see..today wasn't really much... but had pe.. played badminton while the rest went playin other games..as usual.. laugh like crazi...siti had the loudest laugh. X))... halfway through played with syafarrudin a.k.a. nerd and irritatin and annoyin boy..-.-''... my badminton wasn't that good.. didn't play for ages man...after p.e it was FnN.. grrrrrrr gettin freakin irritatin and annoyed by EUGENE!!! THE A-WHOLE.. argggggggg...he called me names and all.. just felt irritated and annoyed...just ignorin him but grrrrrrrr....and i shouted durin FnN...niway, i heard that next year, sec 3 endurance and nobility are gonna combine..OM*G...gonna face my enemy of mine..and u know what's the best part, facin and listenin to my ENEMY voice and gettin irritated and annoyed and freakin damn crazi with me..and soon, i'll try to find a way to either transfer school or get him out of my class...arg.... if i don't wanna see him, i needa STUDY HARD,TRY MY VERY BEST, AND DO WHATEVER I CAN IN MY COMIN COMMON TEST EXAM AND EOY EXAMINATION..SERIOUSLY...CAN'T EFFORT STAY BACK AND LOOSE MY FACE....oh yeah.. and durin EOA, guess mdm lim got some stuff goin on.. that's the reason one teacher came relievin our class.. and zharif the rude guy went immitatin her voice and makin fun of it.... i've forgotten her name.. but she's old..could be someone's grandmother( no offence)..half the class was kinda gigglin and laughin their arse off...so.. instead of doin our work that we're given, we went usin the internet..we're dis-obedient kids. haha..aniway, our common test is like 13 august till the 17.. so.. there's no much time to waste.. gonna strive for it and do watever i can as a promise to myself.. if my parents don't believe that, that's their own BUSINESS..even their own daughter they don't trust... wanna know more.. '' CUZ THEIR NOT AT HOME 24 HRS TO WATCH ME!! THAT'S WHY..''...hate it when they dun believe..even though they may not say it.. but their looks.. i can see that they dun trust me..niway, WHO CARES YA'LL.. AS LONG AS I HAVE TRUST IN MYSELF AND I KNOW WHAT I'M DOIN.. I'M HAPPY..so yeah.. guess i shall just go online for let's say few minutes.. and i shall DOZE OFF.. and thank you veri for those who hav used my handphone.. my bill have come.. $60 plus.. gotta think of a reason to tell my MUM!! OR I SHALL JUST SAY'' GRRR...ARGG..YA...DUNNO..'' wadever it is...pffffff..even mum's kinda controllin my life...LIFE SUCKS LATELY seriously speakin..I'M SEC 3... NOT PRI 3 NOT 3 YEARS OLD.. WAKE UP LA PIG..haiz.. don't wanna talk bout it... chaos.

yeah...
get up, get out, move on, move on, there's no doubt
i'm all wrong, your right, it's all the same with you
i'm to thin, to fat, you ask why so why, so why, so why, so why
on and on and on and on(x2)

don't wanna grow up
i want to get out
hey take me away
i want to shout out
take me away, away, away, away, away
round and round, here we again
same old stuff, same old end
turn my head and i turn back again
same old stuff, same old ends.
do this do that, can't deal can't deal with taht
i tune in, tune out, i've heard it all before
hello, goodbye, never askin me why, good bye, good bye, good bye

on and on and on and on(x2)

don't want to grow up
i want to get out
hey take me away
i want to shout out
take me away, away, away, away, away
(chorus repeat)

round and round, here we again
same old stuff, same old end
turn my head and i turn back again
same old stuff, never ends.

re: today was such a humiliatin day.

2007-07-16T02:00:00.000-07:00

yo!.. wassup darl....let's start of with early in the mornin..went to school as usual..meet my babes and friends. haha.. didnn't do my maths homework except for one as it's like kinda difficult.. i did really tried at home.. skipped assembly. first period was CPA.. printed the SST excel work that we've done..then it was maths..handed up our corrections homework.. mdm tang, as usual.. lecturin those peeps whom didn't do their assignment..espeacially those prefects like hakeem and ikin was ask to take off their ties as they didn't do their assignments..not only the both of them but few of the others i think..lecture them for bout 20 minutes then we started a normal lesson and quadratic equations.. DAMN! that topic makes my brain go hay wire..quite difficult.. and i think i finally manage to press the calculator.. i mean as in know how to do the sum on pressin the calculator.. wadever that is.. was given assignment to do.. gonna do it right after i've finish bloggin yeah.. then it was FnN.. was apeal to find 3 recipe's for us to do durin our exams i think and, my recipe was,rasberry brownies, lollipop cookies the other one was amira's recipe which i can't recall.. after FnN..it was D.S.S.= directed.Self.Studies. went to the blackboxs to see those guides dancers practisin their dance for competition..as usual, i went a little high when i was in the blackboxs..as in laughin.. but just for awhile yeah. hahaha...skipped the recess part.. and now here comes EOA...zzzzzzzzz...worst day i've ever had durin EOA.. i felt sooo humiliatin...all b cuz ofHAKEEM!! ..SCREW HIM BIG TIME MAN.. first we were ask to do come memorandem.. hakeem was just beside me disturbin my keyboard while i was typin.. ended up while pushin his arm away, i ended up knockin my elbow against the back..that hurts..he was gigglin away...*his such a evil kid..AMMATURE*... kept on repeatin it over and over again till i shouted at him. as in

me: STOP DISTURBIN ME LA!!:
hakeem: cheyy marah seh( cheyy angry seh)
me: shuddup lar:.

all i know is, he kept annoyin me..his such a disturbance to me.. and here comes the humiliatin part.. first of all, i was doin my work till there's a conversation from mdm lim..

mdm lim: stop lookin at hakeem..do ur work
me: i'm not lookin at him, i'm sharin the paper with him..
mdm lim: oh i see.. i know you like hakeem right?
me: no lar.. nonsence..*say out loud: merepek ar chekgu(teacher is talkin nonsence)*
mdm lim: who said that?..
*keeps quiet but there's laughter from hakeem.*
mdm lim: oh.. u and hakeem are like bro n sis izzit?
me: we're just friends
*hakeem started a conversation with mdm lim and started talkin behind my back..betrayed me..grrr..*
hakeem: cher, u dun care bout us la.. u do ur own work
mdm lim: don't disturb bernadette if not LGF will scold you.( somethin like that lar)
hakeem: * who is LGF..?*
me: *pointed infront and beside siti norain*
hakeem:..oh..cher, who like bernadette
mdm lim: alex..
me: *saw hakeem's conversation* cher! don't spout nonsence.. i dun like him!
mdm lim: but he likes you..
me: his problem lar..
mdm lim: then who you like? terry
me: eeee...no!!..nonsence.
mdm lim: then who you like?
me: no one..
mdm lim: why so sad..
me: cuz i wanna concentrate on my studies..
mdm lim: soo good..
me: wadever la.. haha
me:*...lost contact in where i was typin..all b cuz of mdm lim's conversation..but in the end found the sentence*

continued doin my work until i saw hakeem's conversation there's this 2 words sayin'' AVA member''..was aggitated!...and hakeem tried his veri best to cover his SCREEN..
hakeem: cher, keep quiet..dun tell her..

me: cher, what did hakeem tell you
mdm lim: u like oswin
me: no lar..that was long ago..
mdm lim: ohh..

*zafir came to my place and typed: i lve fadly:*
me: * was screechin at the top of my voice..as in ZAFIRRRR....OIIIII....IDIOT LA U..* grinnin from ear to ear while sayin tht** and whole class turns and face me..thinkin that i'm one crazy girl..**espeacially siti was smilin..* hahaha..sorry ek siti..kekeke
me: cher, zafir type that sentence.. not me..

*all of us got back to our place gettin ready to leave...*..zafir went pullin my pony tail..* mdm lim saw and said
mdm lim: zafir u like bernadette izzit..
zafir: no lar..
mdm lim: u know when a guy touches the girls hair means they wan to marry her..zafir u touch bernadette's hair means u wan to marry her lar..

can't really hear wht zafir say but
me: woik!!...RUBBISH LAR!!..
whole class: cheyyyyyyyyyy bernadette......zafir......

me: grrrrr.....stop it lar..irritatin sia..*blushin*
whole class: cheyyyyyyyy...and laughin away...espeacially hakeem kept goin on and on and on...
talkin to me bout zafir.... while i ran away from her idiotic talks bout zafir..

OMG!!! SERIOUSLY, TODAY WAS SUCH A HUMILIATIN DAY FOR ME...GRRR..
niway, guess this conversation is long enough for u guys to enjoy and grinnin from ear-to-ear.....have to shut the computer off and start doodlin on my homework b4 the method slipped off my mind.. see ya dudes.

re: giddyness

2007-07-13T06:40:00.000-07:00

fatin and sabariah. craziness of them swingin like
monkeys..haha..just kiddin..X))

X))..mariah carey: thank god i found you lyrics:.

practisin and doin the tripots and all for competion..durin readin period
in the hall..

first of all is photo's that i'm gona upload. haha. and it is.
and now here's my story.

o well, today was really nothin much interesting..was tryin to concentrate on my eoa lesson..
IT lesson was seriously such a bore.. mr.robin kept and lecturin the guys bout their behaviour plus reprimandin them for their naughty behaviour too.. what the girls did was just puttin our heads down on the table.. let's just say all of us was like in a daze and slackin durin IT. cuz we weren't asked to do anithin except sittin down on our chairs like one lazy bums doin nothin but just starrin in the air...zzz.. english lesson was one hell of a irritation.. arggg...why must syafa,zarif n jack be in our group.. thanks to me i've completely forgotten bout the colour pencils.. ''sorry zarif'' haha.. but then we used markers and all.. well, our presentation SUCKS BIG TIME MAN..was kinda pist off with zarif but some reasons..can't stand him so i went pokin his hand with my high lighter, ended up with a mark on his hand..-_-''... gettin annoyed by them each days..after school, stayed back for guides..practisin the dance, doin the wooden stick thingy and all... in between breaks, siti,sabariah,fatin and me went takin pictures as in camwhore in the blackboxs.. took lots of photo's i guess..heeees..=))... CAMERA'S ADDICTED.. went home around 5 plus.. goin to be a pig soon.. guess i'll shall stop here yeah. gotta run babes..adios.

the loneliness of nights along
the search of strength to carry on
my every hope had seemed to die
my eyes had no more tears to cry
then like the sun shining from up above
you surrounded me with your endles love
and all the things i couldn't see are now so clear to me

you are my everything
nothin your love won't bring
my life is yours alone
the only love i've ever known
your spirit pulls me through
when nothing els will do
every night i pray
on my bended knees
that you will always be
my everything

now all my hope and all my dreams
are suddenly reality
you've opened up my heart to feel
a kind of love that's truely real
a guiding light that'll never fade
there's not a thing in life that i would ever trade
for the love you give and won't let go
i hope you'll alwyas know

(repeat chorus)

you're the breath of life in me
the only one that sets me free
and you have made my soul complete
for all time(for all time)

you are my everything(you are my everything)
nothing your love won't bring(nothin you love won't bring)
my life is yours alone(alone)
the only love i've ever known(oh no, no)
your spirit pulls me through(your spirit pulls me through)
when nothing els will dowhen nothing els to do)
every night i pray(oh, i pray)
on my bended knees(on my knee)
that you will always be
be my everything

[chorus repeats]

every night i pray
on my bended knees
that you will always be
my everything
oh my everything

re: gettin real pist off

2007-07-10T02:44:00.000-07:00

nvr been bloggin..been readin my very own story book which i bought few months back..and of cuz revise my subjects that i'm totally weak in.=)).. aniway, seriously, i'm gettin so provokin and fumin mad by this guy name SHAFA[ hack care if i spelled her..oops i mean his name wrongly]..his always behind the girls and always sayin this'' can you please hurry up../fast la...ur soo slow..'' WADEVA SHAFA!! i dun give a danm!!.. can't he see that there's people still walkin infront of us after assembly..is he blind or what..argggg.. his such a pain in the BUTT..not once,twice or thrice but more then that.. even if it's a few of us he'll just walk behind us and say'' can you walk faster.. your soo slow..'' like as if he can't walk pass us..IDIOTIC,ANNOYIN,PEST BOY!!.. hack care bout him.his a freak aniway..another case was.. i was bein called a SLUT by jack..bloddy hell!!..well, let'st just say i was talkin to atikah.. and so i was kinda restless and slobby..kind atikah kinda move jacks back aside and so i can sit... it's durin FnN and after cookin and bakin..all of us wen to the back of the classroom where the cupboard is and i sat ontop of the cupboard..super duper rich jack came and so i came down..i didn't sputter a word or soo... jack took his bag and turn a little to my side and said''slut''.. i was kinda pist off...he don't even know what's the meanin of slut, don't SAY IT!! U UNDERSTAND???..FREAK!!!..argg..it's just my luck to meet this WEIRDOS IN 3 ENDURANCE!!..hmm.. let me just say the WEIRDOS CLUB? and they are
jack
ismail
shafa
alex
zarif..
why am i talkin bout those weirdos and freaks..argggff...faggots. X))
today was really nothin much but yay! guess i'm gonna pass my maths test.. that's only 1 question.. and i hope i got it right..that's kinda over confident right. haha i know..o well,
tmr, it's gonna be a buzy day for me..gonna stay back if i have to.. i mean in school. and practise my dances steps b4 the competition nxt nxt week.. or just 1 week later??.. o well, gotta run..

see ya.

she makes me laugh
she'll make me cry
and when we talk
she wonders why
that i can't breathe into this life
with the things she says i wanna die
all the things we talk about you know they stay on my mind
on my mind
all the things we laugh about they'll bring us through it everytime
after time after time
cuz you're all i wanted to find
cuz you're all i wanted to find
and i would drive, the whole night through
just so i could spend it with you
i know you're mind and i know it's true
that when we fight, we will make it through
all the things we talk about you know they stay on my mind
on my mind
all the things we laugh about they'll bring us through it everytime
after time after time
cuz you're all i wanted to find(x2)
i'll fallin, i'm fallin,i'm falling down(x4)
down down down
cuz you're all i wanted to find(x4).

pictures will be uploaded nxt time.=]

re: i'm INSANE

2007-07-06T06:15:00.000-07:00

note: siti, if ur readin my blog, sorry if i type ur name a few times.. cuz i can't stop thinkin bout the wooden stick.. as in durin recess u n fatin make stupid jokes n laugh like crazi. haha

o well, today was really nothin much but mr siva(2nd) was like''thought i ask you to bring ur pin?''
stuff like that.. cuz of my frindge.. dun bother bout that..durin recess, went lookin for siti and fatin...b4 that hilary went pullin me with her like as if i'm her dog or somethin..that's why i went lookin for them. but then finally they were at the canteen. zzzz.. niway, after they have finish eatin, we went waitin for our teacher whom taught us how the gaget with the wooden stick of cuz.. while waitin, fatin was makin some lame but funny jokes with the wooden stick. as in walkin like an old lady and all lar.can't remember wht els did she do.. but all i know was, i laughed my arse off till i squard down..hahahaha.. we were even just beside MDM TANG ROOM! luckily we wasn't chased by her.. kinda controllin ourself from laughin... niway, right after school, went straight home..

on the way home, at the eunos bus stop, i saw this unlovin father whom just snatch somethin from his younger son's hand and just walk away leavin him on the ground cryin loudly.. that was just soo embarrasin but of cuz his mum was there with another even younger son.. couldn't bother much bout this kinda unlovin father towards the younger son.. pity him.. people were just starrin at them..leave that aside..had guides.. it was just sooooo monotoneous.. waitin for them to learn the dance steps it's like waitin for money to drop from the sky..minutes later, we were discussin bout the dance.. the theme is fantasy.. but in the end, we did nothin but just slackin for the whole of the guides.. SO ''PROUD'' of u guys..niway, some of them suggested umbrella by rihanna.. i'll just go search for some information of buy CDs that's bout fantasy or soo.. went home bout 5.00 niway, cuz mum wanna bring me out for dinner at VIVO. XD..got back around 8 plus.. right now kinda sloppy and hmmm..borin.. shall go read up my story book b4 my library books that i borrowed from school library fly to me.. kekke

adios..

re: nothin much.

2007-07-05T02:26:00.000-07:00

eyyy..waterbottle and me!. hahaha..taken by fatin.=))

eyyyyyy...HOLES!!!..

study corner.with.amira.

doin homework/lookin.at.people.?.keke

hey..

should i blog?.. i know.. everytime i'll just skipped two days of bloggin and when i feel like it on the 2rd day, i'll just blog.. pfff.. niways, since i'm bloggin, i shall start my story life..kekeke.

well...today was really nothin much..but seriously, those last few days back, i was kinda doin my homework..readin story book plus tryin my best to revise my maths.. and yeap.. though i do sit infront of the computer but i was kinda checkin friendster(as usual n always. plus bloggin for awhile) i did that for bout few minutes.. after that, i went revisin and all..didn't go online.. and tryin not to go ON durin weekdays.. only weekends like saturday n sundays. DUH.. acturlly, today was really such a sloppy day for me..ain't idea what's wrong with me.. been yawning and yawnin..music lesson.., friends in my group was kinda countin on me as i'm the ''music composer'' that's for countin the beats.. seriously, i dunno how to count. i only know how to enjoy the soothin music, and those rock,emo,black metal songs,RnB and soul kinda songs. haha. after beats countin, another recreation was we're suppose to listen to the song and guess the title of the song.. i'm kinda proficient for these kinda stuff yeah.. only mayb some parts, out of the blue, it just slipped off my mind.. the 3rd one was name the artist who sang the song.. so yeah.. then it was english.. mr.siva(2nd) taught us.. almost went dozing off durin his lesson.. cuz he talk too much. hahahaha..shhhhhhhhht. =#... oh and he lectured us bout the girls frindge.. and guys who have long hair..WADEVA.. after english it was maths.. well, let's just say half the class was being appeal by mdm tang to sit on the floor. i mean for those who failed the maths test. for me, i just need that 1 more mark to pass.. few minutes later, we sat back on the chair... hakeem was kinda imitatin what mdm was talkin bout but in a softer voice.. his soooo infuriating that i can't really stand him sometimes..grrrr..SCREW him!!.. oh n he kept playin with my chinese name until mdm tang stares at him for quite long... i was beside him smigerin from ear to ear.. hahaha..niway, skipped tht whole lesson with mdm tang. she's not my favourite teacher.. but she's good in teachin us maths..appreciate her teachin. ;).. niways, is hakeem jealous or what.. durin CPA lesson, he asked me to ask atikah for help. so i went askin her.. after askin, halfway walkin to my seat, azar called me.. i went to his place to help him out..

hakeem: bernadette...
me: skejab..
1 minutes later

hakeem: bernadette!!!..
me: wait lar..!!
* after helpin azar i went back to my place*

hakeem: oi.. i call you just now u didn't hear... azar called you, u went to him..
me: i was helpin him right..and i say wait..
hakeem: i know he like you that's why you help him
me: *keeps quiet and say *nonsence* in my heart*..seconds later, apologised to hakeem..
niways, don't wanna talk bout him.. he gets toooo worked up easily.. the best thing is, his the one whom also act proud.. everytime i ask him for help, he'll just continue doin his work..his soooo...
a**w****..censored. sorry but i seriously have to say that.. his like a small kid.. not mature enough yet.. that's all i can say bout him.

well, i've just completed my english homework.. and kinda finish revisin abit of my maths.. soo kinda restless right now.. shall go n snooze off b4 dinner..chaos..

adios.

ps. ( i just adore this song soo much.. addicted to it. here's the lyrics)

mariah carey: thank god i found you.

i would give up everything
before i seperate myself from you
after so much suffering
i've finally found a man that's true
i was all by myself for the longest time
so cold inside
and the hurt from the heart it would not subside
i felt like dying
until you save my life

thank god i found you
i was lost without you
my every wish and every dream
somehow became reality
when you brought the sunlight
completed my whole life
i'm overwhelmed with gratitude
cause baby i'm so thankful
i found you

i would give you everything
there's nothing in this world i wouldn't do
to ensure your happiness
i'll cherish every part of you
because without you beside me i can't survive
i don't wanna try
if you're keepin me warm each day and every night
i'll be all right
cause i need you in my life

thank god i found you(i'm beggin you)
i was lost without you(so lost without you)
my every wish and every dream(every dream, every dream)
somehow became reality
when you brought the sunlight(brought the sunlight)
completed my whole life
i'm overwhelmed with gratitude
cause baby i'm so thankful
i found you

see i was so desolate
before you came to me
lookin back i guess it shows
that we were destined to shine
after the rain to appreciate
and care for what we have
and i'd go through it all over again
to be able to feel this way

thank god i found you
i was lost without you(lost without you baby)
my every wish and every dream
somehow became reality
when you brought the sunlight
completed my whole life( whole life)
i'm overwhelmed with gratitude
sweet baby i'm so thankful
i found you

i'm overwhelmed with gratitude
my baby i'm so thankful i found you.

re: not done my maths homework

2007-07-02T02:00:00.000-07:00

a crow just pass by my house n went for sun bathe. haha

big dog name, bobby kinda rollin on the floor.

aww.. she's cute..

halfway bored from watchin tv.. tht's wht i'm ended up doin.

NOT DONE MY MATHS HOMEWORK AND YET I'M BLOGGIN???!!??.. wadever.. niways, i'll settle with my maths hoomework later yeah.. will ask some of my friends on the maths. haha.

nothin much but went watchin TV together with my mum in the living room.. we were watchin diana's party on star world.. nice show.. there's my favourite singer n band.. niways, half way got bored so this is what i ended up doin.. takin pictures again. hahaha

re: SUPERB exaushted.

2007-06-29T06:35:00.000-07:00

yo! wassup duck!..well, have'nt been bloggin for the last two days as i was kinda revisin and doin homework. oh n didn't went online for past 2 days too.aniway, nothin much today..but apparently, suppose to have a re-test on FnN but there's no ample time... and IT.. was like a... it's all just rated 16 or 18.. as in the conversation.. mr.robin was talkin bout all those stuff which we shouldn't be listenin to.. the guys just lovvve it.. omg.. niway, EOA.. was just as....emmm...hyper? or bored?.. mayb... was chewin gum durin her lesson.

mdm lim: bernadette, stop chewin like a cow
me: *sayin in my heart* koranajar seh..wadever that it..

at 1.00 sharp, i went straight home.. went to bath and all.. got dressed up into half-u for guides.. reached school quite late.. and i was all blushin..cuz of walkin under the humid sun.. all i know is, i was being single out by ms kua for the dancing competition.. grrr.. first of all, we were ask to learn this chinese dance steps which were too complicated for us.. so i suggested to her that we change the dance to HSM(high school musical) dance steps.. at least it's easier from.. let's say 2.45-5.28.. that's how long we practiced out dance steps.. and the best thing is, we only had like 5 minutes break.. i'm ALL IN right now. both my legs are wobbly as jelly and my whole body is as slothful as a snail?... seriously.. can hardly or barely open my eyes right now.. so yeah.. shall go online for just a couple of minutes and then i shall wash up and all and get into my sweetdreams yeah.

adios amigo.

re: dots

2007-06-26T06:39:00.000-07:00

yes siti... u wanna see my b-lated b'day present right.
here it is!.. from michelle..=]].. THANK YOU SOO MUCH.=]]

ben and jerry ice-cream..YUMMY!..hahha

can't really see clearly..but some guys from sabar
came to perform..

performance.

Basically... or supposedly, wasn't suppose to be bloggin as i'v said.. i don't wanna blog the whole time.. and wanna take a break from the computer.. but then thanks to siti norain.. cuz i have to go online and tell her the answers for maths..while she's patiently waitin, i was kinda thinkin and writtin down the answers..well, back then, i was kinda referin to the maths textbook.. it's almost the same method for some of the questions.. so yeah.. hope it's right.. today was nothin much.. had p.e lesson.. but our p.e teacher happens to be a invinsible one.. guys played soccer.. girls sat down chit-chattin and all.. walk to the soccer field.. siti plus fatin made some jokes.. as usual... laugh like insane...then it was maths.. screw that tank.. ops.. i mean tang..=#... first, was bein appeal by her to introduce ourselves again and to tell her what we did durin our 4 weeks of holiday.. kinda annoyed by her niway.. let's drop that subject...errrr.....felt like runnin away from prefect meetin.. but can't.. cuz it's IMPORTANT!!!.. according to MDM NURLI!... newtown secondary sudents leader as in prefects came to our school and all.. saw this cute guy.. lol.. plus siti norain also saw this guy that she like or admire.. hahaha...sorry ek siti.. haha...so yeah... ok.. seriously, i'm not gonna blog from tomorrow onwards.. unless there's a need to or if i'm seriously bored as hell then i'll blog.. and for computer wise or msn, i'll try not to go online often yeah.. cuz i wanna REVISE my work..sooo... guess that's bout it.. i'm gonna upload the pictures that i took in night safari yeah.. oh and sorrie yeah.. i just love makin people hungry or drool by puttin up pictures like ben&jerry ice-cream things like that.. hahaha...

re: last day i'm blogging

2007-06-24T05:30:00.000-07:00

hey!.. last day i'm bloggin.. tomorrow is the day where everybody drag their foot to school...but then, i love it when school re-opens.. cuz i'm seriously this june holidays was such a humdrum..all i did was went out with my mum for shoppin and MORE shoppin..[ my favourite..] and bought sunglasses and all..and those june holidays, my mum and i have been an early bird as we don't wanna be squizzing with the crowd later on.. every single day, we wake up around 8-9 plus... kinda great acturlly hangin out with mum to the mall..for whole day...then n the 20th of june.. headed but to school for my elective module and that's music composer. 3 days.. 3rd day, we went to the studio.. on saturday which is the 23rd of june, headed to cineleisure for guides carnival till 1.00.. headed back home.. and bout dinner time, went to vivo to celebrate my dad's b-lated father's day.. hang around there for awhile... and i've got whistled by this chi guy around my age...btw, we wanted to watch oceans 13. but then, if we bought tickets, the 6 of us would be separated.. so we didn't buy the tickets.. hang around vivo for few minutes.. headed home.. and today was my cousins b'day.. went to my grandmother house.. didn't really do anithin much... was such a humdrum.. except for my aunt made chocolate fundue... other then that, gotta wake up early again.. and i'll get some disturbance around me.. or some annoyin pest.. or some rumours or flirts or wadver it is.. this will be the last time i'm bloggin.. other then that, i'm not bloggin till i feel like it.. cuz i'm gonna be revisin and muggin on the subjects that i'm practically inadequate in yeah.. soo..

chao..see ya dudes,babes.
oh n all the mama's and apek or flirts and whoever is readin my blog..
hahaha.

re: too tired

2007-06-23T01:35:00.001-07:00

i've got nothin to say.. but will just upload some photo's of the recordin studio and today's guides carnival photo's yeah..

that's all for today. seriously, i'm all soo dead beat. these 4 days i've been wakin up early for elective modules and guides carnival.. today i can sleep quite late bout 11 plus.. and mayb wake up abit later around 11 plus or soo.. o well, i've gotta get change.. gonna go to VIVO city again to celebrate b-lated father's day for my dad. see ya

re: headin to the studio tmr!

2007-06-21T06:36:00.000-07:00

o well, we kinda almost done with our sound tune and our lyrics but not vocals yet.. we've gotta do the back ups and all...oh yeah we're headin the the STUDIO!.. kinda nervous to record our voice.. but it's ok.. just go for it yeah.. back ups are: florice,jeffi,me and shahidil:. 1 boy and 3 gurls. =))...

those few days durin music composer.. i'm a little insane.. i was kinda high durin those few days yeah.. with this crazi and irritatin girl name hilary..and i myself went kinda high for the fun of it.
and i've got mygrain today. cuz of re-searchin for lyrics and printin them plus thinkin of how to do the song and all.. man!... that's the reason i kinda went high today. and tomorrow, i guess i'm gonna be high again... can't wait to be at the studio for the veri first time..

i don't know your face no more
or feel your touch that i adore
i don't know your face no more
it's just the place i'm looking for

we might as well be strangers in another town
we might as well be living in a different world
we might as well(x3)

i don't know your thoughts these days
we're strangers in an empty space
i don't understand your heart
it's easier to be apart

we might as well be strangers in another town
we night as well be living in a another time
we might as well(x3)
we might as well be strangers
be strangers
for all i know of you now(x3)
for i know.

re: can i cry?

2007-06-20T06:46:00.000-07:00

o well, guess my friends like florice,hilary n samantha know bout it... but hilary do't really know wht happen.. only siti norain and samantha jie, know bout it... it's kinda long story niways... well,

CAN I CRY OUT LOUD??

AS IN SHED TEARS IN THE DARK OR SOMEHTIN??..

KINDA FUSTRATIN!! AND I SERIOUSLY HATE GUYS FOR DOIN THAT..

AS IN MAKE GIRLS HEART BROKEN???...

omg!!... this time it's after 3 WEEKS!!....

let's just say.. after my music coposer thingy, met at the shop near 7-11... then went parkway.. walkin around.. wanted to buy my b-lated b'day present but i don't have anithin in mind..=#..

then he started talkin and talkin and started makin me sad and all... it's like im soooo fustrated with that.. well, guess i shall not tell you wht he said.. unless u really wanna know then ask me in msn and i'll shall tell you the whole story... got back at around 4 plus or 5?.. walkin home almost cried on the way.. kinda control myself...as usual, i'll call siti for help. and that's how it is...

guys are like freakin a*** jerks!.. i mean some guys..-.-''..
and darn!!.. shouldn't have given him a second chance or soo..
DAM ME!!!.. never in my life will i fall for a guy!! EVER! and i meant it. =]
and never in my life i'll believe a guy..XD

aniway, let's not talk bout that..
the more i brag bout that, the more i'll start thinkin bout it. let's talk bout my music composer!!

it was fun and interestin.. and the best thing is, we get to make our own ringtone!!..cool huh..
well, tomorrow is like a day to me?? cuz we're gonna compose a song and stuff like that...
and friday, we're goin to the studio!!.. can't wait...!
aniway, 2 minutes to 10.. so i guess i gonna end here aight*

this last few weeks
i've been confused
sometimes if i wonder if
i'm better off alone

you fall in love
then break your heart
you fall in love again
it's never ending

i used to have this friend
who took his fiance
to see billy idol
a couple weeks before
their wedding day
the chick got backstage
and left my friends outside
next day she called from a hotel
asking for a ride

i guess i'm giving up on love
cause it really kind of sucks.

re: goin to school tomorrow

2007-06-18T23:51:00.000-07:00

woke up at 12 in the afternoon today. went brushin and washin up and all..skip that part.. don't wanna know aniway. well.. i can't sleep late. cuz i've gotta be in school tomorrow by 8.00 for elective module!!..grrr..but i'm takin music composer.. don't really know wht music to compose. aniways, it's 3 days.. wed-fri and sat i have to head down to orchard road for guides youth canival. soo. that four days, i'm gonna be buzy.. and sunday is one day for me to take a break and get ready for school..zzz...and i'll be like....the best thing is... i've got a math tests comin up when school re-opens...it's such a bore havin a maths test when school re-opens...guess i'm gonna do imperfectly for it. you know why. cuz i've not completed my maths holiday assignment. everytime i try doin, i'll get stress up easily.. mayb b cuz i don't have the basic.. well, no matter how hard it is or difficult it is, this comin month that is july, i'm gonna really buck up and mug on the subjects that i'm weak in.. like EOA, CHINESE and most of all, maths.. cuz i don't wanan retain sec 3 and let my parents down.. it's sooo embarrasin to let them down. if i can't pass my maths, at least i need to pass eoa n chinese. that's my target.aniway, i've gotta go..

if only
you could see the way that i feel
about you
yes, i need you beside me
is there anithin i can say?
before you walk away?
i just don't wanna loose you again
baby i want you to know

what am i gonna do?
no, i just can not live
i can't breathe without you
i want you back in my life
and i want to set things right
you know the way to my heart, baby

you're the one
you set me free
when you're close to me
and all that i do
is think about a way
to make you stay with me
you know the way to my heart

SORRIE BUT FISH!..THANKS TO MY AUNTY WHOM TOLD MY MUM BOUT ME HAVIN A FRIENDSTER!!.. AND LIKE 5 MINUTES AGO, MY MUM WENT BROWSIN MY PHOTO..WAS TELLIN ME BOUT WHY I PUT MY PHOTO OR WAD SO EVA IN MY FRIENDSTER...I CAN PUT MY PROFILE AS PRIVATE PROFILE.. OTHER THOSE PEOPLE OUT THERE WHOM DIDN'T ADD ME, WON'T SEE MY PICTURE.. ONLY THOSE WHO ADDED ME CAN SEE MY PHOTO..BUT IF THEY ADD ME, I CAN REJECT THEM....arggg...it's like she just popped into my life and my privacy!!....pfffffffffffff....

P.S.: I DON'T WANNA GO OUT WITH MY AUNT ANIMORE!!! AND I DON'T WANNA GO TO MY GRANDMOTHER HOUSE FOR LONG LONG TIME.. UNTIL I DECIDED TO GO N VISIT MY GRANDMOTHER FOR ONCE A YEAR!! THAT'S IT!..
i know wht i'm doin.. don't need ya to come poppin and draggin some stuff into my privacy...
the more i drag ito, the more i'll get sooo fustrated!!.. i'll shall stop here for a moment.. and mayb just ignore my mum for a moment!!..FAGGED!!...

re: bored as usual

2007-06-17T00:40:00.000-07:00

o well, yestrday was saturday and i blogged yesterday.. but they put it as friday.. niways.. i'm right now in my granny house..doin nothin but just slackin and all.. waitin for my mum to leave and and head to downtown...but still...i'm kinda dead-beat.. no choice but to head to my granny house to visit her as well as my grandfather when acturlly his still sleeping..while some of my aunt are gamblin.. as in majong... haiz...their always playin majong when they come visitin my granny..aniway.. i've ain't got idea.. so yeah.. i'll stop here yeah.

chaos..
oh n people, do enjoy 1 more week of holidays b4 headin back to school and start buckin up on our studies yeah...gotta improve our EOY exams aight*

see ya dudes.

re: bored as usual

2007-06-15T23:35:00.000-07:00

hey!!!

well, have'nt been bloggin for those 3 days back.. was sort of lethargic to blog.. thus, i've got nothin to blog bout.. so that's the reason of me not bloggin.. o well, i'm also kinda bored.. wait... not kinda bored to wayyy wayy too bored right now!!.. grrr.. just can't wait for school to re-opens.. seriously, if i'm not goin aniwhere durin holidays, i'll defenitely miss school as i can talk to my friends and all.. but if i'm goin overseas, hmm.. let's just say.. i don't really miss school.. but then, as days past, kinda miss school and friends.. aniway, didn't really do much but just read my story books.. hmm surf up the net..oops i mean serve.. XD.. hmm.. spendin time with mum doin shoppin.. goin to big shoppin malls.. walk till i'm dead-beat. well, not really though. hmm..and bought 4 movies from HMV..and they are aquamarine,in her shoes, emma and the devil wears prada.. what we did yesterday, my mum and i watch aquamarine first.. it's bout mermaid fallin in love with a hot surfer dude! and all.. then secondly, we watched the devil wears prada.. it's bout fashion and if u could handle all the work with no one asistance.. quite nice show acturlly.. after watchin 2 movies, went slackin and all..and today's weather was soooo nice and coolin as it was rainnin like cats and dogs.. was sleepin like a log and even went to dream land. hahaha..was dreamin of some lame n stupid stuff.. and the best thing is, almost fall off the bed..*giggles*. guess i was dreamin that i was gonna sliddin down the swimmin pool slide.
haha..aniway, seriously, i was sleepin like a log.. and my mum... she's like a alarm clock.. came up to the room and was like

mum:''* walk to the table turn around* gosh.. my girl is still sleepin... wake up''
me:'' *turn a deaf ear* zzzzzzzz
3 minutes later
mum:'' it's 11.00 and u still don't wanna wake up...c'mon..wake up''
me'' arggg..grr....zzzzz''
mum:* walk to her cupboard.. open the drawer.. lookin at the photo album*''

5 minutes later
mum'' OI! IT'S 12O'CLOCK ALREADI.. QUICK! WAKE UP2..I WANNA FIXS THE BED!''
me'' *rolls over to mum's side of the bed..lay there for few minutes..shut my eyes for awhile but ended up sleepin..-.-''*
mum'' can you please get ur butt out of the bed''
me'' get up and went to the toilet''

that's the end of it.. and that was how tired i am..aniway, i know that schools re-opnin soon.. and duh.. i can wake up straight.. it's not like i will oversleep or somethin.. so yeah..
just bored.. did practically nothin but readin newspapers..listenin to ''music'' as in the drillin and thumbin on the floor outside my house..givin me headaches and all..soo..yeah.. i'll end here yeah.. and tomorrow it's either i'm goin to downtown east or not.. to celebrate my mum's colledge b'day. havin bbq..gonna be dead bored i guess.. gotta chao.

if you could see what i see
you?'re the answer to my prayers,
and if you could feel the tenderness i feel
you would know it would be clear, that angels brought me here

standin here before you
feels like i've been born again
every breath if your love
every heartbeat speaks your name

my dreams came true right here in front of you my miracle.

re: thikin if i can give another reason to my mum for this thursday

2007-06-12T02:17:00.000-07:00

yo!..wasup dog.. aniway, was suppose to date my guy.. but.. well, parents don't allow... pfff...acturlly, my parents don't really know that i hav a guy.. sooo, friends of mine out there, keep it low aight* if u happen to see my mum or wad so ever, don't ever swear his name infront her. if not i'm gonna be in hot soup i think..ok but let's just say my mum have seen his photo before..and u know what she says bout this guy, she said that his good-lookin but have the playboy look. hahaha.
niways, woke up bout 11.45 or 12.20 if i'm not wrong.. went washing and brushin up and all. after that, was suppose to make my bed but too lethargic to do it. keke.. went down reading newspapers and waited for my mum to come bck with my lunch as she brought my sis to marine parade doctor..mum claims that she talked too much that's why my sis got a sore-throat. LOL. -.-''.. after lunch, practise my piano for like 1hr 45 minutes?...was kinda dead-beat and all.. so i went for my bathe and took a hmmm.. let's just say 1hr nap?.. but over all, my day was a monotonous day..zzzzzzz... o well, gotta go have my dinner... see ya peeps.

sometimes it's the words we don't say that get in the way
time wil break down the walls that we've built between us
i won't ever be speechless

i wanna know you inside out
i wanna know you without a doubt
and though we're shy
would it be easier just to say goodbye
i want to learn to read your mind
i want to say the words but my tongue gets tied
and don't feel shy
would it be easier just to say goodbye

i find i get lost for words around you
overwhelmed by your presence?

re: grr.. can't hang out with him!.. ehem*.. i mean friends.. hahah

2007-06-10T07:46:00.000-07:00

after time after time
cuz you're all i wanted to find
and i would drive, the whole night true
jut so i could spend time with you
i know you're mine, and i hope it's true
that when we fight, we will make it through
all the things we talk about you know they stay on my mind..

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

nothin much but i seriously can't hang out with ehem*. hahha. acturlly it's a guy.. from our school..
can't say out the level though. u have to find out urself. well, i've gaven him that second chance. he could see that he really realise his mistakes and all.. and now i can see that his really interested in me..sooo sweet of him to buy me a ring for my b-lated b'day present but GRRR.. tried ways to hang out, but mum just don't allow.. cuz she may think that he may be wooin me if he ask me out...just tryin ways that's all.. if worse comes to the worse, then shall meet him up on the 20th june after my elective module...gosh!.. kinda miss him badly.. hhaha.. o well, this holiday, will be hangin out with my parents and all.. just stayin at home lazin round.. readin story books.. watchin educational shows and erm... mayb be a part time tourist with my mum.. as in goin to the zoo and all kinda stuff.. =].. o well, gotta go.. see ya.. and siti, if ur readin this, sorrie if i didn't go online.. something's wrong with my msn.

see ya..

re: feelin kinda high..

2007-06-08T05:57:00.000-07:00

THANKS MUM!!.. FOR BUYIN THOSE SUNGLASSES
THN I'VE WANTED. i love my mum!!. hahaha.

aww.. their just sooooo adorable!!.eeee..hahah

YAY!!!.. THANKS MUM FOR BUYIN THE SUN GLASSES THAT I WANTED. XD.. feelin kinda high yeah.. cuz both my mum and i, first we went to robinson buyin her shoes and all.. so i accompanied her till bout 12 plus.. from robinson, we went to VIVO CITY!!.. spend bout 5hrs if i'm not wrong over there.. woooo.. quite LOADS OF SHOPS.. and restaurants and though i'm tired of walkin.. but still i'm like distracted by those shops and everythin that's there.. haha..and i went to pet safari.. those puppies are as adorable as always.!!.. was truly engrossed with em till i took 2 or 3 photo's of diff puppies.. u can see as i'm a pet lover. hahah.. continue with the sun glasses story.. went to tangs shop. saw pandents and all.. then out of the blue, the sunglasses caught my eyes.. was smilin away and went lookin at it.. one pair cost 15.90. so i bought two. that's 31.80.. hey!, but at least it's cheap.. rather then yesterday's sunglasses at parkway that cost bout 50-80 bucks.. and the pet safari, wanted to take another photo of the jack russell.. but then some young and cute but smelly butt boy blocked my view though i've said'' excuse me'' .. hahah.. i'm soo evil.. o well, let's talk bout some other stuff.. strollin around vivo city.. almost walk to harbour front but we made a u-turn back.. along the way, went to B.U.Ms to buy a t-shirt as i was freezin cold after i had my milkshake drink.. bought a sweet t-shirt and wore over my sleeveless tee.. well, once wearin that t-shirt, some guy start lookin at me n even smile at me.. oh n even when i was comin down the escalator..hiden guy whistled at me.. once more when i came out of guardian, hiden guy, whistled.. pfff...aniways, got back around 6.30.. just nice for dinner.. so yeah..both legs are quite tired acturlly..hees*.. gotta end here..

see ya peeps.

re:....

2007-06-07T06:13:00.001-07:00

yo!.. just testin to see if my blogs workin. the whole diary i wrote.. kinda got lost.. once it's back, i'll post a proper one yeah.. TESTIN!..haha

niway, let's not bother bout tht.. guess there's somethin wrong with the internet or so.. o well, i slept bout 2.00 past midnight yesterday.. haha.. broke my record huh.. i was kinda...chattin with friends and all.. and was readin few pages of story books.. tht's why i slept realy late.. and best thing is was bein asked to wake up striaght at 10.30.. to make my IC.. and i'm gonna collect it in school from the office on the 3rd week of july tht's 20th.. oh n thanks to my mum i was like rubbin my nose all the time.. she made me nose itch by askin me to find her jewelries under the bed and under the table. filled with dust. that got me sneezin non-stop for awhile.. after doin all those stuff, went parkway for lunch and bought some stuff for my sis bf's sisters weddin.. guess their gonna do some insane or mayb chaotic stuff?.niways, got back around 4 plus.. watch this show called'' first preseident'' on star movies.. then did tried completin or let me just say doin like 1 or 2 an a half of my holiday assignment...and..right now, i'm blogging.. some guys out there and che-ko-pek uncle was lookin at me while strollin at parkway with my mum.. sooo grose..oh and can i just spit it out...nahx nvm... if u wanna know, ask me in msn. hahhaha. o well, i'm blank in my brain right now.. gotta go reply msges from friends in friendster.. see ya.

love's for a lifetime not for a moment
so how could i throw it away
yeah i'm only a human
and nights grow colder
with no-one to love me that way
yeah i need someone who really sees me

and i won't wake up alone anymore
still believing you'll walk through my door
you'll reach for me and i'll know it's for sure
then i'll give all the love in the world
(don't wanna wake up alone anymore..)

re:....

2007-06-07T06:13:00.000-07:00

yo!.. just testin to see if my blogs workin. the whole diary i wrote.. kinda got lost.. once it's back, i'll post a proper one yeah.. TESTIN!..haha

b'day

2007-06-04T23:35:00.001-07:00

CUTE!!..FROM SIS!..THANK YOU!!.xd

father and daughter togetherness.=]]

HAPPY 15TH B'DAY TO ME!

let me think wht 15 is like..hmmm.. it's like ur growin up fast and all..gotta be veri matured and stuff like that.. as in try changin my behaviour towards my parents..been very rough to them lately.. as in talk loudly to them.. and sometimes even shout at them despite the fact that they've thought me good manners. that's how violent i am...wahahaha.. woooo. now the truth hav been spoutted out.as in true colors..XD.. but not towards my dad.. but speakin of my dad., when he disturb or irritate me, i'll grumble or show my attitude to him but not shout..if i do, guess he'll be scoldin me upside down. and he'll show his black face and all. haha. but my mum, if i do talk loudly or shout at her, she'll lecture me as in talk strictly to me.. so yeah.. even i myself know that i'm in the wrong but still i've been doin that repeatedly. of cuz not everyday..only when my parents or kinda annoyin or just love naggin and naggin.. i'll just reply'' YA LA2'' OR '' MUST YOU REPEAT IT.? I KNOW WHT TO DO'' stuff like that.. so yeah... just wanna change my whole character towards my parennts..wadever they do.. or if they nag, it's acturlly for our own good.. so i'll just sit there and listen n try bein responsible enough to do things the right way. o well, i'm right now at home updatin my blog as i'm bored. but goin out for dinner as my b'day celebration of cuz with my parents n my sibling plus ym sis bf.. and after my b'day tht's tmr, i'm gonna colect my IC. and then get started on my holiday homework. plus things to improve and to pay attention on when school starts is CHINESE,MATHS and EOA.. those three subjects that i must buck up on..n realy mug on them everyday after school. when i say it, i must do it.. it's not like words speak but no action done. nahx.. o well, guess i shall end here. and go lookin for pictures to draw..

all day starin at the ceiling
making friends with shadows on the wall
all night hearin voices tellin me
that i should get some sleep
because tomorrow might be good for somethin

hold on
feelin like i'm headed for a breakdown
and i don't know why

but i'm not crazy, i'm just a little unwell
i know right now you can't tell
but stay awhile and mayb then you'll see
a different side of me
i'm not crazy, i'm just a little impaired
i know right now you don't care
but soon enough yo're gonna think of me
and how i used to be....me

i'm talkin to myself in public
dodgin glances on the train
and i know, i know they've all been talkin bout me
i can hear them whisper
and it makes me think there must be somethin wrong with me
out of the hours thinkin
somehow i've lost my mind.

re:none

2007-06-03T08:12:00.000-07:00

just some random picttues of my drawins.

2 more days b4 my b'day.. but i guess my b'day gonna be the most tedious b'day celebration.. parents hav no plans for my celebration except for that jap lunch we had yesterday at paragon.. had sumptious dinner of cuz.. 15!! gonna be 15!!...yay!.. but then.. still don't hav a room for myself.. oh yeah.. just b4 it slipped off my mind.. gonna be collectin my IC on the 6 of june.. lucky me needn't collect in school. haha..just don't wanna collect it in school.. no idea why..let me see.. mum gave me red packet for my b'day present.. granny gave me a billabong file.. let's see wht will my b'day present gonna b on my actual b'day.. oh n tmr is my sisters b'day. so yeah... just bored.. guess we won't be goin to australia animore.. mum's buzy.. dad's buzy.. and me gotta be in school on the 20th june- 22 of june for my elective module. that's music composer.. i know.. i've not completed my holiday assignment yet.. just wanna wait till my b'day over the nxt day then i shall touch on my holida assignment.. at least i did somethin and not just laze for the whole of june holidays..o well..june holiday just bore me to death. unless i be a part time tourist with my mum n go visit places like botanical garden or some place that i've not been for ages?.. =))..

imagine that your heart would beat for me
you know that i'm waitin patiently
till your by my side
everyday; everynight
baby your the one that i need can't you see
you know my heart is beatin just for you
baby i don't seem to find the clue
to be by your side
every day and every night
but i feel my heart is aching without you

mayb i'll be the one
if you want me here to stay
mayb i'll be the one
to guide you all the way
no i'm never gonna hurt you
you're always on my mind
and i'll be the one until the end of time

sure there is away for you and me
together and forever it will be
i'll be by your side
every day and every night
but i'll feel my heart is aching without you

re: really exaushted

2007-05-31T08:00:00.000-07:00

hey hey hey...
sup sup sup oi..

FREAKIN HELL BORED.. mayb not goin to australia..dad kinda buzy and mum can't be away for long.. so.. mayb gonna stay in s'pore for this month.. went taka today with mum.. walk around and shop for clothes and all..instead i'm the one buyin clothes.. wahahha. and my mum bought toilettries, one clothes and food.. how evil am i... well today is the 31th of may.. tomorrow's the 1st of june.. and yay! my b'day is comin this tueday. so.. can't wait.. but though i'm turnin 15 really soon, dun really know how it feels like bein 15.. just felt bein older as b'days past.. i just needa wake up and show my mum that i can be really responsible or let her trust me..and not be irresponsible and stuff like that..tht's how i wanna be yeah. oh and just wanna work harder this time round..no pain no gain.. just try.. and go for it.. really and seriously wanna improve on my chinese.. don't wanna slack or laze durin chinese class.. no more!!.. cuz the truth is, i've been not payin well attention enough durin mother tongue lesson.. :#.. GOSH! I'VE JUST SPIT OUT THE TRUTH.. tht is why i've been screw-ing my mother tongue durin the common test n mid-year.. now i really wanna improve at least make my mum proud/happy..if not she'll be naggin and all. and not forgettin, i've not done my holiday assignment..:#.. felt soo nonchalant durin june holidays.. let me think... guess i'll shall start alleviating my assignment by gluin my eyes onto it after my b'day or so yeah.. that will do.. seriously i've been tooo laid-back these days.. shall start on my hmwk after my b'day yeah..XD.. oh well, i'm soo exshausted.. shall stop here.. see ya peeps round.

when your heart decides
that it's time to let it through
there's no reason to be scared
to open up
cause love may be blind
but all of us don't see it
so just once in your life
if you hear the knock of love
just let it in

hold her closer when she cries
hold her closer when you know it's time to say goodbye
you hurry back to see her smile again
and hold him closer when he's down
when his world is upside down
turn it around

so hold her closer when she cries
hold her closer when she feels
she needs a hand to hold
someone who'll never let her go
and hold her closer when she's down
when her world is upside down
turn it around
hold her close.

re: finally back from camp

2007-05-30T00:23:00.000-07:00

finally i'm back from overseas camp.

o well, we obviously took a bus all the way to malaysia checkpoint..then stop over at yong ping for a rest.. then drove all the way to taman hutan legenda camp..once reached there..we still have to walk up to the place..though it's tirin but good exercise and get ourselves ready for camp. haha.. then we went to our bunk. thought we would be sleepin on our sleepin bags but never expected that there was a double decker bed for us.. it's my first time goin for overseas camp and sleepin on the bed..niways, our instructors was lilian and shyam.. first day didn't really do anithin but went thinkin of a cheers and wadsoever that we needa do..first day our group was kinda non-enthusiatic and all. as in like not sportin and stuff...first day was borin and all... now for second day.. second day we went to the paddy field to learn bout the rice thingy.. and so we have to step on mud and best thing is, my shoe was all muddy.. but still, quite interestin..b4 we went to the paddy field, we did our CIP.. and CIP, we have to walk from one end to the other.. long long walk..till some of us felt de-hydrated, some felt like faintin, n some felt exshausted.. for example, sabariah wore two shirts and was giddy and all.. while i felt giddy and my face was rosey.. so the van had to drive those who are down.. after the whole walkin, rested for awhile.. went for kayakin.. though i dun really know how to kayak, but slowly i learn.. i had no partner and so i had to partner Izzat... both of us kinda collaborate with each other.. first of all, we had to do some water thingy.. as in like some of us are afraid of water so we had to go in the water for awhile holdin each others hands and stuff... then we went into the kayak boat.. after kayakin, we did raftin.. i had sunburn.. let'see what am i gonna parley bout...oh and the best thing is, there's this malay dance.. after dancin, they went pickin up students i mean callin us to come up.. and i was picked.. they kept forcin me but i reject them and they continue until they gave up...durin the camp''fire'' we had to perform.. in between there's a game...aniway, about the whole camp, i felt it was quite ok and quite fun... but my worst was nightwalk as i have phobia of darknest.. but then i was with atikah. i was kinda sheddin tears but she kept on cheerin me up and tellin me to relaxs.. thank you soo much atikah!.. yeah..

now that i'm finally back, i'm 100% exshausted.. gotta go for now...
thanks to the taman hutan legenda camp, i've got minor cuts and lots of rashes on my butt..THANK YOU!!..XD...

if i lay here
if i just lay here
would you lie with me and just forget the world

forget what we're told
before we get too old
show me a garden that's burstin into life

all that i am
all that i ever was
is here in your perfect eyes, they're all i can see

i don't know where
confused about how as well
just know that these things will never change for us at all

if i lay here
if i just lay here
would you lie with me and just forget the world?